Friday, December 14, 2007
BIRTHDAY BASH @ Kristin's crib
Dearest Kristin Hamton celebrated her birthday on the 13th at her crib . My mom , her mom and her aunty spent the time talking - well basically catching up on their past and reliving those vivid memories . Oh in case I didn't mention this , Kristin's mom and aunty were apparently my mom's bestfriends back in those times .
As Kristin is my very special friend , I decided to make that day quite memorable . I wanted to paint her day with beautiful colours of course . Well I hope I did enough to bring a huge smile on her face . Yeap . We really had fun .
Shappie , Kristin and I really camwhored and yes , those 2 lovely peeps really made me feel soo loved . It was nice cuddling up with them . Frankly I've got a plethora of pictures up on my phone which I am so unable to upload . Gosh . That was a real depressed sigh from me of course .
Oh yes . This year is quite different for us and yes Kristin , we should always stick to our "Jalsa" song . A meaningful song . Oh .. I miss Twinkle like crazy . Haiz ( x 1 000000 - actually more than that ) .
The surprise cake that we bought for her .From the top : The pretty birthday girl - Kristin , me , Shapnem , Silas , Vicky and Nesh
Good News
Yesterday at around 1.40 am , I received a call from a RC member . I didn't believe a word she told me . But then , she ended of saying " I was trying to reach you somehow " . So I trusted her . Ok , good news is that , we , MANIAC FLAMERZ are suddenly on demand . We got 2 dance performances this sunday . The best thing is , we're being paid to dance at Taman Jurong . Hmm , I love this .
Diagramma della Verita , Diagram of Truth
A subtle yet a convincing caption for this part of my entry . Frankly , I'm going to be a bit emotional here . Currently , a certain chain of events completely left me on the crossroads . More than just tears , I admit that I'm really heartbroken . Yes , and therefore , I would like to take this chance to apologise to 3 people .
Person # 1
I know that I have been bad towards you . I really didn't anticipate the repercussion of my actions . When I heard that I inflicted that pain on you , I couldn't help but feel like the world's biggest fucktard . It's like as though I meant it with some ill intentions but I swear I didn't intend to mean it that way .
Today I met you to clear some things . Whatever you told me is still ringing very loudly in my head . The 4 hours of chat really made me realise how much I have hurt you . Those who know me inside out know that I don't have the habit of hurting people ( well some who think otherwise may point fingers and claim that I am lying but at this juncture , that's the least of my concerns ) . To think of it , I cannot believe that I broke those colourful dreams of yours . I cannot believe that I broke your heart too . How could I ?! . Damn , I shouldn't have assumed stuffs . I'm really really sorry . I'm definitely going to stick by my stand and do whatever I promised you . I'll live up to that name . Please trust me on this . I'm really really sorry for breaking your heart . After today's talk ( and yes thanks for instilling some brains in me too ) I realised that I have a mountain-loads of love and concern for you . My dearest Godbrother , I hope you will forgive me . Once again , I'm really sorry
Person # 2 , #3 and #4
I know that you read my blog and I also know that you will know that I am talking about you . So yes . I'm so sorry for the decision that I took today . I mean it came as a big shock to me . The 3 of you'll don't know each other and yet all 3 shocks came at the same time . I was praying hard that I shouldn't be facing such a situation but of course things had to take that plunge that I had feared for . But then again , I admit that my decision may be biased . But I really stand by it . I've got a multitude of reasons for coming to such a conclusion . All I ask from you'll is time . I need my time . I need that personal space to do some reflection . Things have certainly changed and I don't feel like before . I feel different . A manifestation of an avalanche of indifference . I believe in the significance of the insignificant so yes . Time is something that I need . Essential need of course .
You got coloured @
11:34 pm