You know, I haven't been myself for months. There is like a million of thoughts zooming through my head. For some reason, I feel like I have transformed into a different person. Something like a ghost of my past. I am trying hard to become the person I used to be but it has been a far cry. The face of the past is looking at me from a great distance. Why ? I asked the same question too, but I never got the answer and I wonder if I will ever get the answer. Frankly, I am tired of listening to everyone's "it all happens for a reason" bullcrap. Just shut the hell up. Its easy to say it but its not easy to be embroiled in such a sticky situation. I miss being happy.

The best thing is, I have no idea. Really no idea and at the same time I cannot buy it. Not that I am in denial but its just that I don't quite understand. But who is going to hear my confusion ? Lol, it has to be buried within me. Maybe, that's how is has to be ?

But one thing, I understood the meaning of smithereens.

I miss the smile of a child.

Oh btw, I know that some gossip-scavengers have been trying hard to get hold of details about my life and I did delete and block them off my Facebook. Seriously, all you pea brains, go all out and condemn me as much as you want. I am really not bothered. I am merely saying this here just to let you know that you can by all means continue to gossip as much as you want.

And,I was down with a bad sinus and was killed by its symptoms. I had severe pounding headache (that never stopped. The pain cannot be stopped but only reduced with the aid of painkillers), blocked ear - it affected my balance, blurry vision, diarrhoea (cos' the phlegm doesn't get get drained the normal way but rather it flows through the back of the throat and into the stomach and it triggers diarrhoea), fever, severe cough, continuous sneezing and wheezing and breathlessness. In short, I really suffered. The doctor finally gave me the nasal spray and it worked magic. If the nasal spray didn't work, I would have to go under the knife. Thank God it worked. PHEW !