The unpredictability of the colour .

Wednesday, September 25, 2013

Hello everyone ! Basically my blog entry is going to be really long today and I've uploaded a few pictures (haha, haven't really done that in years). I'm currently confronted by a fusillade of thoughts and so, I decided to vent them out in my blog. So my readers, feel free to scroll through the "essay" as you may simply label it as or you might employ some(conveniently-done selective reading. Well the onus is on you ;

Photolog of the day - "Helping others really goes a long long long way".

"The purpose of human life is to serve, and to show compassion and the will to help others" - Albert Schweitzer.

Well, finally my laptop is "up and running". Well basically my brother borrowed my favourite thumbdrive and used it in a cybercafe to save some stuff for printing and some malicious virus or maybe a hailstorm of viruses latched itself onto my drive and when I had used it on my laptop to access some files, it corrupted my whole registry and I was greeted by the "screen of death". So imagine the shell-shocked face of mine whenever the blue screen greeted me. So basically I ran my anti-virus and the problem still existed. I even tried a plethora of registry cleaners, C & D drive cleaners, deleted cookies/temporary files, scanned the system with some other anti-virus softwares but to no avail. So I was pretty stressed up and Deadpool offered to help me out. So I went to his house on Saturday in the evening and we tried all our best to save my data and to sort out my laptop but it was almost impossible to do anything. I left mid-way to meet some friends and I returned back to his place (all this while he was working on my laptop) and still, we couldn't sort it out.

The main idea was, I posted a funny Facebook status saying something like : "my laptop crashed (and all my files are at a compromising stage) and I cannot believe I ate 2 ice creams just to handle that depressive period. Tsk". A series of Facebook messages started pouring in from concerned users and 4 people offered to help me out (Hassan bro, Deadpool, Gopi and Navin). So that was when I tried everything possible within my means to work it out all by myself and after the failed attempt, I decided to ask Deadpool to help and since we couldn't sort out things, I replied to Hassan bro. Basically Deadpool told me that we might have to re-format my whole laptop back to its factory settings and then transfer my backed up data. But unfortunately, I didn't have my recovery CD which meant that I might have to purchase an OS CD (windows). So I was kinda lost. I explained the situation to Hassan bro and he told me that he can do it - he told me he can bring back my laptop from the "dead". So I agreed to meet him the next day.

So in case anyone is wondering who Hassan bro is and why was he even wanting to help me out - here's a mini bit from me. Basically in 2011, I agreed to help the 3 guys above to star in their music video entitled "Facebook Kadhalee" (Facebook lover). From left : Romeo Saran, myself and Dj Funkysara (Btw, I wasn't wearing slippers in that shots).Well Funkysara is a household name. Many of us would have heard of his remixed songs and he even danced for Acidhouz and Geethanjali back then and now he's into rapping. Romeo Saran was just a remixer who was trying out editing and all - well right now he is doing well. He recently won 3rd prize in the Dhool V audio track competition jointly organised by Vasantham and Oli 96.8FM. So at that point in time, I placed high hoped on the credibility of the project but when I went down for the shoot, I realised that it was an amateur attempt. But I never belittle passionate people or people with alot of love and passion for the Arts. So I decided to be all professional and helped them out.

So that was when I met Hassan bro. He was the Director of Photography (or rather, the cameraman) in that project. Basically I had a soft spot for him because he was really young and he was carrying the camera and all the associated equipment from location to location and I was admiring his passion. I mean things work differently in a professional project but you really get to notice the amount of hardwork the budding/aspiring passionate people put in an amateur project. At that point in time, I did my first lead role in Vasantham with the "Ennule" episode and I was quite popular with people and Hassan bro was literally afraid of me - he was literally putting me on a pedestal at that point in time and was like doing things for my own comfortability. I mean I don't know how other people react but I will always be the same old me no matter how many professional projects I may have done. I mean that is just me. So well, yes, I was impressed with Hassan bro's hardwork and I remember praising him and I did give him some tips here and there.

