Hello blog. Alright, today I am going to rant about SURA - Vijay's 50th movie !



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Oh yes, before I rant about Vijay, I would like to make certain points clear. Firstly, I've been a Vijay fan since his 1993 - Deva film ! So in short I've been a Vijay fan for 17 years. I love him alot and I so want him to shave of his moustache ! And I was so happy to see a new look in Thirumalai ! But I wished it was clean shaven and him to sport a nicer hairdo. But oh well ! And I don't know why, he's been sporting the same look from from Thirumalai to Ghilli, Madurey, Thirupaachi, Sachein, Sukran, Sivakasi, Aadhi, Pokkiri, ATM, Kuruvi, Villu, Vettaikaran and now Sura ! 13 freaking movies ! I am so tired of watching fans , critics and others hurl abuse at him ! Why , even I am not happy with him ! I am a fan of Vijay but I'm not a Vijay-Extremist or a fanatic. I do criticise him and I wouldn't want to blindly support all his terrible antics.


Although I know Sura was going to be a total waste of time and money, I relented because my mom wanted to watch it (well, it was part of her birthday treat). While watching the film, I felt so restless ! I was shifting from left to right and I even fell asleep. I was having a bad headache ! Gaya on the other hand was toying with her phone ! My mom who initially was excited for the movie agreed that it was a waste of time when the movie ended.


Satish aka Shade first told me that Vijay's introduction in the film was freaking funny. He would apparently emulate a dolphin and he said he really thought it was a dolphin till Vijay popped out ! When I saw that scene by myself, I was literally clapping ! Well, its expected ! I really feel like slaughtering the director for turning Vijay into a clown !


The story is horrible ! Totally half baked ! C'mon man, there is a better way to direct this movie ! Oh my God. And he keeps on flying and flying. I mean some of you'll may point out saying other heroes do fly and all. Well, every Indian heroes do fly ! According to the undoh directors, flying makes the heroes look macho but c'mon, Vijay is the only one who keeps flying in every damn movies of his ! I hate it when people compare him with Vijayakanth !


Surya learnt the art of Parkour and if people insist he flies, let me tell you the whole fighting scenes in Ayan was Parkour and he even repeated some of those in Aadhavan. I guess Surya decided to move away from the stereotypical Indian Hero films ever since Nandha. I am really very supportive of his new ventures ! He really makes an effort in changing his looks to fit the roles of all his films ! I mean Surya is definitely not the comical hero nor can he dance well but his comedy in Pithamagan and Aadhavan is good ! But sadly, i HATE Singam ! A typical commercial film ! Grrr !! I can't wait for Surya's Rakta Charitra , Arya's Madrasipattinam and Vikram's Raavanan ( I hate Vikram btw ) !!


I really hope Vijay would move away from such mainstream commercial films and do something different ! Its freaking irritating to watch his films and to witness a myriad of groups hurling abuses at him. Sometimes, I feel he deserves it. I mean you are given a choice to select the films you want to act in and why can't he choose good films ?! I am not a die-hard Surya fan nor do I advocate his movies but over the years, I am starting to appreciate him more than Vijay. Even Ajith is gone with the wind. Guess films like Sura are the reasons why people hate tamil films. Its so saddening man !


I found this on a website - " The negative aspects of Sura are no doubt the music, illogical, if not slow screenplay, gravity defying stunts, slow moving scenes" and "Verdict: In all, Sura is a usual Vijay fare that will be a treat for his hard core fans".


And I heard that some theatre owners are coming up with an emergency meeting to ban Vijay film's in the theatres due to a chain of losses derived from Vijay movies !


Vijay's recent not so impressive record at the box office has upset many and particularly the exhibitors who are last link in the chain of film making. Theatre owners in Tamil Nadu have called for an emergency meeting to discuss the status of screening Vijay films in future.


Theatre owners in Tamil Nadu charge that in the last five years Vijay has done seven films and they have suffered huge losses as they all failed to click. Out of Aadhi, Pokkiri, Azhagiya Thamizh Magan, Kuruvi, Villu, Vettaikkaran and Sura released in the last few years they say only ‘Pokkiri’ fetched them profits.


To compensate the losses they incurred by screening the above films the theatre owners are asking Vijay to do a film exclusively for the theatre owners. If not they will issue a red card to the actor and will not screen Vijay films in future.


To discuss the issue further theatre owners are holding an emergency meeting tomorrow May 22. This sudden development is closely watched by the industry. http://www.indiaglitz.com/channels/tamil/article/57153.html

Hello world. Yes, I'm blogging again. I'm feeling miserable.


I told my loved ones that I am God's favourite child. Well I am right. I am ! I am damn right I am indeed. Honestly when I head to the other realm, I have a few dying questions (unless they get answered soon). Sometimes I wish we could communicate .. say via a phone or something ? Why can't you answer emails ? Hahaha, oh well, guess our Telcos are miserable. No communication network to Heaven has been established (yet) I guess.


