Saturday, November 17, 2007
Greetings readers . I've found a job and am currently working . I'm not working in borders this time . Yeap I am sad but then again , I think I'll be better off working in borders next year . So I'm working in a company called I-Flex solutions which is held in the International Business Park ( IBP ) . I have got my own room labelled as the " HR store " . The worst thing is , I am the only youngest , coolest and trendiest worker there . Well imagine this : Me clad in my usual tees and jeans with bling-blings while everyone else is clad in super formal clothes with ties . Hahaha . I know . But the thing is , I hate wearing so formal . But then again , they told me that they don't have a problem with me wearing so casually . Haha . Cool ! .
Honestly , I feel really small working amidst all those millionaires and billionaires . When I was looking through their staff's files , I can frankly tell you that those staff there are like drawing a whooping a 5 figure digit salary . Yes ! . I-Flex is a highly profitable company with a turnover over S$64 million a year . They have a myriad of branches and business collaborations with other countries . All their staff have more than 2 degrees , almost all majoring in stuff like computer science , information technology and finance and investments . 3/4 of the workers are indian expatriates . So yeap . This company is apparently an Indian company with it's head office situated in Bangalore but with business amalgamations and collaborations with other countries . Wow wow I tell you , but of course I'm not earning a bloody 5 figure digit salary . Haha . Frankly , I'm learning alot . I spoke to a few staff there and they were telling me alot about globalisation , commercialisation , finance and investments , mathematics ( yes I know ) , information technology , intellectual property and corporate law . Their talk was really serious . Whatever I learn in during my Management of Business class can be greatly applied in this firm as I work in the HR store , compiling and organising all HR-related stuff . Well , whatever I learn from this firm is definitely going to come in handy and what's more , they are like teaching me a bit about foreign banking , corporate banking and laws on intellectual property . Woo . I told you , my lucky stars are zooming around me .
Back from the "slumber party" . Izzah didn't come as she was still in her school uniform . That lazy asshole . Haha . I decided to head to Eunice's house with Hayl . Fareez turned up after his rugby tournament too . The three of us met at Cityhall and travelled all the way to Paya Lebar to Eunice's palatial bungalow . Familiar faces greeted me while I made my way there . The 3 of us were so hungry that we helped ourselves to a plateful of cooked food ( while Shahida , Faris and Bin Xiang helped us with the BBQ-ed food ) . We joined Clare and Benji . Had an interesting conversation with them . After eating , Hayl pointed towards the bottle containing " Absolut Vodka " . She opened it and gave me , Clare and Benji a cup containing Absolut Vodka . Soon after , Clare poured herself a few cups and she gave me one too . The vodka in the new cup was really raw . I poured myself a few cups . After that , I realised that it was my limit . So I stopped . Hayl suggested playing this "5-10" game where the one who gets "hit" drinks . Haha . I decided not to play . Yeap . Instead , Fareez ( who's a non-alcoholic ) and I sat near them and watched them play . Clare and Benji turned red after a few "hits" while Aliff and Hayl were strong . Hehe . Fareez and I had to leave due to other commitments and Benji decided to come with us .
The funny thing was , Benji looked perfectly fine until we started walking to the bus stop . I was bombarded with a splitting headache which told me that I exceeded my own limit . I was feeling really woozy and thus found it really hard to battle with the splitting headache . Benji on the other hand was completely a goner . He was laughing really loudly and all . Fareez and I had to drag him to the MRT station . Benji was jumping around like a monkey in the MRT , attracting attention from strangers . The funny thing was , I was pretty quiet . I just found it really impossible to stand . I badly needed to sit . Fareez was like " Aye alcoholics ! " . Gosh . As soon as I got a seat , I was falling into a deep sleep . Thank God , Gayatri Devi called me . I wasn't blabbering so it was fine . But at one point in time , I started to tell her something .. and she went like " I think the effect of the drink is coming upon you now " . Haha . That was funny . I shall post the pictures soon when my USB port is settled .
Willful ignorance is surrending control .
Anyways , I saw this snippet of information from Shapnem's blog . I don't exactly know why she blogged this out but I think I can air out my views . This is exactly what I stripped off her blog .
Why do people steal what belongs to others ?
Because what they are stealing, is desperate and scared. And claims that they don’t love their owner.
So the manipulated thief finds it reasonable to steal.
But what if the thief knew how valuable the object being stolen was?
Then its not forgivable. By Shapnem
My views . Well , certain people have their own set of rights and wrongs . However , sometimes , there is an obvious dichotomy between them . It's like as though reality is slapped so hard on our faces . WHY , because we people believe that God created brain for every human being to enable him to do some decent thinking . But frivolous people who hold on tightly to ridiculous set of rights and wrongs do prove us otherwise . Perhaps , lets look at it from the bright side . If their existence is completely eliminated from the face of the earth , then who would we laugh at ? Where can we ever find people with screwed up moral values if not on earth ? . No wonder they call earth a "dirty place " .
