The unpredictability of the colour .

Thursday, March 30, 2006

Good Charlotte - Hold on

Your days
You say they're way too long
And your nights
You can't sleep at all
Hold on
And you're not sure what you're waiting for, but you don't want to no more
And you're not sure what you're looking for, but you don't want to no more

So , what's the rationale behind the picture above ? . A wonderful photograph that can help convey my emotions to my readers ! . What more can I ask for ?

Today , many people teared during H1 maths . We sensed the danger ! . It's just like sitting on a fence . The pressure arising from the tension-filled atmosphere and the uncertainity of the situation we were pushed to, proved too much for the majority of us . So we exhibited our emotions . Yes . I was one of them too . I was really embarassed when Puvana saw me crying . Later to my shock , that sweet girl went to the loo to cry her heart out . Silvia broke down too . How ? . I can sense the impending danger looming around the H1 class . How ?

What are we suppose to do now ? . Do we really need advises ? No . What we need is a tight hug . Hug that can eliminate all the uncertainities that seems to lurk at every corner that we turn to . Haiz . No matter what , complaining doesn't change anything . In fact , hardwork can change everything . 06C2 will do it . Cheers ma pals .

Oh yes . Today was Hue Ling's birthday . We sang her a birthday song and decided to celebrate the special day at KAP . The unfortunate thing was , I was unable to attend the ' party ' . Haiz . Btw , I am so happy to announce that I love 06C2 !! . In fact the whole class is soo happy now . We really bonded soo well and it's sooo fun to hang out with all babes and the hunks of the class . Hehe . Yuru is my teacher . Cheryl is my buddy to play pranks onto . Arfie & Rachel - the sunshine of the class . Calvin , Gab , Shao Wei and Chun Chen -- the hunks of de class . Hafiz My PE adviser . Carolyn , Hanisah & Hanisah , Suhailah , Sheila and Izzah -- my partners in crime .. Haha . Puvana - the soul I lament about H1 maths to . Haha . I love 06C2 just like how I loved 05A3 .

The another best thing to look forward to is my H2 ( higher MT ) class . Woo . Damn power-pack . The 4 of us - John Pravin Raj , Govan , Karpagam and I are the best of friends ! . In fact that wonderful Govan decided to name the clique " The Kalakkal Koottu Kudumbam " . Haha . I Higher MT is fun with them around me laa ! . In fact , I went out with Govan and John ; actually to discuss on our upcoming RJC debate . But we ended up crapping non-stop . So unfortunate that Karpagam couldn't come . Haiz .

Tomorrow is our RJC impromptu debate ! . I am quite anxious though . Well , what can you expect ? It's impromptu !! Haha . God please help us . Govan will be the 1st speaker , John 2nd , I - 3rd and Rafi 4th . Weeeeeeee !! I can't wait to go RJC . Haha . I bet my close friends would know why ! . I might see HIM there ! . Hahaha .

Ok guys . I got to go now . Adioz .

A small dedication to the wounded soul ( especially to those taking H1 maths in the B class )

Hold on if you feel like letting go
Hold on it gets better than you know
Don't stop looking, you're one step closer
Don't stop searching, it's not over
Hold on

06C2 & H2 MT ROCKSS !!!

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Monday, March 27, 2006

Top Picture - Myself and Lisa ( MJC ) -- I love her a lot !
Middle Picture - Me and My SCC hockey mates
Bottom Picture - Me in SCC's Election Night . Spot me ... :P

Chilling to Fort Minor - Petrified .

Listen you are not ready
Like children in a building you can’t stand steady
It must be the beat so heavy
Coz i panic attacks like a crack in the levy

Back after a long time -- again ! . I was driven up the wall , possibly because of my lack of sleep and a busy schedule . So on Saturday ( after a tough training on Fri - Floorball ) , I went for a 10 km jog . I decided to embark on that run possibly because of the only rationale of venting my mini frustrations . I know I am very stubborn . Izzah advised me not to over- exert my knee .. but at times , you have to forgo something ... something ... . I don't exactly know how to define that " something " here . Soon , a problem cropped up . But luckily , I got it settled . A burden lessen perhaps ! .