And yes, my Old Fella' has decided to let me out in the cold waters against. But this time totally into a sea of uncertainties. I guess I need to navigate through the rough waters. But the question is ... where's the destination , what is the destination ?. I mean , I'm no genius to read your mind Old Fella ! Hahaha. What's up ???


And by the way, just to let the world know, I didn't get the courses that I wanted in Uni - all due to competitions. So what should I do ? Waste life doing something that I don't like or ?? I am ultra confused. I'm stuck in a complicated maze. When I make plans, I try to weigh them against the shit of course. I am confused -hands down ! I have a "round table conference" with God tomorrow. I hope to place my thoughts in proper order. They're completely clouded with "i don't know what".




Quite a sane explanation .. eh ?. All these temporal quotes ( as I call them ) happen to ( at times ) keep me within the boundaries of sanity.


Vithiya Kumar says : winners don't quit ; quitters don't win. So it's gonna be another shot at life ? Although its pretty draining, I guess I still gotta fight against it. Fight fight fight , all over again. Myself versus Life.36 minutes ago Friends Only · Comment · Unlike


Well that's my status from Facebook. Guess I have to follow it. Maybe when one day when I look back, I may look at myself and say "Vitz, I'm amazed...you really like fighting ah ?". Some people out there think I possess an iron heart but they fail to see the countless reminders I give myself, the waterfalls made up of human tears, the moments I lose my insanity, ..... hahaha every other depressing moments .. etc etc etc. It's not easy readers, its not ! I'm mentally drained. I am. If it wasn't for my loved ones, I guess I would have found a permanent place to live at (winks).


Ahhhh let me digress. Watched Rock On! (hindi film) earlier and it was an awesome movie. I liked a few details that were presented in that flick. 4 friends who loved jamming and due to clashes arising from a conflict of egos, they separated and left their rock band. 10 years later they reunited and .... watch it guys !. Hahaha coming to think about it, I get reminded of Transitionz.


Especially since last year, I've been thinking if the idea of managing Transitionz is a feasible idea. For instance, some people left the group to pursue their own goals. Its not that I don't have goals in life or that no one is against me being in Transitionz. I do have some people asking me if the idea itself a feasible one. Some even brainwashed me asking how long its going to remain there. My parents themselves know it ain't gonna do much. But what kept this fire burning ?. Honestly, I'll be lying if I say it's 100% of passion. The passion is there and we all can sacrifice it for a greater good. But what keeps me going is the trust my members put into the group and me. A few newbies joined the group and kept thanking me for giving them a chance and they liked the group. You know, I feel refreshed when they smile. That smile brings me great joy. I like it when they feel proud of them after doing some stunts/steps. I don't know but I'll continue to be there for those who trust me. This fire will continue to burn till the last member decides to extinguish it. Transitionz - To Succeed Zenith !


You know I surprise myself at times la. I don't know how I can continue to remain this positive when I'm swimming against the current ! Hahaha. I guess God gave me this : 'Throw shit at me and I'll continue smiling' attitude man. But I'm not enjoying it but I gotta smile ? Yea ? Hahahaha Old Fella !


And , friendship is a circle. We've spent laughter, tears, time,sweat,LOVE,dedication, commitment, trust and etc to build it. I know what you are going through now is screwed up. I am praying that things settle in because I don't like it. True love prevails ! I know you are sincere, so time will bring us closer. We know it. Because, TRUE LOVE PREVAILS.




This is for a friend who believes that cutting oneself numbs ones problems. But its a momentary escape from your problems. Hahaha a loser ! If I had trusted the blades, I guess I would be the Mother of Wounds !

Hello world.



My favourite addiction. Frankly, although I was a pro at Winning 11, this game was quite tough for me in the initial stages. Can you believe me when I say that I got thrashed by Portsmouth ?! But obviously it was only a 2 day-affair. From then on, I've been having the upper hand.



My babyboy :)

Celebrating babyboy's birthday in his house :) Well, it had to be simple. Baby was preparing to go for reservist and he wanted to rest. So yes. But I am really planning for a nice 1 year anniversary now. Hahaha. Weee :))

For some reason, I think Tumblr has got create such COPY+PASTE images/quotes/pages and etc. But then again, Tumblr doesn't look like an online portal where you would air your thoughts. I mean, you simply tune your thoughts to suit those images and all or sometimes ... you copy and paste those stuff and make it look like your thoughts ?! I mean I don't really like Tumblr. Hmm .... But of course, some pictures/quotes/pages and etc are cool but I guess you should also mention something besides just copying the codes and pasting them there.


A beautiful Jetty located @ Coniston Water . I really want to start travelling around the globe with my babyboy :))


Well, well ... I am still not over Fathimah's death. I was told by some readers that they cried when they read my previous post. I'm sorry guys, I didn't mean to. I being frank with my emotions. A transparent entry I would say. Damn man. I guess I need some time to get over it and settle down with the present moment. And at this juncture, I remember this particular dialogue from 'Vaaranam Aayiram" :- No matter what happens, life has to go on. Well, people say time heals all wounds but I don't quite believe in it. Time does make you forget and it will create somewhat of a momentary tissue to seal the wound but it never removes the scar completely. Never.


