Thursday, April 25, 2013
Hello Angel !
There can never be another you. That is the truth, Chinnamma. You're really missed. Without you, I feel that the spirit of the family is disintegrating - badly.
You know until now I cannot forget the face I saw in the hospital. The face after you left us all. That face ... without any life, any colour and etc. That face is still etched onto my mind. When that face pops into my mind, I only remember one question that you asked me some time ago :- "Enna da, Chinnamma-ku mutham-koduka kuda nee yosikiriyaa" (You're thinking twice just to kiss me ah). Like I said, we had our awkward moments and at that juncture I couldn't bring myself to do things naturally but whether I behaved naturally or not, you're an important person in my life. Even as I type this tears are welling up my eyes. Sorry Chinnamma, I will never think twice. NEVER FUCKING AGAIN ! NEVER NEVER NEVER ! I am so sorry. I hope God told you how much I love you, because I really do. Your death is too much for me to accept. But yes, your time came and the pain was evident but .... you don't deserve all this.
I don't care what people are going to think of me and all but you will be there for every important functions of mine. I will make sure I carry you with me during all those times. I know you will be there Chinnamma, you always will.
God, thank you for sending such an angel to look after my family. You will never be forgotten. Never.
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