The unpredictability of the colour .

Monday, February 27, 2006

Blasting to : Mockingbird - Eminem

YeahI know sometimes things may not always make sense to you right now
But hey, what daddy always tell you?
Straighten up little soldier
Stiffen up that upper lip
What you crying about?
You got me

Holla back peeps . I am so depressed over the results . We got 3rd . I had to deal with the most intractable of emotions after the release of the results . But then again , my mate Raffi got the Best Actor award . Kudos to him . I really got to applaude Raffi for his courage to do his character in a very idiosyncratic style . I got mentioned by Mr Somu . He asked me to deliver my speech in a very patient manner . Well , as my mind refuses to accept his conclusion , I can't help it but feel intrigued by his ridiculous comment to remain composed when one's mom is supposed to deal with a divorce case . Perhaps a veteran knows much more better than a novice ?

Although we got 3rd , I can swear that we were the crowd's favourite . The only difference is the ranking on the trophies . One can argue well enough as there is a dichotomy between 1st , 2nd and 3rd position . No one can deny the fact . However , the audience's support gave the recognition for our hardwork . I can still vividly remember those ' strangers ' who came up to me to congratulate me and to ask me if the slap was real . -- And of course they were the others who maintained their intransigent position in terms of their views . Thumbs up to my MI crew and supporters . Love you'll .

Oh yes . How can I forget seeing that someone whom I terribly despise . Well that someone actually had the guts to buy his ticket through my junior . Someone who got so tempted to show off his cowardice when I specially called his mom to remonstrate against his ridiculous threats and behaviour . The funny thing is that , that someone actually had the cheek to pretend as though he had made his physique ramboesque enough to grab people's attention . Even Uma got disgusted with his imbecilic act . That someone actually passed my number to someone and luckily , that kind soul told me the truth . Man .. I've never despised any guy to that extent and he's the 1st one ! .

Btw , I got so happy when I saw my Raghu . It was nearly months since I last saw him and I was soo touched to know that he was there to watch me act ! My juniors were present too and others . A huge thanx to all my sweeties and sweethearts ! :P . A special thanx to my secondary school teacher - Mrs Silvi and my Mom .

Oh yes . A special dedication to a sweet , cute and gundu-tic Gurl -- Jaya .

Dear Jaya ,

I was certainly mesmerised by your acting gal . I'm not lying but rather stating the fact . You were sooo not into those dramas and all when you were in secondary school . In fact I didn't know that you had such a magnificent talent deeply concealed beneath your skin . Honestly I was rooting for you throughout the entire drama . You were truly breathtaking in ' Kannadi ' . I can't help it but applaude you for that entirely unique role that you were playing . I admire your guts and salute your acting . I can truly say this ; you really made Mrs Silvi proud of you . Cheers to you girl .

On a final note , I think i miss you terribly la girl . I didn't know that I could miss someone that much . But after that hug you gave me on the stairs , I can't help it but felt so comforted and secured . Secured because I had a feeling that our friendship was strong like before . Now , I really can't wait for our beach outing . I am counting days for March holidays . Hehe . God bless .

Last but not least , one should never judge a person by his/her looks . The PAE indian people are really nice if you get to know them . They are not that bad . In fact I am going to learn those magic tricks from Murale . He better teach me !

Oh man ... before I forget , I had such a wonderful time in school . Met Dibbo , Bridget and Gowri at the canteen . Was talking to Fareez about subject combination and etc . I really miss those monkeys la . This Bridget donkey is forcing me to organise our UNFINISHED hike . Haha . I must not disappoint her this time . :P . Bridget even fixed lotsa dates with me ... we gotta watch movies , study together and hang out like last year . Oh Bridget .. U rawk my socks laa !! Haha .. But I really cannot forget that Basketball incident .. HAHA ! Now , I've got to run and visit the gym with those boys + Bridget again .. Yipeeeeeeee

Adioz !

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7:25 pm
[c]d4rkang3l

Friday, February 24, 2006

Holla back peeps .

Puyal is tomorrow . A big show down for the Team MI . We were scheduled to be in SP today to have a dry run . Although the dry run didn't go well enough , I managed to catch Jaya ! Haha .
After our dry run , we got interviewed by 1 mediacorp fella . Got bombarded with lots of questions but we managed to stay cool and answer them .

Soon after , while checking out on our props , we managed to catch a quick glimpse at Team MJC . Woooo . A really have a tough competitor ! Mjc's discourse was widely varied ! . It really got me to think that they were well-versed in the art of rhetoric . Apart from that , their acting skills was breathtaking ! I cannot believe that those guys didn't mind doing a few sissy moves ! . Woooo ...