You know, I'm beginning to see competition as a double edged sword too. It spurs us to do our best and yet it also can smother one's fighting spirits. I guess there's a limit to everything but some people just don't seem to understand that. You know, I feel there's no reason to even do well for exams. Yes, when you do well you'll go to better schools and all. But oh c'mon, there's no fucking incentive to work so hard here in Singapore. Every corners are packed with competition. Despite doing well for As, I am not sure if I may get into the course that I want to. Hence, I am deliberately forced by the conventions of the system to think of a Plan B. But why must I plan for a Plan B when my grades and all can take me where I want to go to ? And this is the exact reason why I can scream at the top of my lungs : FUCK COMPETITION ! When the fucking bell curve moves up and down, those who generally think 70 = A grade will have to end up with a B and those who really cannot hit above 46 may end up with a S grade ! I mean why can't the grading system be constant ? I know of some people who attained bad grades and they're in University now. Well, it was their time where the competition wasn't this steep but this batch is suffering. I know of AAD's who were rejected from all 3 Universities and they decided to have private education. What the hell is happening ?! If this was suppose to end this way, I wouldn't even have decided to retake my As man. I would have just gone to a fucking private institution.
Argh, I am really 90% certain that I am moving out of Singapore after settling down with Baby.


And yes, tomorrow I am going to a special place. I need to sort out my thoughts. Everything's haywire-d in my head right now. I guess I am thinking too much. So I need to filter them and strengthen my thoughts - well that would ensure a firm ground, right ?

Hello blog. I have not been in the best of moods for the past few days and do expect a variation of emotions in this particular entry.


First and foremost, I am deeply saddened by my junior's death. Really saddened ! And I just want to mention a few things here.


Rest in peace, Fathimah


Fathimah - I just happened to bump into her at the school library (MI). I generally have a good rapport with the juniors and seniors of MI and so I was friendly with her and all. I didn't know what lied beneath then. Soon after, another junior told me and my friends that she had this heart condition where her heart can stop anytime and all and she even carried some bottle or medical instrument .. it's something like it will be attached to her body - At this juncture, I can't quite remember what it was. But I was stunned. I mean amidst all the stress of the A level education system, this can only burden her even more. I was really thinking alot about it then.


The same junior who told us about her condition also told me that she spent 3 months in the hospital and did her O levels and she eventually became a top scorer in her school. I was feeling so embarrassed with my ownself. I mean I didn't go through such a difficult period but she did and she came out as a winner while I didn't. I really respected her alot. And despite suffering from pain every damn day, she always had this beautiful cheery smile plastered onto her face and she will always be in a good mood and look at life in a positive light. You know when I am bloody stressed up, seeing her will make me feel alot more better and I took her as my inspiration to remain positive no matter what happens.


And I really want to mention about her mom here. Her mother will always come to school to give her food and she will stay by her only child- daughter's side irregardless of rain or shine. That mother didn't know what difficult or hassle meant. She was always there. Apparently Fathimah couldn't eat all kinds of food and there's a specific type of food which she can eat and her mom will always do it that particular way. I mean I don't know how to describe the beautiful moment when we will be at the canteen and the mom will always come there with packed food to feed her. You know some emotions can only be felt , not explained ! But it was a very beautiful sight , very very beautiful ! No one in this world can put forth a perfect definition of a Mother's love ... it can only be felt , never be explained. But in a gist , Mother's love = heaven ! And I really really respected and saluted her mother. She was and even till now will remain as my epitome of unconditional love. I generally love to observe and appreciate alot of random people and their lives and always make some mental notes. And she's someone whom I'll never forget in my life.


On Saturday (15th May) , I was awaken by Pravin's call and he told me that Fathimah had passed away. I was so shocked ! I couldn't believe my own ears and since I was in a groggy mood I couldn't react. As in it didn't settle in yet. I had tuition at 1230 pm and dance at 330pm. I was supposed to go for tuition and head for dance but I had to push forth my plans and go for Fathimah's funeral. The time was 930 am and I had to be there by 12 because they will take away her body at 12 it seemed. So I really rushed and was reminiscing about all those moments I had spent with her and everything...


When I first went to her house, Pravin informed me that they're bathing her. So Pravin, Shafie, Karpagam and I waited outside and somehow we were talking about alot of stuff that I kind of took my mind away from the funeral. Just then I overheard what the father said and also Shafie told us some details.


It seems that she didn't die naturally. The dad took out the life support from her. He pulled the plug - he couldn't watch her suffer. Well, her skin started peeling out and her flesh was being exposed, she vomitted blood, her eyes nearly dropped out, her face was melting, alot blood were clotting her eyes, her body parts started coming out and .... all ... so he pulled the plug. In my frankest opinion, although i fucking hate the fact that she died , I think it was better for the dad to pull the plug. I cannot stand the fact that that poor soul suffered this much throughout her life ! Really fucking upset.