Ok . This is pretty outdated . I apologise for this though . On the 18th March ( Sat ) , there was this NUS University Scholars Programme - World Bank Symposium . We ( Priveen , Kristine , Farid and I ) participated in the symposium . Our team's name's super unique --
TORETE VARIANT . Our proposals were accepted and thus it was a fruitful attempt . The topic covered was " Youth development in Southeast Asia " . It was definitely an eye opener . I was mesmerised but the NUS Engineering Auditorium . The settings made the whole place look like a mini-parliament . We were all told to dressed up formally . Priveen and I were present for the symposium . Kristine and Farid were unable to make it .

Anyways , students from RGS , Hwa Chong Institution , RI , RJC , IJC , local univerisities , foreign universities and etc were present ( proud that only 1 MI team was there ) . Made friends with quite a lot of people . Met this guy called Karan from NTU . His perspective of the world economy and global affairs is so different . As in , I've never heard of such a view from an Asian ! . Honestly I was taken aback by the speeches from the plenary speakers . Mr Peter L.Stephens - Regional Communications Manager , World Bank Singapore Office , Mr Yukon Huang - Former Country Director , World Bank Beijing Office and Mr Ranil Salgado - Singapore Coordinator , IMF, graced the morning with their coherent speech . Actually I ended up drooling at Mr Peter .. because he really looked HOT ! .. I was enjoying Mr Yukon's wonderfully acquired American accent and I was so fascinated with Economics when Mr Salgado started speaking .

One of the major highlight of the entire symposium was the 4-way LIVE video conference between Vietnam ( World Bank Vietnam Office ) , Timor-Leste ( World Bank Timor-Leste Office ) , Thailand ( Youth Group ) and Singapore ( NUS Eng Auditorium ) . The topic covered was " Is money the elixir to all developmental challenges in Southeast Asia " . The other highlight was the Short Film on "Earth Report- Hands on Packing a Punch" – World Bank Funded Community-led Project in Indonesia . Furthermore the Guest of Honour was LG (NS) Lim Chuan Poh : Permanent Secretary of Education . The symposium in 1 word was : Breath-taking ! .

On the 23th , I accompanied Hayle to watch the RJC Vs VJC hockey match . Hayle wanted to watch her BF - Ian Vanderput while I wanted to see HIM play too . Ok. So after school , we took a cab to CCAB . Ian and other were present there except HIM . Later on , I went to the toilet . After that I was walking along the netted pitch side when I saw HIM . I couldn't look into his eyes and Hayle was giving me the cheeky look from behind HIM . Haha .. I couldn't help smiling .. so i stared at the floor and walked past HIM . Haha . Sparks just flew past . RJC won . They scored 2 goals . Ian scored one too . After the match , I was all set to go home . He was walking towards the shower room and HE smiled at Hayle & at ME !!! . I was rooted to the ground ! . Haha .

While walking out of CCAB , I was spotted by Mr Kevin Nunis . At that moment , I thought that he was going to scold me . But in the end , he asked me why I was not coming for SCC trainings . Haiz . So I promised to go for the hockey training on every thursdays . Soon my team mates were all showing signs of contempt . I felt very uncomfortable . Soon they'll smiled and asked me to come for future trainings . I really miss hockey . But I don't want to be burdened by a lot of stuff right now .. Haizzz .

Ok . I went to Rasa Istimewa at CCK to eat with my family . Ate whole-heartedly . Soon , I saw some donkey there . Saw Jeevan . Haha . He looked so different with his " NS " cut . Haha . He called me right away and we promised to bring Rain U , Raghu , Deepan , Senthil , Sandra and other Udhayam stars to eat there too ! .

Hmm last but not least , I've settled well into 06C2 . Although I wanted to change class , I decided against it . Class is just superb --( with the exception of 1 person ) . Sheila , Izzah , both Hanisahs , Carolyn , Regina , Amalina , Cheryl , Arfie , Rachel , Connon , Gabriel , Lisa , John, Hidayah , Suhaila and Calvin are nice hommies to hang out with too . Haha . They make my day . I heart them . Oh yes . Did I mention ? . I managed to trick Cheryl . Haha . She fall for my trick almost instantly . She got all soo worked up !! Haha . When she realised that I pulled a prank on her , she chased me ! . Govan is fun too .. but he's in A4 ! Haiz ..