So on Saturday he dropped me a Facebook message and I replied on Sunday and I agreed to meet him near his workplace or his home on Monday because I was asking him for a favour and I didn't want him to travel. So he ended work much earlier on Monday morning and I told him that I would come straight to Bugis (he lives right behind Bugis+) and I was reaching Bugis when I texted him and his "last seen" on 'What App' was like 30 minutes earlier and I thought he might have dozed off especially since he was back from night shift. So I called him a few times and he didn't pick up. So I ended up loitering at Tekka and I went over to Sim Lim Square to look around when he called me like 1 hour 20 minutes later. He felt so bad for making me wait and I felt really sad that I was troubling a guy who just ended his night shift. So we met and I passed him my laptop and I explained my problems to him. So I told him that I was going to shop around a while and he told me that he would try to fix my laptop as fast as he could and that he would message me when he is done. So I was done with my shopping and I was on my way home when I realised that I had forgotten to message him. So I dropped him a text and he replied with "oh Sis, if you can give me 30 minutes I would be done". I was truly appalled at how fast he ended up doing it. I mean he only took about 1 hour to get everything done.

Frankly, he was (and is) a gem of a guy ! He was really tired from his work and yet he worked through his sleep just for me and he even installed important softwares into my laptop when he reformatted my it. The best thing was, he did a 'technical rehabilitation' of my laptop free of charge. I swear I was really so so so so touched by his kind gesture. I mean, firstly its not even his duty to help me out. He didn't even have a need to help me out at all. But the help that I offered boomeranged back to me at the highest order. I mean, based on the current state of turbulence my opinion of "help" had changed - you might call that cognitive dissonance. But my opinion has been reinstated - all thanks to this act alone. I am truly so touched by Hassan bro. Bro, I know I thanked you a plethora of times but, seriously, thank you so so so much again. That selfless act truly means alot to me. Thank you so much.

Well that was the promotional poster for 'Facebook Kadhalee". Hassan bro and Romeo Saran literally used a Facebook format to get it done. Haha :P

So that being said, Deadpool thank you so much for that assistance. I mean honestly, you don't have a need to help me out too but you went all the way. Hahaha, we spent like almost 8 hours trying to work on my laptop. Really, thank you so much for it. Really means alot to me. And, I am in love with April. She really stole my heart (see she even posed for me in this picture). Well Deadpool was complaining and said that "I was reading that entry n was thinking "kastapattu laptop'eh fix pannunathu naaa.... aana April'mattum blog'le entry aayirukku". Hahahha, sorry Deadpool, your April is too cute and besides, I didn't take a picture of you. Hehehehe. But well, right now I did thank you in my entry right ?. See you got featured ! Hahaha. Extra space as compared to April :P

MARRIAGE / COMMITMENTS / RELATIONSHIPS

Basically, I am truly upset with a friend of mine. We're not in talking terms now. A few months back I had sent him a message on Facebook and I told him that I was thankful for the times when he was there for me and I told him that I was exasperated with his ridiculous acts and that I hope we do not cross paths and I wished him all the very best for his future endeavours. But somehow, fate always comes with its own game plan. On Monday I woke up to a Facebook message from a very unlikely friend and I was shocked and when I read the content of the message I was a little perplexed. I mean I was wondering why she had decided to do that thing that she did. So I chatted with her and each message from then on truly shocked me so much that I almost got dizzy. I swear I got dizzy. So at this juncture, I really am so disturbed by the turn of events. Once upon a time, I shared my feelings with some people from my old clique about a certain couple and how I thought things were going at a breakneck speed and of course, people thought I was too preoccupied about their lives and yes, that left me annoyed but looking back now, I realised that I was just SPOT ON with my instincts and with my superficial deductions of the whole situation. I mean, I wasn't preoccupied with their lives but rather, I was a concerned friend. I was truly concerned because I knew him too well to know that this was just going too fast. Too fast for him to handle. Oh well, yes - I don't talk to him, my old clique cares a shit about him and what not. But I cannot like pretend that I am not disturbed - can I ?. He was my friend and I DID care about him although he annoyed me too many times.

So right now, I just want to vent out my thoughts. Well maybe some day I might find myself in the same situation and this entry will help me out then ?. I don't know but it might.

WHY RUSH ?

