Just 2 weeks ago, I heard that the results will be out on the 6th of March . But it wasn't an official message but rather , it was passed through the 'words of mouth' . So I waited till it was confirmed by MOE and all . In short , I doubted the credibility of the 'rumour' . Well , maybe its a tad more defined now than ever eh ? . Anyways lets face the judgement . I would rather call it the uncertain judgement .


Anxiety


Of course , I didn't study as hard and as much as I really wanted to . The potential was there but I guess I let it slip through my fingers . Luck wasn't on my side I guess . I know it sounds absurd to blame it on the surroundings and instances but over the days , I realised how fundamental they may become and so yes . For an example , you can literally see alot of breakdowns and all and the funny thing is , you will become closer to friends who weren't even in your contact list . That's funny , I know . And it is utterly ridiculous to sacrifice your study time to mend those friendships that would vanish into the thin air overtime . All those silly sacrifice wouldn't be worthwhile in the long run .


I totally wish I had reduced those kind of silly sacrifices . All those problems from different people simply made ( and also moulded ) me into a highly agitated person . And instead , I should have channelled more time into studying . I should have stopped my intellectual arrogance . I should have practiced more self-discipline . See the whole spectrum of an endless possibilities ? . Haha , our lives are always full of "what if " , "I should have " , " if only I had " and so on . Also guys , nobody can be 100% prepared . Trust me . So it's always very good to know everything . At least have the gist of those things that you can never remember . It'll help you out in dire situations .


Outcome


I am somewhat surrounded by many people with severely high expectations on me . I know that I did crack under pressure . But I really got no idea on what to anticipate . I believe everyone would have known what are my targetted grades and all . I have also planned the "estimated" grades too . So lets see what the outcome is . But I know that I will never stop here . If I fail to attain satisfactory grades , I will certainly re-do the examination . I mean ," winners don't quit and quitters don't win " . So lets just see . All the best mates .


Workplace


Today , someone from the top management ( I don't wish to name the person for commercial-confidentiality reasons ) , actually told my Supervisor " why aren't SM sending Vithiya for Supervisor's course ? " . My Supervisor instantly replied him saying " I know , I do want that too but Vithiya has got bright future and I definitely cannot ask her to stop her studies and work here . Infact , she's getting her results tomorrow " . Ok , actually I was elated when I heard it . Not because I was hunting for that position . But because , I felt recognised . Haha .


I mean I wanted to really work hard and all . Because I realised that SECURITY is such an important issue . I mean , I cannot reveal all the stuff that I've learnt overtime but I know for sure that it is not an easy task to do this . But yes . I can do alot of things now . For an example , I know how to isolate areas , press the silencer , reset the fire alarm panel buttons , read and decipher the entire fire alarm panel , call CHUBB and inform them of the main things , reset the exhaust fan pipe systems and etc . This list is definitely infinite - inexhaustible . Alot of sensitive issues and all . Haha , and I have already trained 3 people so far . Isn't that cool ? . Most of them are like really older than me . And I can confidently carry out my task because I know what I am doing . I know how to make very important decisions pertaining to SECURITY . Seriously this job is adding fuel to my interest in pursuing a career in the Police Force - namely CID ! Haha . Man ...


Hmm , all in all , I love my friends . I believe that I am spending alot of money because I feel that I have saved enough . Haha . I am sick and tired of not having an iron heart . Yeah ... hmmm ok .


In case you can decipher this : Where were you when I really needed you the most ?


Picture time !!





A picture after 4 hours of heavy laugher

Vithiya 'Vitz'

11 Jan 1987

Undergrad (Psychology)

Manchester United

vithiyakumar11@gmail.com

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