No matter what , we will still put in our hardwork and rock the stage ! . We are working very very hard and I really hope that tomorrow , our hardwork will be recognised and rewarded . To my dearest team mates , I LOVE YOU'LL .

James , Raffi , Priveen , Theba , Jasmine , Loshini , Karthik , Suriapriya , Priyalatha and that 1 more gal ( damn I forgot her name !! ) --- Guys , we'll do it ! We will DO IT !

Well just a little update of me : My ligaments got twisted again :(

Oh man . With puyal being 4 days away , my ligaments got twisted . It was quite depressing to be frank . After 4 months of ' light ' sports , I was looking onto the bright side -- to the path of full recovery . I really thought that I was recovered .

On Tuesday , I was playing soccer with my mates . I was quite myself when I was playing soccer on that day . Well I used to have this phobia of playing soccer after sustaining my 1st knee injury . Well the phobia was slowly diminishing when this happened . I scored a goal from a one- touch pass from Lavanya . At the end of the match , Lavanya asked me to take 1 last free kick . My free kick got blocked by Lav and I was going for the rebound . I was running fast to get the rebound when I heard my knee snap ! Da-da .. I went down to the ground with pain screwed up on my face . The OM and 1 teacher brought me to Clementi Polyclinic ..

I instantly sent my Besties and my Floorball mates the news . They got freaked out . I really got upset when Rury sent me this msg " Vitz , Plz recover soon . I don't wanna be playing A Div without U " . I am certain now that I have to go for an operation . It will take about 8 months to recover . Haiz ... What am I going to do ?

Izzah and Jabs couldn't believe when I told them that I was injured . Izzah is now my personal advisor . Haha . She underwent the same knee operation and I'm still contemplating to go or not . But if it's going to take 8 months for me to recover , I will do it after A Div .
I really want to play with my sweethearts -- Rury , Di , Atik , Ama , khai , Hid , Surin , etc and those guys ... :( . I miss floorball !

Before I hit the sack , I just want to comment on something . There's this demented bitch who finds it hard to keep her hands off her keyboard to bitch about me . Honestly , she is extremely pathetic and naive ! . I cannot believe that any shithead would be so STUPID enough to waste her money to mock at people ! Haha . The most horrible thing she ever can conjure up was to think that her dissings can affect me . Well , I really cannot fathom how she can come up to the conclusion that her diss during my performance tomorrow can outbalance the 1360 people ! Good luck gal . Do u need a microphone to help you out .. ? HAHA .

HAHA . Well I am certainly going to perform for my Family , Cousins , BestFriends , my supporters and others .. oh did I mention , My beloved teacher is coming down to support James , Jaya ( TPJC ) and me .

I managed to sell 36 tickets -- and raised $360 . I still have many more on the reservation list . Oh man ... I even head that Lalitha is bringing her " paadai " ( big group ) from YJC . Haiz . I really want to see Jaya act sia ... oh man ...

ok ... before logging off ... I found this really suitable for someone ..

This is taken from the movie : Harry Potter and the Prisoner of Askaban . The scene between Harry Potter and Professor Snape .

" and request that he keep his abnormally large nose out of other people's business "

I do hope that it rings a bell ...... or if she's too stupid enough to comprehend .. then it's too bad . God bless .

You got coloured @
11:05 pm
[c]d4rkang3l

Tuesday, February 14, 2006

I'll take this opportunity to wish all my readers a Happy Valentine's Day . Treasure your loved ones .

Went to meet Uma and Jaya . We were hanging around cineleisure and decided to treat our taste buds . We ate at Pastamania . Wooo I simply love Pastamania . Today , I decided to pluck up the courage to try something different . Marinara being my favourite took a backseat as I took the risk and tried Vongole . Wow ! Vongole wasn't bad at all !! I am simply savouring every single seconds of my meal . It was such a bliss ...

We went to Esplanade . It looked like it was a big mistake . Haha . We saw a lot of couples .. ( awww .. so sweet ) . Sat by the shade and talked about relationship . We were talking about our secondary school eye candy and crushes ... Uma declared that she missed James . Hmmm ...

Coming to think of it , I think I do miss HIM a lot . He is happily settled in JJC and is quite popular too . He is my Mr Perfect though . But like what I've always said , each and every individual has the right to make his / her own choice . His choice was not to get into a commitment and to focus 100% on his A levels . All the best Curry . But I really do miss you . The last time I saw you was the day we were going to collect our results .....

Oh yes . I apologise for the melancholic mood that I am in . Hehe . It does happen . Coming back to something that is bothering me for some time , PUYAL DRAMA .

