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Anyways, I saw a confession from the Gay Confession FB page and the guy whose confession on judgmental friends I really liked confessed once again and this time his confession really freaked the hell out of me. I mean I don't know how serious he is but he was claiming that he is going to commit suicide. You know they say that friends are those who help you out in times of distress but sadly they are also the ones who will push you to distress. Sad case. For some reasons, I can really relate to his pain because I do know how painful it is when close ones decide to judge another too easily.

My personal opinion is, friends will never judge. Judgments are superficial and its employed by those who know you on a shallow level or by those who don't know you well. But friends are different. They went through thick and thin with you and they ought to know your story behind your name. Friends are those who would reprimand you for your wrong-doings instead of judging you and labelling you with all kinds of names. And this guy is like contemplating on committing suicide. Seriously, I can't believe friendship can drive one to this bad an end ! My opinion - you can give your life for those friends who have the worth and value for but giving your life for a friend who decided to jump the gun and judge you is stupid ! I mean they are not even worth it at all. Damn.

Anyways I am going to post his confession here. Have a read, readers. For those who have a FB account, do see the comments that people have commented on those confessions. Trust me, its a complete slap on the face for those who judge others despite knowing both their name and their story.

New confession from the Gay Confession FB page

HELP NEEDED.


I posted a confession* and it was published on this website on the 30.5.13 at 2000 and it started of as "I am in a serious confusion and I need help. Please don't mock at this confession. I really need help"...


I am going to confess here that my bestfriend and my close friends somehow tracked that it was me. I think the incidents were too obvious. So my bestfriend did the unthinkable and I am really so hurt and down that I am becoming suicidal.


I had mentioned that my bestfriend read through my Facebook messages and found out a deep dark secret of mine and he decided to ostracize me along with my closefriends. So once they found out about my confession on this page, they decided to avenge for my act. My bestfriend went on to tell my mother who I really was and what I have done so far. My parents had been suspicious but now my mother found out. My father and I got into a very heated argument and eventually I moved out of my parents house. I am all alone now. It hurts real bad.


Look I don't care if you're going to track me down but let me tell you, it hurts real bad. I trusted you and I have done so much for you and yet you chose to stab me in the back and front my dearest bestfriend ? Is being gay a big sin ? So at the end of the day you want me to be a structure of what you call "true friend" ? I might be gay and I might have made my mistakes and in what way have I downgraded as a friend value ? Don't you realise its all your mindplay ? Did you pause to think about me .. the shit I went through ? No. All you ever cared about was your own value and principles but does that means it must be applied to me too ? I am gay yes but why must you judge me ? Wasnt I a brother of yours ?


You said you told my mother because you considered my 'welfare' at heart. so now tell me what kind of welfare is this ? I am ALL FUCKING ALONE. My parents, my ex, my friends...no one. I am all alone. Thanks to you. Thanks to you for taking my interest to your heart. To my close friends, so you guys decided to be judgmental too. So I am not a fucked up friend because of all this ? Thank you so much brothers.


My bestfriend you couldnt even understand my pain, my low points, my personal battles and you decided to do all that .. so in what way were you being a true friend to me ? So friendship is all about who fit your mindplay right ? Thanks.. I am hell bend on ending it all. I dont see a point in living as a hermit anymore. When I pluck up the courage to do it please don't come for my wake. All I ever wanted was for you to understand but I guess I was wrong.. too wrong.


Older confession from the Gay Confession page

I am in a serious confusion and I need help. Please don't mock at this confession. I really need help.


I was in a 2 year relationship with someone and he had a string of affairs behind my back. I remained loyal to him and later on he dumped me. I really missed him and I went crazy without him. I miss everything about him. His touch, his smell, his face and everything. I went drinking with a friend of mine. I never knew he was gay as well. The alcohol brought out the sadness in me and I broke down. He consoled me and it escalated to a kiss and sooner or later we made out and everything happened. To be frank its not as if I planned to do it with him but my heartbreak made me do it. It just happened.


Since I realised that I could be without him and that I could move on with other guys, I decided to act on it. I met some guys from jack'd and we did go out but we didn't end up doing anything because I didn't want to. I have this friend of 4 years who eventually knew I was gay and he proposed a casual meet up and if we were comfortable, for some good sex. I was apprehensive and very reluctant. But then I was thinking that what was the big deal in it anyway ? Everyone was sleeping around and even my ex boyfriend did that. It's like nothing now. Love has no value and I told myself to screw my principles and just do it. So we engaged in the act. He met me at my place when my parents were in Hong Kong. While he penetrated me I realised that I was just not doing something right. My principles came before me and I really regretted trying to act with the norm. So I stopped him midway. I told him I was not comfortable and it ended. He left with a sad face. I really felt so sad. I really wished that I could die then. My personal battles. My mind was just fucking me up real bad.


I hid this from my close friends. They don't know that I am gay. My close friends are traditional bunch of guys. They go to church and they are against the LGBT community. My bestfriend is happily attached to a girl for 4 years and I hid this from him as well. But recently, I left my Facebook account logged in his PC and I went to the shop to get ourselves some food. He read all my messages and told my close friends. So now they all know that I am gay and that I had been sleeping around.


I am reeling in embarrassment. Of all people my bestfriend breached my trust just because I trusted him with my Facebook account ? He read all my messages. I am truly pissed. I fought with him and the thing is all my close friends got to know and they are judging me. They think I am like everyone else. They think I am pathetic to be a gay and to have had a promiscuous lifestyle. But I swear I never meant to be promiscuous. I fucked up. I know. But do you have to judge me this way ? I bestfriend say he was so heartbroken at my relevation but did you give me a chance to explain myself or did you put yourself in my shoes to understand the kind of pain I was going through to forgo my principles. Look I never meant to hurt anyone. That promiscuous lifestyle was my past. I am not promiscuous at all now. It all happened a year ago. I can easily hit on any guys at Jack'd and continue but I told myself no. I don't want to be like that. I wanted to change myself and I did it. But whats the point. My closefriends are judging me. No one is speaking to me because they all think what I did is wrong. Now my bestfriend is treating others as his bestfriend because they are not gay and they never sleep around. They are in his eyes, true christians who abide by the bible.


So just because I am a gay with a bad past you people decided to judge me and ostracise me ? I was a true friend to my bestfriend. I fought with so many people who put him down. He limps because his left leg is shorter. I have broken many noses. I know I was hot tempered and I scolded you before. But does that mean I am a bad bestfriend ? Didn't I fulfil my duties as a bestfriend to you ? I know I was against sleeping around but I swear I don't know why In fucked up. My mind messed with me. You have no idea of the pain I went through. Sleeping around is easy yes but abstaining from it is not. I chose to change but my bestfriends and my closefriends who know me so well are judging me this much ? Is it fair for me ? So I am afterall not a true friend because I had a bad past, spoke about other people and eventually I myself succumbed to it ? Thank you my friends. Thank you for hurting me this bad. You have no idea how hurt I am. I am telling you now, my bestfriend isn't the only one with a broken heart. You guys are there to cheer him up. What about my pain ? So you can only be myopic friends ? Feel pain for one side and ignore another friend and you call yourself my close friends ?


I am really hurt and confused. I miss my bestfriend. He will always be my bestfriend and I will continue to break noses that put him down. But I know you think I have been a fucked up friend but nevermind, you have better friends who will treat you much better than I did because in your eyes I made you look like a bestfriend with no pride.

Vithiya 'Vitz'

11 Jan 1987

Undergrad (Psychology)

Manchester United

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