Ok honestly, at this point in time I see that my newsfeed is often flooded with ROM pictures, pictures of friends entering the wedlock, pictures of their newborns and what not. Well, I love to see such happy occasions. Like I know I shed tears of joy when I saw my cousins say "I do". I love such occasions but wait - why do people rush ?. I mean I see that alot of people get into a relationship for 5 months, then get ROMed and then married. I mean, are you fucking serious ?. Some even get married just because they got their partner pregnant. I mean, do you people realise that there is something called "life after marriage" ?. It is DEFINITELY not the same as how it was when you people were in a relationship. It is alot more different that you can possibly imagine. Yes I am not married and I probably wouldn't know but hello - if you have the brains you might be able to make some concrete deductions from observations, experimental studies and even case studies !.

Like I personally wouldn't encourage a young couple (in their 16-20) to contemplate on entering the wedlock just because they got their partners pregnant. I would rather you abort the foetus/fetus. Yes, it is against my principle but principles will have to be re-evaluated when reality hits you hard across your face. Trust me, it is definitely so easy for the opponents of abortion to say "OMG, you're killing a life" and whatnot. But when you're 16-20, how do you even expect to raise that child ?. Do you want to compromise the standard of a quality life offered to that poor child ?. And at 16-20 - do you really think these couples will remain intact and grow old together ?. Obviously not. Their immaturity led to such a disastrous act and they would soon start to mature and their decisions would change and do you really think its fair for the poor child to be naturally prescribed to the course of their respective decisions ? In addition, what might the financial status of a 16-20 be like ?. The guy might be studying or might be in NS and your meager pay would suffice the needs of a child ? How about the Mom - do you really think you can provide for the means of the child ? You might leave school to find a job - a job that suits your incomplete education and do you really think you can provide for the child ?. Your own financial status would come back to bite you in the ARSE and marital problems would appear and form a crack in your relationship. The crack would permeate through and eventually break your home. Do you really want all this ?. Why change the fate of an innocent child with a stupid decision of yours ?. C'mon, this is when I think reality should be embraced and thoughts should be crystallized and then evaluated and eventually, carried out. Honestly, I would rather you abort the poor child than to get him/her to go through shit with you. Well, you would eventually be punished with a lifelong of psychological and emotional trauma - an extra emotional baggage to be carried forth throughout your life - right ?. Yes, I may seem extremely judgmental here, but too many cases have intensified my judgments.

Also, for those who're 21-30 - yes marriage might be on your cards but honestly, please think through before you choose to act upon it. I mean, I for one believe that you should be at a position to support yourself before you choose to embark on a whole new chapter of your life. Once you have secured the financial statuses of both partners, you need to think of the "life after marriage" and then reaffirm your decision. I mean yes, when you're in a relationship you cannot wait to get married. I definitely never dreamt of a marriage until I got attached back then and I know that I used to talk about marriage, the house we would live, the holidays we would go for, the kids we would have, etc etc when I was attached to my ex. But honestly, I would have evaluated alot of things before choosing to get married. I know I would have. But c'mon, love is a journey and marriage is just like an elevation of a whole new chapter - I mean it's like compressing 2 different books together to create a different chapter and the "story" doesn't end until the last page. I hate seeing couples who have no clear idea of a future entering the wedlock. I mean, why ?. Is it because people say 'love should end in marriage' that your focus is somehow tuned to scrutinise the latter ?. Oh please, c'mon. For me, I personally believe that I should have my degree, a career and a certain amount of money in the bank before I enter my wedlock and I know I will never change that opinion even if I am happily in love with a millionaire and whatnot ?. Well I've worked in law firms before I know how messy divorces can get. I mean, we're at the era where divorces are inevitable. It's not about the "we will make this work" but rather, its the "you got a problem with me, well I am going to see someone else or we should file for divorce under the "irreconcilable differences" and you and I should walk the separate paths henceforth" phase. I hate seeing the ladies beg their partners for maintenance for themselves and their kids and even file a report against their partners for not paying the maintenance. I have seen how the bastards of the husbands laughing out to me saying that even after the divorce their wives are still at their mercy. I mean I HATE to witness such a scenario. I really loathe it. I personally think both guys and girls should have their own fucking self-respect intact. What is the point of begging for maintenance from your former spouse ?. C'mon. If you know you can sustain yourself (with a career propelled by your good education) and your savings, then do you think you got to beg your spouse for money ?. At this juncture, your self-respect would remain intact. Well it's up to the goodwill of your spouse to contribute to the educational means of his/her child if he/she wants to but that should be the limit. Well, I don't know but this is my belief.