Anyway , typical human beings believe in the notion known as " The grass is greener on the other side of the field " . Now this paves way for jealousy and insecurity to set in . People will change and they will do the unthinkable . Only those who have good values and virtues can somehow settle their insecurity problems , others on the other hand , would succumb to immoral temptations . Hmm .. maybe let's deal this case with a tinge of practicality . Wouldn't any thief be highly jubilant when he sees a wallet lying open on the ground with a few hundered bucks pointing out , sending him into a swirl of ecstasy-led happiness ? . Of course it would . The owner on the other hand can choose to safeguard his wallet in every possible way . But is it worthy ? . Well , you readers may claim that the owner is insane to forgo his cash . But hey ! . Can money buy over happiness ? . Can you use your money to wash off your sins ? . If money can do such stuff then why in the world are we praying to God ? . Money is only a fucking printed note that can be used to satisfy our material needs . So what happens to your other needs ? . So is the thief losing something in this process ? . Like I've said earlier , if you think of the bad , indulge yourself in doing the bad and have hope in the bad , then whatever you are attaining now is of momentary bliss . But the owner , what becomes of him ? . He can easily hunt out for the million fishes in the open ocean . Heavenly subjugations has it's benefits . Now can you see the promising returns ? .
Anyway , I have an arising need to clear something off . Incase people around is thinking likewise .
There's this unorthodox resemblance to me . Parallel reflections . Yes . Viewer's discretion is highly recommanded .
Anyways do scroll the video to 1:52 minutes and watch it from there . Yes . That's exactly how my knee snapped before . Poor Shaun Livingston . He was screaming in pain . He suffered from MCL , PCL , a dislocated patella and tibia-femoral joint . ME ? . I'm down with ACL . Trust me on this guys , the pain is just too intensed that you can simply feel it sucking the living daylights off your body . An uncalled for adrenaline I would say . That instantaneous rush that you feel that instant your knee snap can never be forgotten till you die . Yes . That's how fucking painful it can get . Nope . I'm not embarassed to say that I did scream my lungs out . I simply went blank when it happened . I thought that I lost my knee . Horrendous feeling .
ACL - the injury that I sustained from a snapped knee . If you can observe well enough , you can notice that ACL is a crucial ligament in your knee . If you are down with a ruptured ACL like me , you'll find it extremely hard to do twisting movements . Your knee will be highly unstable . You can literally feel it wobbling like a jelly . So how do I exactly combat this problem ? . I try to minimise on the number of twisting movements that I take in a game . But then again , it doesn't take a rocket scientist to find out that it's virtually impossible to do so . Now maybe that explains why I'm always down with injuries . Oh yes , if you are down with ACL-led injuries , you can't help it but limp .

ACL reconstruction . I can opt for the latter to solve my "wobbly knee problem" . Well , this is how my knee would look if I were to go for the operation of course . Well , I've planned to go for one after my A's . The (bright) reddish part is the grafted skin while the cut below the knee cap shows the exact spot in which the doctors would insert your hamstring tissues to reconstruct your ACL . Disgusting eh ? . Well , what to do . " No pain , no gain " . The only disheartening thing is , your knee can never go back to the 100% stage that it had been . You will still incur minor injuries . A ligament is always lost forever .
So what exactly keeps me going ? . Why am I still in sports ? . Why am I "intentionally" causing further harm to my knee ? . Or why am I "attracting attention as I limp / parade round the school ? " .
HE . My inspiration . Terry Fox . I have an injured knee while he doesn't have a LEG at all . So what sets me different from him ? . Why can't I achieve what he had ( still has ) . He is in my eyes , a Hero . A true Hero , who ran for a cause . A true Hero who believed in changing the world even when he was in a position close to being disabled .
Only a sportsman / sportswoman knows the significance of such thing . Mere human beings who , of course , know nuts about sports , injuries , human excellance speaks no more than shit . We , on the other side have to bear with their verbal diarrhoea . Oh heavenly-beings , save us .
Me as a player . Me as a person who yearns for human excellance . It's certainly a herculean task to reach that status . I , being a capricorn love challenges . Anyone who knows me would know that I set really high goals . Why do you think I have such high expectations ? . Firstly , it is to challenge myself . Ever heard of this -----> " We are our greatest enemy " . I need to unleash my true potential to beat myself . I need to grow out of my comfort zone to achieve . " When there's comfort , there's no growth " . I need to tune myself into someone who can expand beyond the horizons . I don't want to be labelled as an ordinary human being . I want to be an achiever .
My bestfriends , closefriends , friends , well-wishers , teachers and a list of others have expressed their anxiety and qualms over my decision to push myself beyond my limits . They have a genuine concern, so I don't blame them . But I've told them something . " If you don't want to encourage me , at least don't discourage me " . To be really frank with you'll , I'm very much proud of my friend - Vilasini . This year , I was about to run for the CAMPUS RUN 2007 . Vila came over and saw my number tag and went like " Oh shit . This is a bad number . As per numerology , you cannot run with this number " . She ran and spoke to the teacher to change my number tag . She came up with a different number . True enough , I ran with that number and got a medal despite my injury .