Soon, the dad asked everyone of us to see her face for the last time and they were doing some ritual ( muslim rituals ) and I was unfamiliar with all this. They gave us some light brown thing and we had to put it around her head and I did it. While doing it, I was looking at her face.. i swear, it broke my heart to watch a junior lying motionless there. I don't know what was happening but her face looked so disfigured. Her nose were like melted .. it was had melted and nearly "ate" her left eye away. And I think the doctors stitched it up and all. I don't know how to describe how fucking sad I was... I really couldn't stand it and I really wanted to cry my heart out - serious. I would have burst out crying if I had been standing inside. So I instantly walked out of the house, found a lonely spot and was crying my heart out. I wish I could do more than just crying but it's not in my power to reverse time or anything. I am so sad. I couldn't bear to see her mother cry too. I know the parents did all that they could but .....


I really pray that Fathimah is peaceful up there. She was always a fighter. She could have gone earlier but she fought till the end and despite all her problems and suffering, she never failed to put up that smile. Thank you Fathimah ! Although I am really depressed that you went away too soon, I hope this will put an end to your suffering. Girl, I really love you and will miss you but you will never fade away from my memories. Although we had a short stint during our MI times, I know enough to cry my heart out ! Rest in peace Fathimah.


"One day I will wipe away every tear from your eyes. And I will take away all the pain that you have suffered on this earth" Revelation 21: 3-4


Reflection


I hate death. I am so afraid of this that I really don't want it to be part and parcel of my life. Some people will say "life still has to go one" but I cannot move on just like that. I know that all of us have to go one day. But I don't have to courage to watch a loved one go off like that. And that is why, I really really make and effort to reduce fights that I have, forgive people really very easily and all. Alot of people have asked me :" are you out of your mind ? Why do you always forgive people easily ?" Well we only have that limited time on this earth and we'll all go off one day and I don't want to die with any regrets. I just don't want to. I want to lie in my death bed just like my grandfather - with a smile on his face. I was very young when I saw it and I often mistook it thinking that he was "laughing" before he died and that was why there was a smile but as I grew older, I realised that he died without any regrets. I want to be like that. I don't know how things will go but I just don't have the heart to see my loved ones die ... and that is why i really pray that I will be gone before they do because I can't see all this ! I fucking don't want to. That is why every little things affect me. For instance, when my mom , my aunty , cousin and I were out, I constantly kept looking behind to see if my mom was safe and all. She was walking with my aunty but I always have this uncertainty looming around me and I am always afraid. So I kept looking back and all and my aunty got irritated and she scolded me. I understand her irritation but I can't help. Haiz. I guess this is just me. The way I am. I hate funerals and I hate death. I hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate all this ! Just hate !


And to those people out there who take great pride in breaking people's hearts - you don't have the right to break someone's heart. Learn this. When you die one day all they can think about is how badly you broke their heart. I don't think you would want to be known as a heartbreaker ! Some people are super insecured. They think that its better to break someone's heart rather than them breaking your heart but in LOVE, you don't nurse insecurities. You only love unconditionally - not with materialistic or non materialistic conditions. I hope people will all realise this one day. Lets spread love, not hatred ! Please ?


Personal rants


I am beginning to embrace the fact that you should never expect so as to avoid disappointments. Yes, that is true eh ?. Sometimes I feel like some certain things in life looks so momentary. Like nothing last for an eternity - expect for unconditional love ? But even so, some people put such a abrupt end to it and well, that is certainly besides the point here. I believe that words have 2 different sides. Words can be a double-edged sword - it can kill and motivate someone. I am really mentally exhausted of listening to vicious words. Sometimes I feel like I am misunderstood but when will they find the right juncture to understand me fully ? I am really hurt and I guess its a phase I have to go through again-yet again. I guess I must be God's favourite daughter that He chooses to test me as much as He can at every possible moments. Honestly God, I am very very drained. I really wish you can stop because I can see that you create all these obstacles just to test me but I don't know the real reason and people out there do condemn me because they all they see is nothing but my failure. I know this is not fair at all - I really am waiting for answers but I don't get any ?! I am so confused because you make things look so complicated for me. I really don't understand why, God ?!


I hope you can feel what I feel and really stop it.

Happy 9 months to us ! Yay !!


It's double celebration for us - our anniversary + his birthday on the 16th. Due to his tight work schedule, I am really trying my level best to map out some surprises. Well God, please help me out with it.








Happy us :))


Thoughts


Friends of mine know that I am not in the right state of mind now. Well, I'm really stressed up and things are piling up and its making me even more stressful. I mean this is life and there's no time for any screw ups and so please, don't screw this up for me. Please ?


I really feel very exhausted with some ideas actually. For instance, there's this new competition on Vasantham and its called some "SuperStar" thing and my friends are encouraging me to sign up since I can dance, host, act and etc etc .. but the main question is, what am I going to get out of it ? I mean I understand the opportunities and all but I really don't know if I have the time to commit for this.