But no matter what , I miss 05A3 . Rock on . Till then

I might be patient now ,
But there's a limit to my patience .
I am holding back my anger for that promise I made to someone .
I value that promise too much .
It's too sacred to break it apart .
But I just wanna tell you this ,
My level of tolerence is very low .
I got a threshold for anger .
So please stop instigating me .
Its just a matter of when I would blow it ALL out .
I hope that gave you a hint .
If it did , do something about it .
If it didn't , then expect the unexpected .

Adioz

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8:10 pm
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Thursday, March 16, 2006

Chilling to : Chris Brown - Run it

Let me talk to you
Tell you how it is
I was thinkin when I saw that body gotta get shawty
Tell her what the young boy gon do
Damn them chicks wit chu gotta be okay
Babe pretty thick wit the kick that's sick that need to be hit
So tell me what ya'll gon do

Wooo .... back to the cyber world . I had been extremely busy since my last post . Anyways , it feels good to be back though .

Hmm before I begin to bring you to the realm of the past , a sad news to highlight the misfortune of the week . My dearest brother sustained a colles fracture from a soccer match . The biggest coincidence is that , both of our appointments with the bone specialist is on the same day . Haiz . Get well soon bro ! .

We had CCA open house last week . I was busy promoting floorball to the year ones . Well I nearly lost my temper when SOMEONE had to give a very biased comment on the floorball team ( with direct reference to the Bartleyians ) . Soon my Floorball President gave a nice ass-whopping to the person . Soon , after promoting floorball , I met my good friend Rachel and played badminton with her . Soon after playing badminton , Fifi , Ros , a few MI girls and I played Sepak Takraw . Wow . It was absolutely an awesome day . The whole afternoon was spent playing various sports admist the scorching hot sun .

I went to the NJC Debates to support my best friend - Silas ( JJC ) . Since I was the only MI-ian , I arranged to meet Aravind ( AJC ) to accompany me . Soon , I couldn't help but relive those wonderful memories from the past . Not a very melancholic mood to be exact , but something to feel proud and smile about . Aravind , Silas and I were Swiss Cottage's Debaters . It was at that moment that I realised that my passion for debating still existed in my heart . JJC verbally bashed the living light out of SRJC , while AJC rocked the stage by nailing RJC . 2 speakers from the winning schools caught my attention . Vithiya from AJC and Renuka from JJC . Vithiya is quite well versed in the art of rhetoric and she was quite fluent with her speech . However , I was totally stunned to see my former Hamzah pal - Renuka delivering such a wonderful speech . She was superbly coherent with her speech , her counter arguments and rebuttals were magnificent and she rocked the stage with her much palpable confidence . Woah ! . The standard of JCs ( debates ) are quite high . It definitely gave me a wake up all . I am involved in this impromptu debate organised by RJC at the end of this month . Sooo ... I have to start preparing ...

On the 11th of March , I nearly got into the books of the law ! . It was a lucky escape to be exact . Went fishing with Raghu and Deepan . We were fishing at an illegal area ( not allowed to fish ) and the official from the MOE caught us . Soon , we told him that we didn't catch any fish at all . He let us go .. maybe because he wanted to give us a chance as we were still young . Anyways thanx to him , we didn't have to pay that hefty fine . Haizz .

On the 14th of March , We ( Uma , He shun , Silas and Myself ) went to Tampines to celebrate Jaya's birthday . Initially , it was planned to set off at ECP . But since she had a secret birthday party from her other friends the night before ( or shall I say in the wee hours of the morning ? ) and reached home at around 9.30am with having only less than an hour to sleep , the whole initial plan , took a drastic change . After celebrating that girl's birthday , I rushed off to Bartley campus with Uma & He shun .

MI had a friendly ( floorball ) match with MJC . I was late for the match . Even before I stepped into the court , MJC were leading with 4 goals leaving MI with nil . It was very pressurising for me . I was soo pressured to bounce back with the goals for MI . When many people said " Vitz , u gotta score .. " , I couldn't help but get tensed . Soon , I lost my temper . As the keeper of MJC plays for a top club in Singapore , it was very hard to score against them . My 2 shots were blocked . She was extremely focussed . She covered all the angles thus it was very difficult to score . I displayed a disgusting unsportswomen like behaviour when the defenders used their body to mark me . I was soo scared of hurting my knee again as I was heavily marked -- with constant pushes abd tugging by the defenders . Soon , I lost my temper and screamed at their players . Basically , I shouldn't have done that . It was not professional to do that . Well I'm having a hard time to control my raging temper . But I can promise that that will be my LAST time I ever display such a behaviour . Oh man ...