Attaining a medal isn't of paramount importance to me . I have a plethora of medals in my house - varying from Gold to Bronze . But I certainly believe in the significance of the insignificant . I don't want to be labelled as being "physically-incompetent " . I want to achieve things that I have achieved before and of course , even challenge my very own personal best timings . For instance , I used to run 2.4 KM at 10.28 back in secondary school . Even then , I used to challenge myself with the male runners ( I always emerge as the lead female runner ) to improve on my timings . I do better when I'm faced with challenges - Like a diamond - it gets real shiny when it is pressurised with intense heat . I want to be a polished diamond . Now , with my knee injury , my latest 2.4 timing was 11.05 . I hate this timing . I want to beat my personal best and even improve on it .
But let's look at the bright side now . I can still dance , act , run , play sports and a list of other things with this knee injury . But honestly , can any individual with a recurring injury like this achieve what I have achieved if he/she is not willing to put his/her knee on the line , achieve this if he/she is not willing to come out of that "highly protected cocoon" that has sheltered one for ages . C'mon , grow out of it . It's really easy to lash out at others . BUT , if one wants to lash out at others , one have to be at that level , only then would people listen and respect one . Right ? .
A conversation that I had with Hayl a few days back . It kinda explains what passion exactly is . The passion that drives me up . I'll be up against the world . I've got no qualms over it . I'm morally upright . Nothing to be embarassed about . At the end of the day , I'll be standing with my head high above all in the middle of the arena , with a smile at the corner of my mouth and with those determined eyes . I'm not afraid , I'll make the impossible ; possible .
hayl says:
passion is a soul. a red fire, not a blue one.
hayl says:
it burns
hayl says:
it needs fucking fuelling!
hayl says:
dim and unseen when dormant. fierce when soaked in kerosene
hayl says:
so fierce it burns your eyes and
hayl says:
if left unwatched
hayl says:
burns everything you have
hayl says:
till your left with nothing
hayl says:
and your tiny flame burns out
hayl says:
and then what
hayl says:
im digressing.
hayl says:
but thats what passion is
[ Vitz ] Simple Manipulation , intolerable addiction says:
if the passion is that strong , i don't think the tiny flame can burn out . It'll try its best to glow even brighter n stronger -- withstanding anything that may potentially smother its presence.
hayl says:
when there's nothing left to burn
hayl says:
it'll die
hayl says:
it just burns everything
hayl says:
passion, however motivating, must also be curbed
hayl says:
everything in moderation
hayl says:
the good, the bad
hayl says:
everything must be kept in its file
hayl says:
in its boundary.
[ Vitz ] Simple Manipulation , intolerable addiction says:
yes
[ Vitz ] Simple Manipulation , intolerable addiction says:
that's true
[ Vitz ] Simple Manipulation , intolerable addiction says:
every good comes with a bad thing too
[ Vitz ] Simple Manipulation , intolerable addiction says:
but at the end of the day , only passion has the power to drive one up. Really .
Anyways , Nebo floorball . I'm looking forward to it . 25th November 2007 . The team consist of Rury , Izzah , myself and Rose . Aka Rury , Izzy , Vitzy and Rozy . We'll meet you'll THERE .
My pursuit of human excellance will continue . My parents , the pillars of my support will be proud of me when I accomplish my very own goals . I am determined to fly . Mr Tan once said that we people are like the plane . We need good engines to ensure that we have a smooth flight . Yes . My engines of support are still standing strong , giving me the support I need . What else , all my bestfriends , closefriends , friends , well-wishers , relatives and everyone who knows me are all driving me to achieve my goals . My ultimate goal is to bring that glory to my parents . I will achieve this in due time . My parents behave like a friend to me . You guys wanna know how friendship runs in my family ? . My parents share their worries , complains , thoughts , things that brought them misery and so forth and so on . Yes . Apparently my parents are traditional people with a tinge of conventionalism . But neither do they nor I / my brother come from a dysfunctional family to have immoral stuff running in our house . Trust me on this guys . I am afterall bred from a traditional family . Whatever my parents taught me since young is of good virtues and nothing lesser than that . My parents know everything that happened to me and I mean everything . Once again , they inserted good virtues in me . So , without a shadow of a doubt , I can walk down anywhere with my head held high above anyone else . WHY ? - Because I am not from a dysfunctional family . My mom and dad have been faithful to each other for 21 years ( and still counting ) despite typical scuffles . As the eldest of the family , I am obliged to perform certain duties . I will continue to be a good daughter to them even if I am supposed to get hurt in the process . All these stuff can never be done for attention-seeking purpose . I don't have the need to seek attention for ill reasons like this . I have enough attention from people . I may be popular . I am NOT popular for being the ex-captain of the floorball team . I am made up of more substance than just that . In fact I didn't ask for this popularity . If I am popular than it is only because people have trust in me . Nothing much . Why ? . Because I am not from a dysfunctional family . Anyways , in a final note , I am not a wimp to sit back and relax as my parents become the subject of insults . Nobody have any rights to talk about my parents , not even God .
In a nutshell , dear readers , I am currently reading up on 2 people . Srinivasa Ramanujan and Steve Pavlina . I have something to say about them though . Great men whom we have to emulate to attain human excellance .
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