I am soo scared . I got my external friends telling me how they think TPJC might win . I am just soo upset . I really want my school to win . It was my dream to bring the team to the finals and I was so proud that my lovely team mates helped me to realise my dream . In fact I think they did a wonderful job .

I don't exactly know how to articulate my feelings now . I am so damn scared . It's like I'm having a zillion butterfiles in my stomach . I've got all my friends , teachers and my family to support me ... I just don't want to disappoint them . I want MI to get the trophy . Kumari just told me that she thinks we can DO it . But ... not that I have lost faith in my team .. I am so over burdened with the hype over TPJC .

MI should create a classic record ! I want the whole only-jcs-got-the-potential trend to break !! It's a good chance to showcase the talents in our school . WE MUST DO IT . I really hate it when JCs look down on us . It's true that we hail from MI , it's not that our morale's boosted or tanished but the best that YOU can do is , is not to criticise and label us ! . In fact I believe every millennian is much much more talented than many people out there ! It's just that we are not given an opportunity to showcase our TRUE talent .

I do pray to Lord that He bestow us with the strength to live each day
with faith and hope . I pray that we will be very committed and I pray that We will reap
the fruits of our labour . This I pray in the name of Jesus . Please Lord . Please help us .

To the Gal , I've enough of all your bitching girl . I am sooo sick of it . In fact I seriously wonder If I should even bother about the crap that you pull . Btw , I am occupied with other stuff . So yeah .. heck it . Tc

Now you've got a face to pain
And the devil's got a fresh new place to play
In your brain like a maze you can never escape the rain
Every damn day is the same shade of grey

You got coloured @
9:51 pm
[c]d4rkang3l

Monday, February 13, 2006

Floorball is life . Omg , I am seriously missing floorball . It's been such a long time since I went for floorball training . I miss my cutie pies , that oh-so-vain Bao Heng , Iliyasa and the juniors .

Oh yes . A bit of an interesting news , Iliyasa have settled a date for a pool challenge ! Woo .. I miss pool too . Was suppose to meet Iliyasa and Fatah but cancelled it as things took a sudden change . Hehe . I even missed Uma's dad's treat . Anyways thanx for inviting us uncle :D .

Haiz . Didn't go to school again . They were going to the zoo today . I am just so tired to make it to school nowadays . But rather , by staying at home , I am savouring good food and a great hellava time .

Hmm . Watched the Torino Winter Olympics ( LIVE ) . Wow !! . Caught Luge Finals : Men's Singles . Italian Armin Zoeggeler won the gold medal . He successfully defended his title in the men's singles . Kudos to him . But rather , I am very proud of the bronze winner Lativa's Rubenis Martins . He beat USA's Benshoof Tony . Martins clocked in at 3:26.445 to secure the third place . It is the 1st time in Latvia's history that they've managed to get a loose medal in the winter games . Man !! Martins down in the history books of Latvia ! Every Latvians gonna speak of him . The man of the country . It's not easy to create record and so , I whole heartedly congratulate Martins <---- He's the man !! .

Oh yes . Another person to comment on in the Luge tournament -- Shiva Keshavan . Yes . He's an Indian . In fact the only Indian to participate in the winter games . I am so proud of him . He's opening words were " I hope more Indians will eventually come forward to take part in winter games " . Btw , He is very good looking :) .

Oh yes . How can I forget ? 19 year old Ireen Wust of Holland winning the gold medal for the women's 3000m speed skating !! . She is the junior world champion and not many people saw her as a threat to their medals nor the whole competition . Claudia Pechstein was the crowd's favourite and many thought that she could easily defend the title . She won gold in 2002 at Salt Lake . But this time , maybe luck was not with her cos she slipped to the 5th position with a timing of 4:05 . 54 . Ireen Wust's unbeatable time was 4:02 . 43 ! Go Wust !!

Last but not least , I also caught the Cross-country skiing - Women's Pursuit . Oh man . This sport is totally wicked ! Honestly , it can tired anyone out ! I've never seen any sport that can drain a competitors energy like this one ! The only vigourous sport that comes close to the latter might be rowing ! . Wooo .. The freestyle method for the cross country skiing is easy but the classic one is damn tough !!! Kristina Smigun of Estonia beat Katerina Neumannova of Czech Republic to win the gold medal . The sad truth was , Katerina Neumannova was leading the race but suddenly towards the last few metres , Kristina Smigun skied extremely fast ( more like as though she was possessed ) and won her by 2 seconds . It was the fighting spirit and the ultimate desire to grap the gold medal that drove Kristina Smigun to edge out her rival . Oh man !! Sports bring us eternal glory !! .. Sports forever !

Nothing hurts my world,
just affects the ones around me
When sin's deep in my blood,
you'll be the one to fall.

