Today I am going to blog about something serious and well, I got a concrete reason to do so.

Issue #1


I have a question to ask. Why are you so bothered to be updated about my blog entries, why are you reading it and sharing it with the friends and even asking them to have a read. Why ?. I am so "yucky", I have a serious "obsession", you don't want anything to do with me, I broke your "backbone", I "ill-treated" you so much and etc . So why are my blog entries being read by you and that too, you even get people to have a read. Why ?. Honestly, I can't fathom a reason. I honestly can't. I don't understand why you must be so updated about the life of the person whom you have downgraded so much, the life of the person who ill-treated you so much, the life of the person who treated you like a dog. I am such a vicious being right, so why is my life being scrutinised by you ?. Hey c'mon, all my thoughts are peppered with so much of 'yuckiness' just like me. So why ?!

Issue #2

I just want to clear this thing with all those who're reading my blog entry now. Trust me on this, all of you have skeletons hidden in your closet. All of you have secrets hidden deep down. And right now, a certain subject of mine is doing the rounds around the clique, right ?. I am being judged because of that, right ?. Ok let me be so frank here. A few individuals within the same clique also have the same past as I did. So why is my past exaggerated here and the other individuals are off the sight ?. Why ?. So anything I do must be blown out of proportion and what the 2 other individuals do can go unnoticed. Why ?. The answer is simple. Because the mother of all judgments is plainly associated to me. The 2 other individuals aren't associated to the mother of judgments in anyway. So what they do is ignored and even unnoticed. So I am very interested to know how fair is this ?. If I am subjected to such a treatment and if people whom I thought were my friends can tune their mindset with that of the mother of judgment's, why aren't they subjected to the same treatment ?.

Issue #3

This is particularly going out to a certain individual. All this while I had told you that you easily take sides. I told you that it was always the 3 vs 1 and you guys told me that it was never that way. I did tell you that you made more efforts to understand one friend as compared to how much you would take the effort to understand mine. You guys tell me that it was never that way and things were solved back then. But my question is, you told me that you didn't judge but now you judged. Why such a discrepancy ?. On the 11th of May, you told me that your impression of me never changed, harped on how everyone makes mistakes and how I was important to the clique and etc etc. The from then on, what efforts did you take to check on this friend of yours ?. I knew deep down that your impression had changed. I mean, you took the effort to understand what the other friend had to say, what the other friend felt and what not. So am I wrong to say that your impression was getting altered as you ingrained what the other friend had to say or feel ?. So am I wrong to conclude back then that you were always inclined towards that friend of yours ?. I had this gut feeling and based on that, I removed you from my Facebook account because I held serious concerns with regards to the depth of our friendship. I knew you would never want to make the effort to be impartial. You did take some efforts back then but this serious an issue proved your mettle. Trust me, everyone have their own inclinations in every other way. We all have a certain soft corner for only some people and we tend to act according to it. But when serious issues like this are concerned, the most decent thing a friend who belong to a clique would expect is for her friends to be impartial. But I guess, I just expected something too extraordinary from you. Let me tell you, if I had chosen to be partial, you wouldn't be in a position to have your relationship with a friend repaired. I'm not bragging about what I did, but I am reminding you - on how being impartial is essential for a friendship. But nonetheless, thank you.

Issue #4

I just got to know that 2 people whom I haven't said anything to, got to know about my stuff. As I had mentioned earlier and as how much a friend had mentioned earlier too, this is a serious issue and it must be handled well. So on Friday why did you people tell another friend about what is happening within the clique and not direct him to ask me about it directly ?. Do you realise that you are literally planting your train of thoughts to someone ?. Now I don't give a fuck as to who is judging me and who is not. But I would want that person to know things from my mouth. I am the person who is involved in this shit. You guys have your perspective with regards to it. How can you plant your thoughts into someone else's mind ?. So the bottom line is, you would want the person to follow suit with your thoughts ?. None of you (except for 2) bothered to ask me about it. You guys depended on hearsay. You guys depended on what the mother of judgments had to say. Her perspective definitely traveled far, I would admit that. Anyways, thank you so much for doing what you we guys had done to K and M. You guys said I was too important and I would never diminish in value like them but sorry, it's quite obvious already. Thank you for that, again.

Issue #5

Please understand this ah, no one gave me a chance to explain things from my end. It was conclusions, assumptions and judgments. Simple as that. I came forth and briefly told 2 people about it. That's all. No one knows anything at all. So before you decide to rant your mouth, I am telling this to you - please look at your own self. Are everyone in the clique as virtuous as how they are expected to be ?. Think carefully, even you my friend are guilty of not being virtuous. But it's just that you're not associated with the mother of judgments, hence you're freed. If you really think those with upright virtuosity deserve such good treatment, then you would be off the chains.


Issue #6

Last but not least. I never moved away from the clique because I had wanted to. This clique is driven by 4 core members of the clique and we have another 4 who operate on a superficial level. Of the 4 core members, I knew 2 were already against me and honestly, I didn't see a point in holding onto the friendship when you - supposedly closest to me can judge me so superficially. Hence, I know how the clique would function henceforth and so, I decided to move away for a buffer time. If you had known me so well, you would know that I had planned for the Batam trip itself. I suggested going to places like Batam. I did it. I know how fucking excited I was. I was the first to transfer my money as compared to any of you'll. Since I did my fucking research paper, I had always wanted to go for a fucking break because I really needed it. But the one and only reason why I am choosing to forgo it is because I want to stay away from the 2 of you'll. And now, I think my decision was definitely a good one - considering how your perspectives is going around the clique. Well done.

Last but not least, to my friends, please don't say you're checking up on my blog, using someone else's FB account to check on me because you care. If you really cared from deep down, you wouldn't even be doing what you're doing right now. If you cared, you would want to hear me out instead of hurting me like this. So really, please don't generalise your activities under the "I still care about Vitz" shit. That illusion is very depressing. It really is.

And no, I am not painting a sorrowful picture of myself and getting in line with producers from the Hindi industry to make a film. If I had wanted to do that, it would be really easy. My blog, my thoughts, my rants. So go on, JUDGE ME :)


I finally met this fella exactly after 3 weeks. Had a good chat with him. Thank you for everything Logesh and don't worry, I can understand and I can feel you. Thank you for treating me with such importance. Like I said, I missed you. Really did and I'll catch you around :) .

Because for us, what unites us is stronger than what can possibly divide us. Through thick and thin, the reason what unites us, continues to show its upperhand. 

Vithiya 'Vitz'

11 Jan 1987

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Manchester United

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