On Tuesday, 18th of May, I've got a drama scene to do. Its for the drama called "Mani"- Siva's production. Actually I was fucking pissed with myself after the auditions. I know that I didn't do my best. I was shocked with my own attitude at the auditions. I mean I write scripts and have taught people how to act and all and .. despite being a director and telling people what i expect and all , I myself didn't act well. I mean imagine this : a scene where you know you were molested and obviously certain emotions should come out but I couldn't do it. I was like thinking how would I react if I have gotten molested but since I've like never been molested, I couldn't react. But that's not an excuse ! When it comes to acting, we have to visualise and act out ! Oh my god ! I just did badly la. I don't know whats the minor role for this scene but lets see. I hope I do it well enough ! That will lift up my spirits. I was so sad that i disappointed Siva. He gave me so many different roles and scenes to do and I couldn't deliver my best ! Fucked up me !


You know, I don't know why I am having terrible thoughts nowadays. Like how long am I going to live out my passion and all. Well, maybe it comes with having too much of expectations I guess. Haiz .. I am so confused and stressed up man.


For now, I am only waiting for a response from 2 different things and if I get a positive one, I guess things will settle down well. Arghh frustrated la !


Maybe the only one who kind of understand this situation is some people .. I guess Cheryl will be the best one .. cos' we're going through the same thing.


And last but not least, asshole, you don't deserve what you got. I guess you were just lucky.

Hello blog !


First and foremost, I'm quite delighted to note that some random people happen to read my blog and infact 3 of them sent me messages to my email account and facebook account ! Thanks peeps :)


EPL Campaign


Ok, the EPL campaign has ended and I congratulate Chelsea for showing an outstanding performance. 103 goals ! That is awesome ! And of course, my best wishes to Didier Drogba for clinching the Golden Boot. I love him man. He's really good and has that predatory goal scoring instinct and he has amazing speed and good ball control ( well, minus his schoolboy antics la ).


I am still proud of my VERY OWN RED DEVILS ! We fought till the very end. We trailed Chelsea by a SINGLE point. GLORY GLORY MAN UNITED !!!!




And I understand there are some sore loser Liverpool fans are taunting Man Utd and their fans because we didn't surpass their record of 18 titles. We're on par with them now and I can tell you sore Liverpool loser fans that, we WILL clinch that historic 19th real soon- very soon infact. We're known as RED DEVILS for a reason assholes. And whatnot, I received irritating messages from Liverpool fanatic taunting me. And of course, I gave it left and right.


Praba sent me a forwarded message - guess he sent it to all Man Utd fans. So I replied back and our argument took me to send 7 page long messages and so on. And then I stopped and pondered ... well he must be pretty sore due to Liverpool's failure and I decided to stop arguing since it is a complete waste of time to fight with a Liverpool fan.


Last but not least, Liverpoolians - stay as LIVERPOOL not LOSERPOOL. 7th this season ? Try and get into top 4 before taunting us and dreaming about clinching the title la, assholes. When we win our 19th, you guys are pretty dead. And please, for Pete's Sake, don't even think that you guys did Chelsea a favour by losing to them. I think you guys simply buried your pride. Gerrard was totally not inspirational this season and I really pity Torres ! He's so talented and yet he's so stuck with a loser club. I hope he moves on to Manchester City. It's a complete waste of his talent and time to be stuck with a loser club. And Shankly must be crawled out with disgust in his grave with the current dilemma of Liverpool ! He proud so much of pride to the club and it's a club with rich history. Liverpool is definitely one of the most decorated clubs in the world and yet, what a pity ! Well, should blame it on the loser fans and that pretender of a manager they have. Loserpool, buck up, if not you guys are going to be relegated soon and Ayam Brand will start sponsoring you'll ! Start walking alone la, assholes. And despite being a Man Utd fan, I had my respect for Liverpool but i guess its the fans that make me DESPISE Liverpool totally and from this season, I have become ANTI LIVERPOOL ! FUCK LIVERPOOL !



I am so impressed with Rooney man ! He was really there for us. So much of burden on a 25 year old's shoulders. OMG , you were there Rooney. My star. But I really hope Fergie will make some important signings for the next season. I heard that Silva is interested to come to United. Welcome dude. But I want a fiery striker to pair up with Rooney - someone like Torres. A Torres-Rooney partnership will be mouthwatering. Please sell Berbatov-he can't perform when he needs to and he cannot be relied upon. I really thank Nani for taking the role of scoring goals. Macheda is good man.. I bet he's going to be world cup soon. And I hope fergie will invest more into buying very good midfielders - I want a good playmaker - like Xavi. Xavi's good very good vision man. He can change a game just like that ! A fucking good instrumental playmaker. And of course tone up our defence. Its time the old legends leave us .. haiz.



To those who mentioned he had belly. He lost it peeps


On the other hand, I do miss Cristiano Ronaldo. People think he's arrogant and that he's a Portugese Peacock and whatnot. But the truth is, at 24 he has managed to establish himself as one of the best players in the world. He may be selfish as to score first before passing but hello, he turns out good results. Like how he helped Real come back from a Mallorca's first goal. He's good man. He has that fiery desire to be the BEST and he trained hard and he becomes the BEST. When you are the BEST, you know what to do. Its your word against the others. Thats what he does and people instantly think he's arrogant. There's a thin line between arrogance and confidence. In my opinion he's a very confident player. I admire his confidence and his desire to be the best and nothing less !