- Unholy confessions by Avenged Sevenfold

Some fucked up and demented bitch expressed her ridiculous comments . Like as though I'm so bothered about the shit she pulls and all . Haha !!

I knew she had a knack for troubles and simply loved to stick her face and soul into other people's problems . I seriously wonder why would anyone in the world would want to be soo nosey ! . Maybe an incurable disease . There's a difference in supporting a friend and being nosey but I seriously believe that she doesn't know the dichotomy between the latter and the former ! . Oh man ! .. ( so sad ) .

She have penned down her perspective of me in her blog . Her stupid nature can only go that far . It's a pity when people who really need to consider a change in their attitude talking about other people's attitude .

She constantly kept bickering to " get a life " . Hey asshole , did you ever thought about the shitty fuck that you're doing ? . Maybe You should get a LIFE first . Thanx for the advise again ! I didn't know people can be soo concerned for me . Haha .

The worse thing that that demented soul could utter was " I will not stoop as low to insult other people " . HAHA .. I am trying to consider if that statement is reliable .... ( perhaps she was unsound when she blogged ) . Hey gal let me tell you this : You fuck off first . Or maybe go and fuck those big & wild dogs upside down .

Shithead , you asked me to let the game begin ? . Oh well ( points middle finger ) , let's get it on .
Let's play baby ! I'm excited . How about you ?

So when you see me on your block with two glocks
Screamin _Fuck the World_ like Tupac
I just don't give a fuuuuuck!!
Talkin that shit behind my back, dirty mackin
tellin your girls that I'm on crack
I just don't give a fuuuuuck!!
So put my tape back on the rack
Go run and tell your friends my shit is wack
I just don't give a fuuuuuck!!
But see me on the street and duck
Cause you gon' get stuck, stoned, and snuffed
Cause I just don't give a fuuuuuck!!

You got coloured @
12:36 pm
[c]d4rkang3l

Sunday, February 12, 2006

Inspirations .

It's my life
It's now or never
I ain't gonna live forever
I just want to live while I'm alive
(It's my life)
My heart is like an open highway
Like Frankie said
I did it my way
I just wanna live while I'm alive
It's my life

This is for the ones who stood their ground
For Tommy and Gina who never backed down
Tomorrow's getting harder make no mistake
Luck ain't even lucky
Got to make your own breaks

This entry is dedicated to the wounded souls . Souls that need the drive to react .

A small story adapted from one of my role model's life -- Mahatma Gandhi . Peeps , take time to read and reflect .

GENEROSITY

Mahatma Gandhi went from city to city, village to village collecting funds for the Charkha Sangh. During one of his tours he addressed a meeting in Orissa.

After his speech a poor old woman got up. She was bent with age, her hair was grey and her clothes were in tatters.

The volunteers tried to stop her, but she fought her way to the place where Gandhiji was sitting. "I must see him," she insisted and going up to Gandhiji touched his feet.

Then from the folds of her sari she brought out a copper coin and placed it at his feet. Gandhiji picked up the copper coin and put it away carefully. The Charkha Sangh funds were under the charge of Jamnalal Bajaj. He asked Gandhiji for the coin but Gandhiji refused.

"I keep cheques worth thousands of rupees for the Charkha Sangh," Jamnalal Bajaj said laughingly "yet you won't trust me with a copper coin."

"This copper coin is worth much more than those thousands," Gandhiji said. "If a man has several lakhs and he gives away a thousand or two, it doesn't mean much.

But this coin was perhaps all that the poor woman possessed. She gave me all she had. That was very generous of her. What a great sacrifice she made. That is why I value this copper coin more than a crore of rupees " .

A few more food for thought .

(1) Many times in our lives, we are dropped, crumpled, and ground into the dirt by the decisions we make and the circumstances that come our way.

We feel as though we are worthless. But no matter what has happened or what will happen, you will never lose your value.

You are special - Don't ever forget it!

(2) Sometimes struggles are exactly what we need in our lives. If God allowed us to go through our lives without any obstacles, it would cripple us.

We would not be as strong as what we could have been. We could never fly!

I asked for Strength.........
And God gave me Difficulties to make me strong.

I asked for Wisdom.........
And God gave me Problems to solve.

I asked for Prosperity.........
And God gave me Brain and Brawn to work.

I asked for Courage.........
And God gave me Danger to overcome.

I asked for Love.........
And God gave me Troubled people to help.

I asked for Favors.........
And God gave me Opportunities.

I received nothing I wanted ........
I received everything I needed!

(3) This one is taken from K3G .

If you want to be someone in life ,
If you want to achieve something ,
If you want to win ,

Always listen to your heart
And if even that doesn't give you any answers
Close your eyes & think of your parents

And then you will cross all the hurdles
All your problems will vanish ....
Victory will be yours . Only yours .