The match ended with MJC thrashing MI 7 - 1 . Kudos to MJC . I couldn't take the humiliation that Izzah , Amanda and I retreated to one of the classrooms . We lost our temper and started to regain our composure by chilling in there . After that , I told girls to come to the classroom after the cooling down session . When all the girls arrived , we had a very open heart-to-heart talk . Izzah , Rury and I took the lead to discuss the important aspects of our team . With less then 4 months for A div , the aftermath of the match proved soo much for me that I blew my top . Soon after , we got settled and came up to a firm conclusion . Today , the girls training will be taken seriously and Izzah and I have come up with a plan to help out the entire girls team . As it's mine and Izzah's last year playing for the A div , we really wanna make a BIG difference to the team . Haiz ..

Gotta go off now . Having floorball in less than 3 hours time . The Guys are having a friendly match with the very STRONG RP guys .

Last but not least , I missed Lisa ( MJC ) soo much . We were basically hugging each other like nuts after our friendly match . We took pixs too .. Shall upload it soon . And I wanna thank Iliyasa and Bao Heng . Those guys are really worried about the girls team . But I assure you guys that we will bounce off . Trust Us . We'll do it ! SMile always . And to dear Iliyasa , You will DEFINITELY have to treat me ... ( remember our deal ok ! )

Ok ppl . Adioz . Gotta rush now .

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Thursday, March 02, 2006

Chillin' to : Grillz
by Nelly Feat Paul Wall , Ali & Gipp

Dis what it do when da lou
Ice grill Country Grammar
Where da hustlas move brick
sand da gangsta's bang hamma's
Where I got em you can spot them
On da top in da bottom
Gotta bill in my mouth like im Hillary Rodham

Firstly , I would like to congratulate VIKNESH for his outstanding performance for his A levels . The top scorer of MI and my close friend's king ! Wow .

Viknesh is the epitome of hardwork ; an inspiration to all Millennians . He got As for Economics and Management and B for Literature , pass for his chinese paper and A2 for his GP . WOW !! . My eyes nearly popped out when I was looking at his labour-inscripted result slip .

I was chilling out in the canteen with Dibbo , Gowri , Sarah and Jabs when I got a quick glance at Rachel . I thought she had forgotten me and so I didn't acknowledge her when I saw her . Soon after , she saw me and started to wave frantically . Haha .. we'll know what happened next .. don't we ? We gave each other a huge bear hug . Invited her to join us ( as she was alone ) . Soon Huda sweetie joined us too . Rachel and I were exchanging Bartley-Toh tuck gossips and were so engrossed with our topic that I forgot about her Bf's results .

Then I congratulated her for her Bf's results . She was gloating with sheer pride at the very fact that her Bf topped the entire Millennia cohort for A levels . Soon we were talking on a personal issue when I asked her about her love life . I was so touched with her perception of love . Perhaps one of the rare occasions in which I encounter someone who truly believes in true love and is blessed with the courage and confidence to defy all odds . To be frank , I respect their relationship . It's not easy to withstand hypocrites and gossip-mongers but they did ! . Kudos to them .

I congratulated the MAN himself . That was the first time I spoke to him since stepping into the school . I used to think that he was not a friendly guy and all . But I was wrong . He is so down-to-earth ! . I even asked him to share his secret behind that breathtaking results . The answer to my question was so succint that I had to rely on reflective thinking to derive at the right conclusion . The MAN said the secret was his easy-going nature that refused to host stress . It is definitely so true . Hosting stress will only make one to fall into a pit . Apart from hardwork , many of us will succumb to stress . Soon anxiety breaks in and destroys everything .

For a clear example , I would want to look at Angelina Jolie's tattoo on her belly which states " Quod me nutrit me destruit " . The phrase is Latin and means " what nourishes me also destroys me " . It is used to emphasis more on pro-anorexia and bulimia . But looking at it on a more holistic approach , I strongly feel that it can be linked to some other things too . Stress can be useful when it ' forces ' one to work even harder but if it's in a greater outbreak , then it will lead to depression and gradually to failure . It is always better to be balanced . Right ? .