He's simply ripped ! OMG ! fucking ripped man ! I wish I had a swimming pool in my house. I would be jogging like a mad girl around my estate and immediately swim my ass off and I'll be in good shape too ! I love his physique... wooooohoooo. He's sooooo goodlooking and he's got amazing body.

:))


Ronaldo's hattrick against Mallorca





WORLD CUP is coming but i don't think my father is going to purchase the channel since its so expensive now. Fucking hell, last world cup was alot more cheaper and now it's doubled. Damn them ! This is what happens when we have to solely depend on them for World Cup coverage ! Shit them la !


My personal thoughts


I was having a good morning till I saw this particular status and simply asked one question and the other person on the other side simply had to show some fucked up attitude ! Look you can be a King/Queen of Sarcasm but you know how to control your fucking fingers and mouth. I hate sarcastic fuckers and I can retaliate back too. I can insult you in many ways - many many ways but I can tell you now on your face that its going to make you feel damn fucking bad about yourself ! Self-confidence is what you show others but words can hurt you real bad. Trust me. I know what to do and how to do it but its JUST THAT I DON'T WISH TO INSULT YOU in the name of sarcasm. So play your damned cards well and don't test my patience. And perhaps, go and ask your momma to pay you to be polite-looks like you've got a serious issue with that, motherfucker !


I am really waiting for something to happen. When that happens, I am going to unleash a different me. I am just waiting because its going to be time, I give back what people gave me. But before I do that, something must happen and that's exactly what I am waiting for.


Dance


Anyways, I am quite stressed up about dance. Firstly, balls to those who would gloat about this state. Especially that Gay boy who is waiting to apparently take on us and that bitch with a fucked up attitude who is apparently waiting to prove to us. I don't care. We're coming back stronger. Don't worry.


But then again, I am very pissed off with this fucked up womaniser ! He BEGGED me to come back and of course I gave him a chance. He told me how his ex gf restricted him from joining us and I didn't buy his story because I know him too well but I still have him a chance because I do believe in giving second chances but that womaniser simply have reasons to NOT come for dance every time. All the reasons that he gives are fucking pathetic-just like his face and his life. Stupid womaniser, you are really going to get fucked by life and God. Haven't been to NS ? Yea? Hope you get your ass screwed. And yes, I call him womaniser for a reason - why because he cannot control his dick. He will be after every girl and when he meets another girl, he'll vanish from your sight and you will be labelled as a BAD GIRL FROM HELL ! Such a fucked up character man ! Yucks ! Not man enough to hold his own balls and what irritates me is all this girls who are too nice to him. I wish some girls will give him back big time .. only 1 did something like that but not fiercely ! Eeeeks ! And his friends think he was the scapegoat in all his relationships ?! HAHA paavam !


Secondly, I really admire the hardwork from some of my dancers - they know who they are but some are not focused. They have short attention span and I was really controlling my temper on Saturday. Hope things get better sooner.




Me preparing to do the "knee glide and push back up" move



Yeah - after doing this , you should push yourself back up by using those hands on your ribcage and the supporting knee ..



Like this and up ! This is really tough for me .. all because I have an injured knee ... normally people will use their left knee for support but I can't do that .. this particular stunt cramped my whole body ... I have suffering from cramped thigh, calf, hands and strained shoulders .. and Sashi neck was cramped , Ameen's legs and hips were gone , Gopi's thighs , calf and whole body was cramped .. and etc .. HAHA omg ..

Hello bloggy


I am slightly upset with some stuff ... a few thoughts ... . I am thinking about alot of issues and I can't seem to put them into proper order to establish a certain form of coherence. Damn. And before I kind of talk about them, I just need the typical indians to stop asking me questions and begging me to reveal their identities. I won't.


Scenario 1


This particular person whom I know happened to be molested by his tuition teacher. When he was a mere 8 year old, it happened. It was behind closed doors and whenever he told his parents, his parents asked him to stop fabricating stories. He believed it was something "normal". He hasn't gotten rid of that phobia. He's still traumatised. He can't even get into a r'ship out of fear.


I tried my level best to put some sense into him. He told me he can only become normal when thing ordeal be reversed. Meaning, we need to travel back in time and undo this. But I am no superhero and I want to help but I don't know how to do that. I am encouraging him to step beyond and start living his life. He's trying real hard - i know it.


Scenario 2


You were not in a good mood. You cried and I felt it and so I called you, forced you to pick up the damn phone and you did. I was lending you a listening ear. I wanted to listen to everything but you do know that I am a sensitive person and I can really feel people's pain and i felt it and so I cried. I mean I am not a third party here to listen and then hang up. I'm a friend and I don't know how others define friends as but in my dictionary, I really go beyond the proposed parameters and try and fix the situation. In short, I am trying to be a better friend. I am really disappointed that you would come to such a conclusion - never ever to share your problems with me all because it will make me feel sad. What am I to you ? Have you like downgraded me from a close friend material to an acquaintance-material ?. You know sometimes I wish I was staying near you so that when you lack logic, I can come straight to your crib and give you a fucking bitch slap ! And do you realise that whenever you think - especially when you're in a emotional mood, you make the weirdest of decisions - to be frank - fucked up decisions. Seriously, i think you need a slap !