This is it . Dwell into spirtuality and savour the gifts that God give you . Life is all about finding the purpose of your existence . Find it and resolve to fulfil it . Life is more beautiful when you know the meaning of value , spirtuality , philosophy and love .

Thank you for reading this through .

You got coloured @
6:28 pm
[c]d4rkang3l

Saturday, February 11, 2006

Holla peeps .

I've got many important things up in my agenda that the subject of nonsensical rubbish will take the back seat .

Yesterday marked the release of O levels result . For 3/4 of the people , it was a recognition for their hard work and sadly to the others , it was a period of realisation . But no matter what happened , one should keep his/her options open and explore the other avenues . It will not be good to jump into a decision and regret it in the future .
Like I've said , " you reap what you sow " . So it's pointless to cry over results as we are not bestowed upon the power of turning back time .

Before I made my way to my ex secondary school , I made plans to slack at home with Anakin . He came over to watch Red Eye . Since he had a special ' feeling ' toward my home theatre system , he felt so much obliged to come over . Suddenly he had a brilliant idea --- to cook ! . Can you believe it ?! . We went to NTUC and bought a few stuff and cooked .
Indonesian Fried Rice , Grilled Salmon and Raw Cockles with Lemon . It was a moment of absolute bliss . The taste was soo divine ! Wooo ..

Met up with Jaya , Melveen , Silas and He shun at Gombak . Made our way to school . Met Vethiya and Bunny there . The instance our eyes met , we realised the value of each other . There was lots of hugs , kisses , tears and above it all : True Friendship .

I was dwelling in a myriad of rollercoaster emotions . I felt happy when I realised that my school did very well again thus regaining the rank ! . Soon , my joy was quite short-lived . I was quite upset when I saw the dip in the number of distinctions for the Sec 5 category . Soon , Ms Tay was dragging her speech . Meanwhile , I suddenly felt a hard pat on my shoulder . I was too shocked and at once , anger filled my eyes . Red hot hammers were working inside my head that I was so ready to reply to the pat by slapping the unknown person .

But to my shock , it was my tamil teacher Mrs Silvi . Omg . Her eyes were filled with tears and she had a big smile plastered onto her face . I felt so emotional . At that moment , i realised how much she meant to me . How much I actually loved her .... I never once told her that I loved her .
Silas told me that when he and jaya were conversing with her , she kept giving constant eye contact to me ( I was busy looking at the results ) . She even told Silas that she missed me a lot . My juniors once told me that she told the whole tamil class that I was her favourite student and that she liked me the most . Yesterday , she told me that !! and she added on saying " Your batch was the best one in my teaching career !! " . Man , I never once felt that a teacher can love someone like that ! .

The best thing is , she is coming to the PUYAL show with her children to support Me , James and Jaya . When I invited her for it , this was what she said " How can I NOT come and watch my children act ? " . Mrs Silvi .. I love u !

Then Uma got her results and she burst out crying . I was so shocked . He shun's face changed ! Silas , Jaya and Melveen started to share nervous glances to each other . I did not say anything to Uma . I went up to her and gave her a warm hug to assure her that I was there for her . We went out of school to discuss about the future . Uma was more like a walking corpse . Her face lost it's colour . There wasn't a single trace of bubbliness ! . She looked as though she was prepared to face some kinda impending doom ! . Soon , I started to laugh out loud ! . WHY ?! Cos she didn't even look at her result and presumed that she didn't do well ! OMG ! . She did well enough to qualify for a plethora of poly courses . Haha . So it was celebrations after that .

We went to Mac to makan and Navya joined us . Soon we set off to Uma's crib to slack . We ended up playing with Bella and doing our trademark ' fun ' disturbance . Haha . I shall not reveal it cos it's strictly restricted to the Screaming Heads . I'm sorry . But then I can safely say that I adore Navya . Haha . That poor girl just returned from India and had a strange Indian accent . It was soo hilarious and all . We ended up correcting her accent . She looked sooo adorable when she said these words " Dei macha " HAHA !! OMG !!

Ohh .. I forgot to add this just now . I saw adorable S in school . He looked soo cute when he was anxious . Haha . Although I was disappointed that his name wasn't in the Top Student's list , I still managed to conceal it and approached him to know his results . He got 10 points and has decided to go to ACJC . Hmmm ......

Suicide commando that your momma talked about
Queen of the forty theives
And I'm here to represent
That needle in the vein of the establishment
I'm the patron saint of the denial
With an angel face and a taste for suicidal

ARE YOU TALKING TO ME?