Rachel invited me to join her when she studies and all . Man ! She's really a sweetheart ! . I can't wait for next year -- merging of both flavours into 1 single campus . I lurrveee my Bartley mates and can't wait to have them under one roof . Yipeee !!

Yesterday was also the release of MT papers - AO MT to be exact . My friends got it too . Aravind ( AJC ) got A1 while Jaya ( TPJC ) and Silas ( JJC ) got Bs . I was very shocked to learn my pals getting Bs . Since I know their calibre , Bs ain't their supposed grade !! . I wonder what exactly happened . But I have to say this , teachers also play an important role in student's grades . Mrs Silvi to date is the best tamil teacher ever ! . The teacher who believed in us and that very someone who opened our eyes of wisdom . In short , our MOTHER ! . I asked Jaya to focus on her GP as MT grades ain't that important for University . But I had to force Silas to take his MT paper again . Well , not being biased ; but as being an Higher MT student , AO MT contributes 50% of the marks to determine Higher MT grade . So Silas , all the best ! Do it again brudda .. I know you can ! .

In addition , I was so proud of Viknesh and others . Well it so happens that 3/4 of the indians of MI have the typicality of not making it to the universities . I am so happy that Viknesh ( Rugby ) , Viknesh ( BP ) and Matthew have proven otherwise . We ( indians of MI ) should follow in their footsteps . They've set us a benchmark and we have to resolve to work hard to reach it . That is when , we can truly have our heads up and walk around with pride . Peeps thanx for being the platform of hope and the source of inspiration .

I used to think that retaining was really a disgrace . But perhaps , I think I should thank God for choosing to retain me . It was truly a blessing in disguise for me . It has thought me to shed serious thought onto subject combinations and something else too . I thank God for it . I've seen the light now . Thank you . I also thank my supportive family , friends and others .

Jesus take the wheel
Take it from my hands
Cause I can't do this on my own
I'm letting go
So give me one more chance
To save me from this road I'm on
Jesus take the wheel

Ok . I would wanna thank my fave people who give great importance and genuine concerns for my injury . Well it is quite a norm for ACL to be recurring . To be frank , there's no way I can recover without an operation to get a few fake ligaments attached to my twisted ligaments . So I am taking it slow . The injury sustained this time is less serious as I believe I got a minor strain on my twisted ligaments . I am planting the seed of hope to remain fit for A Divisions . I am planning to go for an operation after A Divisions so , it boils down to hope and faith at this juncture .

A big thanks to :

My floorball mates ( specially Izzah , Jabs and Iliyasa )
Anja Digma Peeps
My genuinely concerned friends
Besties
Saha
Juniors
and a lot of others

Now to that ruddy sadistic bitch who finds my injury a pleasure :

Your overweening false confidence is being a pain in my neck . To be frank , I will not deny loathing the very image of you or your disses . But to come to think about it , I am gaining special empathy towards your childish remarks , your insalubrious approach towards your nosey attributes , your disgustingly- annoying penchant for creating troubles and that blow-it-out-of-proportion attitude .

Your oh-so nightmarish phantasmagoria of threats and blackmails will take the backseat of the collection of specks of dust under my feet . I don't believe I owe you a living , needless to say , you are definitely not perfect to comment on me . It was certainly a mistake did once but I deny being at the mercy of you to remain who I am now ! . Like I said before , your nicely- concealed insalubrious shit is definitely not comparable to the mistake did once . I shall therefore pledge to remain pertinacious and single-minded in the pursuit of my aims and refuse to oblige to your facade of " i'm hitting onto the notch " approach . Maybe to motivate you , " Try harder " .

On a lighter note , something for those non-stop BARKINGS

" When the seagulls follow a trawler, it is because they think sardines will be thrown into the sea."

- Eric Cantona

PS : With hope that you will read my blog and give me a nice and comparable reply in your blog . Because you've got a rising pride to deny reading my blog with a fake lingo . On a general note , I can be blogging about anyone and anything . Let's see the smartypants at work . Let's see how she can derive at a good conclusion with concrete evidence to say I bitched about her ! . God Bless . Amen !

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