Scenario 3


Overtime, I got to know that X didn't have a smooth journey in life. X had to face the torture of meeting expectations all through his/her life, to the extent that his/her life depended highly on his/her parent's expectations. Like what the parents didn't fulfill at their own childhood, they imposed it on him/her. So living within the constraints of their own expectation was bad. I personally think you should set yourself an expectation and live up to it rather than living to the world's expectations. The world doesn't know your feelings and thoughts. They can't feel you because they aren't living in your shoes. But too bad, it happened and being dejected because of this doesn't yield the right purpose. Serious !


Fine ! The expectations is done and over with. I think some Indian parents ruin their kids. Some give them too little freedom and smother them with their own expectations. These kids who have such parents end up the wrong way - depressed. They often feel that they're not living their dreams - their interests are completely concealed. For example, when you think back and revisit your life, all you can remember is such unhappy moments ! Is this life ? On the other hand, some parents trust their kids too much and discuss open topics with them and give them alot of freedom and what happens because of that ? They get tattoos done behind their backs, lead such a wild sex life behind their backs ( imagine the parents getting to know that their daughter is a slut ) and indulge in booze and drugs. Sad life. Maybe Indians just love drama and twist and turn in their lives that this has to be a fundamental part of our community.


Coming back to X's life, the damage has been done and there's no use brooding about it. No use complaining about it. Seriously, no use. You need to start to reinforce the way your mind thinks. Sadly some people undermine the value of their minds. The mind is such an essential tool. For instance I know of this slut who apparently claimed that she is addicted to sex and she needs to have it every single day. But I am saying that if she learns how to control her mind, she can kick that habit of hers. For instance, some of us cannot stop craving for some food items - like hmm prawns ?. But before you indulge in good food, remember this - the taste only last for 5 seconds. You cannot preserve this taste for 10 hours ! So why eat it ? If you practice such an art of taming your mind's upsurge of changes - you can control whatever that needs to be controlled !


And whats the point of labeling yourself "hopeless" "wasteful" and "imbecile" ?? Its people who label others and if you're going to do them a favour by accepting it as your identity then its ENTIRELY your fault. God gave you the brains to think ! But are you using the energy to think ? You don't ! Why can't you stop labeling yourself and start building your life ? How did losers even came back stronger ? Don't tell me the whole world didn't label them ? Even John Terry - I hate that motherfucker but to think about it, at a professional level of soccer such negative comments about you on internet forums, Facebook pages, twitters and etc can affect your morale. His fans were insulting him on his face ! Radio to tv to newspaper to internet is your face and your cheap antics. Do you think he wasn't bothered ? He was !! Any normal human being would be embarrassed, disturbed, dejected and etc but did he bring it to the field ? And he's the captain of Chelsea and yet he stood steadfast in his purpose, his goals !


And that is exactly what I am asking you to do ! Remain steadfast in your quest. You know your goals ! You have set them well ! Now, all you have to learn is to control your mind ! I realised that its your inability to control your mind that even created alot of problems for you. it's your weakness. We all know we have to suffer in the present moment but once we know what we want to do and do it right then we can move on in life and live a better future but if you are going to step into a future with such a weak mind then you will NEVER have the character to face up whatever problems your future may bring to you. I'm doing research on this and I will transform you. I don't care if you like it but I am doing my duty as a friend. Hate you may but give up on you - I never will. I am not your parents or the society ! I am your friend ! Get it right !


Scenario 4


I really hate it when people leave their problems into the hands of knife/pen knife/suicide/drugs and etc. Why ? You don't have the balls to face up to problems ?? Next time use a fucking chainsaw and cut off your hand ! It can numb your problems for life ! And some geniuses can find a fucked up theory called "it can numb your thinking ... so that you don't have to think about your problems"! Honestly I feel like showing both my middle fingers on your face and scream "bullshit" ! You aware drugs also numbs people's thoughts and problems ? So is that right ? Sucide also numbs people's thoughts and problems ? Is that right ? C'mon ass, speak with sense ! Of all people I cannot believe YOU practice this 'art' ! Typically, its the low-life anjadi idiots who want to boast their love to another low-life anjadi idiots who would do such a thing ! Serious .. its low-life, uneducated idiots who would do this. Because if you're really educated, you would know that cutting yourself is a deed of a coward ! You're basically running away from problems ! I really wonder if you would be man/woman enough to save your mother from dangers if she ever get into one ! You run away from your own problems and how will people BELIEVE that you can help your mother in distress ? I wonder !