Or imagine, your spouse dies mid-way into the early stages of your married life. Your shared income would be severely crippled and shouldn't you be at a position where you can sustain yourself ? Well your family can support you but for how long ?.

Next, "life after marriage" also consist of merging the behaviours and mannerisms of your partners and being able to stay put in the same house. I mean alot of people focus so much on the renovations for their new houses, the furniture, the big-screen plasma TV, the tiles and what not. But not many think about the "life after it all". For an instance, I cannot stand a dirty toilet - I expect my family members to clean the toilet - with water at least when they're done with their "shit", I am particular about cleanliness (I'm not a clean freak) but I cannot tolerate a messy sink, overflowing rubbish bag or whatsoever and my partner may end up to be quite of the opposite and this difference - as minute as it may be - can actually lead to fights. The smallest things truly matter when you live under the same roof. Honestly, marriage is not about having hot sex with your dream partner, cooking for each other and whatever romantic things your mind can conjure up but its MORE than that. Its about cleaning up the mess after a hot sex, its about tolerating the snores, the smelly farts, the nosy relatives, the funny behaviours of your partners (like imagine your partner has the tendency to wake up exactly at 3.14 am and dance to 'Oppa Gangnam' style before heading back to sleep - I mean yes I may over-exaggerate here but you will never know what kind of funny mannerisms and behaviours your partners may have) and etc. Well its infact more than what I have even written out - life after marriage is more than that. So it's not going to be all "flowery" and there would be a plethora of grey patches here and there and of course, fate has its own game play - you would never know.

So at this juncture, I really want to know how many couples have thought through about all this - especially after the "life" after marriage. Trust me, no one likes their marriage to end up in a divorce but if you do not plan well, then problems would appear and it would eventually ruin your marriage and with the advent of social media platforms and the popularised idea of "friends with benefits" and "no-strings attached relationships", its alot easier for people to cheat on their partners and it would eventually exacerbate the marital torture. I mean yes, this whole train of thought might be random but the idea got tapped as I analysed my friend's situation from afar. Marriage is definitely not a piece-of-cake but rather, a concerted effort of both partners and you would minimise the possibility of a crack in your marriage as long as you have planned for the life after marriage. I am using the word "minimise" here because sometimes, somethings are beyond our control - especially emotions.

DECEPTION

Ok I am not going to mention names but I am truly disgusted with a well-known 'Vasantham' celebrity. A friend of mine had a brilliant idea for a business venture and he shared the idea with his friend (the celebrity). The celebrity thought that the idea was good and he asked my friend to explain more. So my friend really trusted the celebrity and showed him his proposal, the idea of the business venture and the contact list. So that celebrity told him that the idea was really good and all. So a few days later, my friend was informed that the celebrity had registered for the business. So my friend thought that all was good and that they were the partners. Oh it is a big business venture and an organisational chart had to be drawn. So my friend had the chance to look at the organisational chart and to his horror, that celebrity included his whole family into the business. He was the director and the CEO, accountants, managers/HR executives were all from his family and the hierarchical channel was a long one and my friend's name wasn't included in it at all.

I trust my friend because it was a first-hand information and well - of course I know it all (and I can't explain any further). Basically I am sure if the business is executed well, it will really be a successful venture. I mean I believe in the idea and I am just hella sure it would run - if you execute it well. Since the celebrity is a well-known celebrity, he can always use his "image" to garner in the contacts and with his contacts he can always market his business well.

So at this juncture, I truly pity my friend. Trust ? I guess you need to know who to trust at the very end of the day. I mean the deceptive ones do not reveal their masks when you first meet them - they only remove their veil when you're in hot waters - right ?. Food for thought :)

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