I'll give you something to cry about

Hello . I would gladly say out that I don't think I need to apologise to anyone . Yes . That's my final verdict . The only person to whom I rightly think I should apologise will be those teachers concerned .
Honestly , it is just so ridiculous . I seriously think that everyone has the right to come up with his/her own perspection . I don't think I need to put myself at the mercy of people . Why should I ? Even if stuffs are published for the whole world to read and there are constant bad mouthing on my tagboard , I seriously think that it will still be the least of my concerns . I got a whole deal of things to care for .
I can actually say this out with great honour . My best friends will stick with me no matter what . I've been through some shit last year ( only my best frens know what ) and I was so happy that they were there for me . The thing that happened is much much more horrible than going for detentions and jail . So if they can stick with me thoroughout that , they can still do that under any circumstances . This is solely because we were formed not because of character or etc but just according to the rules of True Friendship .
Thanx for the advice too . I admit that I am hot tempered and have a good command of the vulagrities . But like I said before , I don't think I should change it . It does help me most of the times . So thanx again .

On a final note ........

I READ THE GRAFFITI IN THE BATHROOM STALL
LIKE THE HOLY SCRIPTURES OF A SHOPPING MALL
AND SO IT SEEMED TO CONFESS IT DIDN'T SAY MUCH
BUT IT ONLY CONFIRMED THAT
THE CENTER OF THE EARTH IS THE END OF THE WORLD
AND I COULD REALLY CARE LESS

Let the GAME begin .....................................................................................................

You got coloured @
7:21 pm
[c]d4rkang3l

Thursday, February 09, 2006

Top picture : Me and my ditchy RenU

Bottom picture : Inter Milan's Marco Materazzi

Oh yes . What a gory head start ? . Nah it's all for a purpose .

Sports is life . Sports is the glory . A glory that will never be compromised for anything else in the world . However , even though many see the brighter side of sports , there is always the sword of Damocles hanging over the heads of all sportsmen . This is an undeniable truth . In fact serious injuries can put an end to the career of many sportsmen .

So what exactly drives an individual to play all kinds of sports despite the high chances of getting badly injured ? PASSION !
If you are god damn passionate about winning , you will not give a shit to injuries . Even if someone throw down the gauntlet , nothing in this world can ( even your injuries ) stop you from accepting it . Yes . I believe in passion . People like Steven Gerrard ( my Stevie G ) and Frank Lampard show that kind of passion when they are playing soccer . Soccer is their raison d' etre .

In my case , passion drove me to the road of recovery . I did initially thought that the knee injury I got last july would put a fullstop to my sports life . In fact I was always depressed and suffered from low self esteem .
I got my Anterior Cruciate Ligament Injured in july . I am certainly not 100% fit nor recovered yet .

To those who don't understand what an Anterior Cruciate Ligament Injury is .
-- The ligament is injured through twisting the knee or through an impact to the side of the knee ( often the outside ) .
It was the most painful period in my life . I was often in excruciating pain that I needed pain killers to help me . I seriously thought that I will never recover . That's when I heard that someone from my school also went through similar knee injury before . Soon , I got to know Saha . He told me that it is possible to recover . He taught me how to physio .

Every day after school , Fareez , Adib , Amirul and I would go to the school gym to work out . When I grew a little confident , I decided to go for a 2.4 km run . I succeeded . I didn't stop at any one point . Even when there was sharp pain in my knee , I resumed running . Fareez thought that I was over stressing my knee . But I seriously wanted to boost my morale . I was so overjoyed when I finished the run ( without stopping ) .
Now , I am playing all kinds of sports . Even though I am afraid of causing injury to my knee , I am still driven to play sports . All because of PASSION .

The sad truth in the whole issue is , my knee is not fully recovered . I know that it is weak . I can feel it moving out of place whenever I over-stretch it . That's when I got to know this :- An old ligament injury can often cause problems by reoccurring. After resting the injury might have settled down only for it to return when you go back to sport .

So I am still depending on the RICE treatment .(Rest Ice Compression Elevation ) . I just pray that I will not get another injury . Even if I do ,

Hold on if you feel like letting go
Hold on it gets better than you know

Oh yes people . I want to share with you something that I find quite interesting .
Before that , I would start it off by asking a question . How would U define guts ? . Many will come up with some brainstorming or mind mapping concepts to answer my question . Even many will give me a whole list of definition for guts .

Once this question was asked in the GCE A levels examination . At that time ( quite long ago ) , there was not a rule that you have to write a specific number of words . In fact there was no requirement for the number of words . My friend told me that someone got A1 for his GP with writing only 3 words . I was so shocked ! As in , I really wondered how in the hell did those 3 words he wrote actually articulated the idea of guts !