Like what I said, learn how to control your mind. You're too weak ! I hate to say it but you need to start controlling your mind or else your problems would start controlling your mind - just like how Lord Voldemort could contorl Harry's weak mind ! And you know the effects of such a weakness. Its always easy for your enemies to manipulate you and affect your life ! Please, I am begging you to start becoming the master of your destiny ! its only possible if you can learn how to shut away from the society and to learn how to control your mind ! I don't want you to put the trust on a low-life knife ! Put it on your amazing mind ! Please ! I will be there to guide you through this - because I am your friend and allow me to do my duty ! Please ?


A special dedication to you : listen to the lyrics well :)

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Shalin's awesomeness BBQ party !




My babyboy and me :)) and it was a family function with friends of course - my future family that is :P .. and everyone know about us and although things are not official - I mean in THAT way .. hahaha everything's good :)) . HAHAHA as much as I hate his "botak" look - my mom and grandma thinks he looks better with hair !! HAHAH rofl ! :P


BABY :))) - he was sooooo cute ! He peeled BBQ prawns for me and fed me . He got so worried when I got tipsy that he actually asked his cousins why they gave me too much of drinks ! HAHAHA and lastly when I was swimming he got so worried .. cos he wasn't gonna swim and he was afraid if i'll drown ..HAHA yes .. and soon after he got himself changed - he took his cousin's clothes n swam :)) .. he's sucha baby ! I'm really lucky right ? I know :)



HEHEHEHE :)))


All sorts of drinks inside. I had 2 different types of Red Wine, White Wine ( my fave ) , Hoegaarden, a Holland beer ( I forgot the name ) and Chivas - this kicked me off .. HAHA


Us with Red Wine ( i hate red wine man ! )


I was really happy here ! Those are Sentill's parents ! And I really respect them for the kind of love they have even till now ! Awesome parents !! And they're Baby's Godparents :)) ... I am soooooooooo HAPPY :)) !! HEHEHE and Aunty actually told Baby not to hide anything and that they all know that we're together ... hahaha so no use being low profile :P .. and Chandra Uncle - he's not in this picture - he actually asked me "so where's your baby (referring to Kabi) now ? On the way ? " and I actually kept calling Kabi "Baby" too many times .. and it was really awkward when people caught it hehehe :P



Birthday Girl - SHALIN :))


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LOVE them alot alot :)


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RISHI BABY !!!!!!! :))




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He talks to me ( at times i don't get it ) and he listens to me :))



sucha BABY !!!


RISHI baby feeding me coffee :))



I LOVE HIM SOOOOO MUCH SIA !!




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style :)


MUACKS !

I was supposed to rant about something important but then again, I kind of lost focus. Well, not today then.. DAMN !


Oh man, my tummy hurts - guess I ate something wrong :( !! On tuesday, I ate beef slices, beef patty, teriyaki salmon, rice, coleslaw, fries, ice kachang, ice cream and had 1 coke float and 1 ice lemon tea - ALL FOR DINNER ! Yes, you saw it right ! I am pigging out like crazy !! :( !!
OH NO !!!!!


Did I tell you? I am super addicted to the Minced Meat Noodle at the BPP Kopitiam. So when the whole Kopitiam was under renovation, I was upset. So today I was there and ate there :) and when I came home, my mom bought KFC - i ate 1/3 of A chicken piece. Soon after, I felt hungry and I ate Tuna flakes in Olive Oil with wholemeal bread .. OH NO !!! Early afternoon, I planned to starve since I pigged on on Tues but unfortunately, I had pangs of gastric pain and had to cook Aglio Olio with chicken breast. Haiz !


OH NO VITZ !! You need to look trim, fit and sexy ! No way am I gonna gain those pounds !! NO NO NO !! Gonna have light lunch and dinner tomorrow ! I promise and will be running on Friday :) ! Yay me !! And dance on Sat !! HAHAHA


Mother's day this Sunday , Baby's birthday in 10 days time , Mom's birthday in 18 more days .. I am gonna be hella broke ! OH NO ! I planned for something for baby's birthday but since I am low on funds, I need to scrap of my idea ... well, I planned to have a private yacht session with my baby with good food - fine dining that is provided in that private yacht and that yacht will be travelling around till the next morning ( if i am not sure, it'll go to a neighbouring country and back ) - giving us ample time to spend quality time :)) - oh no !! nevermind, we'll have it when i start working at a new company again :) ! I LOVE MY BABY !! And yes .. most importantly, our 9th month coming in 4 day's time :) wooohoooo !! Double the happiness for me and my baby booo :))


Sweet Child O'Mine





She's got a smile that it seems to me
Reminds me of childhood memories
Where everything
Was as fresh as the bright blue sky
Now and then when I see her face
She takes me away to that special place
And if I'd stare too long
I'd probably break down and cry


Sweet child o' mine
Sweet love of mine


She's got eyes of the bluest skies
As if they thought of rain
I hate to look into those eyes
And see an ounce of pain
Her hair reminds me of a warm safe place
Where as a child I'd hide
And pray for the thunder
And the rain
To quietly pass me by


Sweet child o' mine
Sweet love of mine


Where do we go
Where do we go now
Where do we go
Sweet child o' mine

Vithiya 'Vitz'

11 Jan 1987

Undergrad (Psychology)

Manchester United

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