Wednesday, August 07, 2013
Hello everyone. Again me no type my brutally honest entry yet lor. Patience lor. No patience then fuck off lor :P
So I broke my own record. I kept myself awake for 34 hours and I still haven't recovered from the sleep debt. Been 2 days and I can still feel that fatigue pulling me down and gosh, it's going to be a rocking weekend. EGG-CITED for a multitude of reasons. Hahaha.
Seriously today was a very eventful day and I almost died laughing. I met Ms Subsy earlier into the afternoon for a lunch date at Tekka. Ms Subsy is fasting for the Aadi month and so we decided to eat at Gokul's. Right before that we went to Tekka market to glance at a few tops. She has got a D&D coming up and the theme for the whole event was "Retro" and I gave her my own ideas. But we also kept the "Indian Retro" idea alive and decided to have a glance at the shops at Tekka market itself. So while walking down the flight of stairs, I was telling her that we should be very careful because I don't want to be caught by the "Vannathirai" anchors for the "Start, Camera, Action" programme and even before I finished my sentence, I spotted a camera right at the corner and the camera man made eye contact with me. Immediately I went like "dei machi, I think there's come TV show there dei. Let's run. Hurry". But unfortunately, the anchor caught up with us and she dragged us to the camera. But thankfully, it wasn't the "Start, Camera, Action" programme. It was like some opinion-related show. So the anchor asked us if we spoke Tamil and I went like "yes, we do" and Subsy went like "ennuku Tamil konjam konjam thaan varum" and I swear I thought she was joking and I went like "No, she's lying. She's an expert in Tamil and she speaks Tamil way better than me". HAHAHAHHAAHAHA ! Poor Subsy was literally sabo-ed :P ! Anyways, I thought the topic was really interesting:- it was something about the Tamil culture and I have my honest opinions. Ahhh but seriously, what a day sia ! HAHAHAH. Right after that, while we - the 3 musketeers were crossing the road we spotted Nisha Wong and her whole "Start, Camera, Action" crew but I told them that I was running away and thankfully we ran !

Seriously, she's one person who can literally get me rolling on the floor. I was having my dinner with Moo-Moo last night and I received a What's App message from this ladki and she actually went on to change our What's App group name from "Mariyan" to "Paraiyaan" and I swear I almost choked on my food ! Bloody hilarious. And now I know why I was FATED to meet her. Today's conversation revealed that we actually have a shared history and our fates were somewhat intertwined into a certain chapter. Seriously, THE WORLD IS TOO FUCKING SMALL.
Anyways, my "Vasantham" talkshow will be telecasted on 15th August at 9pm. Remember to catch it. I am definitely going to ask many people to catch it because many of us will relate to the TOPIC. A topic that I support from the bottom of my heart.

Chee chee. Why would people want to do the above-mentioned ?. I mean making assumptions is way easier what. Linking their motherfucking assumptions with their own preconceived notions is something innate what - especially something you can find in abundance in the typical Indians. Seriously, those typical Indians disgust me. Really. They will act like the unconventional Indians with practical thoughts and yet they would be the first ones to behave like a full-fledged typical true-blue INDIAN. I am not against my own race but really, I think these idiots are the ones who continue to push our society into the ruins. I, since day one have been saying that assumptions make a complete ASS of U and ME but of course, the brain cells nor the neurotransmitters were given any work at all and so we know the end result. And yea ... DIRECTLY ?? HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA. HAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
Human beings will always explore their own dark side. They will try out the vices that they had once despised. There is always a reason to why they decided to explore those vices (being promiscuous, taking drugs, murder, gang-fights, smoking, drinking and etc etc). But once they know their own stand in life and their own mistakes, they would make a CHOICE to change for the better - to get rid of that dark side that suppressed their own moral anchor. Trust me ah, it takes alot of courage to make that decision ALL BY YOURSELF. People can say "you should change so that you would have a good life" or "change is the only constant" and ya-da ya-da. But it's not easy to change for the better. No one will see what goes on behind the "scenes" - how much you would vent that guilty frustration over and over again, how you cried yourself to sleep knowing that you had let your dark side consume your soul, how you had disappointed your own soul and etc. One must feel this to know what I am talking about. Some idiots are just idiots - completely ignorant and too backward enough to comprehend what I am even talking about. But let me tell this on your face, your failure to comprehend such things only determines the kind of commitment you had over a subject. Problems are never too "simple" to solve. Serious soul-consuming problems have very serious repercussions and the solutions are never too easy - especially when your soul is battered. But of course, like I said, it really takes courage from within to walk on the road of recovery, to acknowledge your own dark side that is always being concealed by your own defence mechanisms (ego-boosters) and to fucking CHANGE. Change is not the only key thing here. But abstinence is. It's never too easy to abstain from something that your dark side had been exposed to. Your mind will give you 1001 excuses and reasons to succumb to the temptations and yet, you need to possess that strong mind to kick that fucking temptation off. And you're telling me this is easy ?. Hahahaa. Easy to read but not easy to adopt. Ask those who went through this and changed for the better. Ask them.
For an instance, a girl decides to break her ego, compromise her self-respect, tarnish her moral values by choosing to sleep around (become promiscuous). Let's say she always had alot to say about the society and how they view people who adopt the "friends with benefits" policy. Let's say she had always condemned those people. Yet one day something drives her to do that. We will never know what drives her to do that but I can see that obviously, compromising your self-respect, breaking your ego or even choosing to tarnish your own moral values isn't something people can easily do nor would want to do. I mean why would you want to succumb to something that actually kills your soul ?. But let's say she made the decision to change for the better and decides to abstain from being promiscuous. Remember ah, I am not talking about things that happened behind the scenes - meaning her path to self-recovery. Self-recovery is a shittified process and only those who're involved would know the pain they went through throughout. Ok, so lets say she decided to change for the better and decides to abstain from being promiscuous, I swear I would respect her and would even be there for her, be her bestfriend (because I would want to be as close as I can) (and if I am a guy, I would accept her if she loves me). I would, even if I was against people who got involved in promiscuous stuff. But if she had continued to be promiscuous, use her own reasons as an excuse (eg, I got raped and so I want to be promiscuous) and shied away from changing for the better than I swear, I will never respect her. I will never respect her no matter how bad her situation might have been. There is always a difference between "changing for the better and abstaining" and "going on with the vice and making it a habit. To me, I prefer to side the courageous ones, not the sidekicks nor the ones who advocates the vices. Till now, that is my stand, that had been my stand and that will be my stand. But unfortunately, the backward thinking society prefer to choose to see the past and not the change and the abstinence. I mean, the undoh Indian culture has always stressed on past events and no matter how educated our Indians are (hmmm ... education will actually help one analyse things, right ? ...HMMM doubts), they can never forgo their "backward thinking" roots.
All in all, never compromise your self-respect for anyone. When you compromise it once, they prefer to take it for granted and would continue to gamble with it. So NEVER. Even if you stand alone, be proud to stand tall.
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