Hello bloggy ! I am back. I've always wanted to rant about a myraid of issues but I guess I was simply bogged down by work, exhaustion and many more.


Anyways I am freaking angry with a particular issue and I know I will feel much better when I express all my thoughts out rather than to bottle them up and destroy myself. Now, let me reiterate this point clearly well :- I am expressing what I have been feeling thus far and if its going to bother you badly, then come and ask me why I said that and etc and I'll tell you why.


Firstly, before that I need to mention something here. It is really tough to come to terms with the impending fate. Initially I couldn't believe my own ears and I didn't accept it right away. It took me a few good hours to register that piece of information and memories started to take me back to those good'ol days. Tears started to flow like a river. I am definitely upset but I know that none of us in our clan ever give up without a tough fight. I guess this is part and parcel of growing up. Fight fight and fight, we will !


Now, this is going to be for you and about you ! I am really so fucking pissed off with you and your mental thoughts. I mean, if you have problems trying to place your thoughts in the proper order, don't come and fucking blame me for it ! ( And clarification : this is not for my bf. So stop guessing ).


My thoughts ( PS: Its not to gain sympathy or etc. Its just me and my thoughts. Need any clarification ? Ask me ! Have the guts to ! )


Firstly, I am damn pissed off with you. Seriously, what have you done thus far ?. If you're going to come up with the crap called : time, money and effort, I am going to bitch-slap you. You literally went missing for half the year ( infact more than that ). Yes, you are working and all. Then what about me ? Am I like playing soccer at work ?. C'mon man ! Trade your fucking shoes with mine and then have the fucking guts in you to speak . You are only good at doing 2 things : 1) Give up. If you find any problems anywhere, that's it. "Vitz, I don't think I can do this cos I got blah-bah-blah" and 2) blame me for everything. Have you ever had that mini thought in you asking you, what may or will happen if you choose to leave ? No ! You never had. You people are just fucking selfish. If you have a fucking problem, you would run away from it rather than to face it like a MAN and more than just a MAN ( and this applies even to the ladies ).


T is made up of several individuals. We all have a plethora of commitments and goals but we come under one roof just to fulfil our passion. Passion cannot be bought with money. Passion is passion no matter what. You will do EVERYTHING in your might to not let it slip through your fingers ! If you are letting it slip through your fingers, then its not passion; it is called hobby. I have several commitments. Firstly its not easy for me to get up on Sat. But compared to last year, I know I have put in the effort to turn up early. You can ask anyone in T. Some people have already mentioned that yes, the effort is there. But if you are not aware of this then don't come and open your mouth. Last Sat, I was totally down with high fever. Infact I was feeling too bad. I couldn't even stand up. So I decided to pop in panadol and sleep for an hour. I did that and walked to the bathroom to shower. I couldn't stand, so I sat on the toilet bowl every now and then and managed to shower. And that was when I even took a fucking cab to come down. When I come down, what did you have to say ? When you uttered those words, almost as instantly, I felt fuckign disgusted with you. Madam, I understood your situation since last year and I gave you many chances. If I had wanted to, I could've exercised my leadership rights and banned you from dancing for Dance Floor 2009 because of your absence due to your own plight. But no, I don't do such things. I be a good friend then a leader. Sometimes I think its a big mistake to treat someone like a sibling. Maybe I should put you people at a distance and treat you like a member and FULLSTOP ! The closer they get to you, the more they would want to utter unnecessary words.


I am not even pissed off with the words you used on me. But I am pissed off with the words you used on my team ! Who the hell do you think you are man. Firstly, learn how to behave and then choose to talk about such issues. For now, if I ever give you a chance to dance in my group, then SLAP ME ! Cos I know for sure that this is the end.


And yes, some people use my group to fulfil their personal and selfish needs. Some join to get attached. Some join to get the fame and then will leave the group prematurely. Some choose to join and then would suffer with the responsibilities and commitments and then wouldn't be able to juggle them and would obviously tap out ! Selfish bastards !.


There are people out there who give the least concern for T and yet act and talk like as though they were kings/queens of T and that T owes them a fucking living. Look, don't come and show your attitude here. If you want such an attitude, go and join some established group and seek their trainer's instructions and dance to his/her tunes or go form your own dance group.


For instance, one mentioned he/she cannot juggle with his/her commitments and have to focus on a few objectives. Although it was too sudden, it seemed like a fair thing. The now, he/she has another commitment. So at this instance can I ask howcome you can commit there but not here ? I also had that desire to commit there but for the benefit of T, I decided against it. I had to sacrifice my other passion for T. But nope, I never bragged about my sacrifices and even spoken about it to anyone within T. Only my close friends know this.


Another one can turn up for all practices and performances but decide not to dance. So why did you dance last year ? Don't give me crap like you cannot commit to the team. Hello, I can understand if you are worried about being unable to commit for competitions but even guest performances ? Especially when you turn up for them all ?. Do you think no one raised any questions about this ? They did and its just that I didn't tell you nor anyone associated with you. I covered your tracks for you. So in this instance, don't ever dare to open your mouth and rant out about my groups ? Why, because you have no standards to talk about T. I would have appreciated if you had tried but you didn't.


You know, I can go on and bring out each and every flaw in everyone of you'll. But at the end of the day, what is the point ? We are all not perfect. We are humans for Pete's sake ! And what more, people will stand up for each other, misinterpret and assume their own things and keep it within themselves and one day it will all blow up and every single one will get hurt. So what's the point in the end ?.


As of now, I am going to dismiss your thoughts as being spears of your insecurities. Enough said. I am not going to give 2 hoots to you. I know what to do with T and etc. I don't need your support nor help. Thanks for everything and enough said.

Vithiya 'Vitz'

11 Jan 1987

Undergrad (Psychology)

Manchester United

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