Q : How would you define guts ?

He wrote this in his paper -------> " THIS IS GUTS " .

Haha . I really admire his guts ! He was really brave enough to write like that in a national examination . He would certainly have slogged day and night to prepare a good essay for his A levels and eventually impressed the examiners with his own GUTS .

Wow ! The message that I am trying to bring to my readers is that , we should not conform . We should get out of the box and set our own ideas . We should not restrict ourselves to conformity . Conformity underestimates and rids an individual of his creativity . It does strip him of his own individualism . Great inventors , scientist and famous people did not conform . They tried to break away from social norms . Thus they stood out and became the subject of the whole world .

" Minds are like parachute . They work greatest when they are open " .

Open up your mind . If you do , you'll see amazing things happening to yourself . Be a thinker . Never let your self respect be at the mercy of others . For you are not a ball for people to kick you about but rather a genius in making .
" There's a genius in all of us " .

Before I leave ,

That saluage nature seemed not to haue ,
Nor after greedie spoyle of blood to craue :
Two fairer beasts might not elsewhere be found ,
Although the compast world were sought around .

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Wednesday, February 08, 2006

People please don't freak out . I am damn annoyed with this stupid Asian cockroach ( Blattella asahinai ) . Well I've got phobia of cockroaches and I'm like having close encounters with them at this recent times . Oh man . I hope they will face extinction soon . I really hate cockroaches .

Oh well , I would like to take this opportunity to thanx my besties Anakin and Uma aka Ms Spooky for standing by me . I can't wait for the chance to meet up with my Screaming Heads . In fact I really miss them . The last time that we met up , we ended up playing blind mice at a play ground . Talk about deprived childhood and we'll be pointed to as the perfect examples * chuckles * .

I found out something that might interest my Screaming Heads . Well , I am not known for skipping school . But now , I am embracing the happiness that comes with skipping school or rather in Singaporean language : Pon-ing school . Haha . I pon-ed school during chinese new year . Had a satisfying breakfast and had hot milk tea to go along with it . Wow .. coolio ! . I love tea with lots of milk . Omg the taste is totally divine . I should thank Anakin for this . In fact he introduced it to me . I thought that only hot chocolate brought me to the state of experiencing extreme pleasure but I was soo wrong . Milk tea ( especially those found in coffee shops ) have the same divine taste ! . I like lipton tea the best ... hmmmm

I am planning to pon school on friday . Although I made plans with Jay to meet Uma in school , I think I wanna pon school . I might most probably end up in some Mac with Silas to eat breakfast and study . After which we decided to meet Jay and go to school . I truly think I need to be by Uma's side . She and He shun were there when Silas , Naresh , Rani and I were collecting our results . Man . I really love my Screaming Heads . I miss those times when we spend each and every single day practising the drama . We got close during that time and formed Screaming Heads . I was so happy to introduce Indian food to He Shun and etc . Soon we marked 26th Dec ( boxing day ) as ' our ' day to celebrate . I miss them like crazy ! . Oh yes , My cousin would also be collecting his results . But his path is set . He'll be going on an internship with the US Army . He got a scholarship to do that and would most probably end up studying in the US College . WOW .

To my besties , cousin and frens ----> My best wishes to you . Be strong and hope for the best for your O levels . Please make a wise decision . May God give you the strength to withstand any misfortune should it occur . But at a superficial view , I pray to God that he'll bless you and give you your desired results .

Coming to think about it . My school principal Mr Tan is so unique . As in , he is certainly a rationalist and he has his own set of code . He is a man of principles . I was quite amazed with his speech today . He had a very practical approach to hardwork . Well , he defined it as " You reap what you sow " . His speech was not those normal draggy ones but more like confident and succinct . In fact I observed that he could multi-task . I was quite astonished to be frank . He was addressing us and was trying to find for a piece of paper in his breast pocket all at once . I heard that it was hard for a brain to focus on 2 things at the same time . He did not slur in his speech . I do wonder if the purpose of the speech was to propitiate the anxious-filled students or to make them understand the value of an A levels education . But it was certainly essential to address the subject given that the results will be out this fri .

Coming to a more important topic . I was kind of inspired by 2 people today . There are Mdm Shymala and Karthik .

Mdm Shymala told the class that she was a retainee . She retained when she didn't do well for A levels . Soon i asked her a few questions and she gave me answers that were very practical . She told me that she wasn't bothered about people when she retained . She was concerned with her own grades rather than on people , although they did ' abused ' her . The best thing is , she didn't consider retaining a shame .

Karthik told me that he was in express when he was sec 1 and gradually kind of dropped out of school after his N levels . Soon he started to ask questions to himself . Soon he worked his way up . He topped his diploma class and is soon going to go to Monash University after his NS .

These people , being just like normal people from anyone's point of view have truly inspired me . I was soon starting to have low self-esteem when I was looking back at things but now , I do realise how stupid I was . We should love ourselves first before loving someone or something else . If we label ourselves , the whole world will label you and mock at you . It's values that brings us to greater altitudes . Values here do coincide with attitude too . Hardwork will always gain it's recognition . Like what Mahatma Gandi said in the past , " Full work = Full victory " .
However , the biggest challenge comes when we start to slip . Slip when we doubt our abilities . There's one truth in a saying said in a hindi movie once ( K3G ) . " when you think you cannot achieve something , when you are not confident or when your path is shrouded with obstacles , don't lose hope . Things will get alright . But if you are still afraid , close your eyes and think about your parents and victory will be yours " . I do wonder how true this is . It's parents who we should trust and all . Thinking about my parents , slogging day and night to provide me with an education should've motivated me to study even harder . But I underestimated the power of love --- love that my parents showered onto me . I have no one to prove my ability to . But I want the happiness and pride to be back onto my parent's face . I do really want .
Mom and Dad , I am sorry to have caused you so much of misfortune . Please don't forgive me . I don't deserve to be forgiven .

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Sunday, February 05, 2006

A few pictures to start off . I like the last picture the most . The reason being , a recapitulation of my past .

First things first , I apologise for not updating . I am rather busy with my Inter JC Puyal Drama and other stuff .

To my dearest buddy Bridget , I apologise for not turning up for the Chingay Parade . Man . I was so tried that I just dosed off instantly upon laying on the bed . Man . I felt like as though Stone Cold Steve Austin gave me a stone cold stunner --- a total K O .

School was just fine . With the same amount of homeworks , boring lectures and irritating teachers . Man . School's a bore .

Today , I got reminded that valentine's day was around the corner . My fellow classmates started to send out ' anonymous ' love letters to their secret admirers during one of those boring lecture . Soon , the level of sending sincere love letters was elevated to some sort exchange of stalkers . Arghh , I apologise for the vague description .
Stalkers soon took advantage of the situation and started sending out sexy , scary and horny letters to people .

One of my friends got a letter with the opening sentence that goes like " You are as hot as my grandpa " . Hilarious ! . Although he remained skeptical about the whole issue , he gave a nice reply : which goes like " Meet me at the pond and I'll give you the performance of your lifetime "
Sickos !! .

Since valentine's day is around the corner , i'll like to share something with my fellow readers . I got this from a christian magazine that Vera showed me to read .

" Young woman of Jerusalem ,

I charge you :
Do not awaken love until the appropriate time "

Songs of songs 8:4 .

Well it definitely gives us ( especially the woman ) a very rational explanation on relationships and love . Although the word ' love ' has a very subtle meaning of towards emotions , I refer to it as the foundation of lust . Maybe I am wrong . I don't know . It's very rare to see true love in this generation . You can see teenagers changing their partners like changing underwear . It's like as though there's a salacious connotation attached to the word . I know of a few guys who say that love is an emotion due to changes in hormones . Haha .

I prefer to see love as something that is sacred and pure . Something that can last an eternity . Such love is only found in parents . They care for you the most in this world . You can safely bank your hopes onto your parents and I assure you that you will not encounter heart breaks . It's becoming useless to go into a relationship that might not last long . I know that some might voice out that going into a relationship makes one matured . I say it's utter bullshit .

How often do we envy ' cute couples ' and etc ? . The sad truth is , most of the couples normally break up . It's like , you pretend like you are so much into love and after a few months or years , break up with your partner saying " we have different idealogies ". It was probably lust that glued the latter into the relationship .

But I will certainly not speak of the bad ones who disgrace the true underlying meaning of love . I really respect those who have strong bond via love and marriage . I seriously do respect those courageous and sincere people who go for handicap partners . This is what I call true love .

True love is perhaps truly defined as the bonding of 2 imperfect people .

Coming back to something important , I would gladly announce that my school has got into the finals in the Inter JC Puyal ( drama ) competition . It is the 1st time in the history of MI or JI for it's drama team to enter the finals .
I would like to thank the following people : -

Kumari , Loshini , James , Rafi , Jasmine , Theba and Priveen . Special thanks Karthik . I was so happy when i got the news . Now , We are aiming for something else . :)
I really do call all those peeps outta there to give us support . Tickets are at $10 . Venue : SP . Date : 25th of Feb .

PS : Today I got screwed up by Ms _____ . Some ass wrote stupid stuff about her somewhere . Just because I was laughing at the comments , some motherfucker deduced that I wrote those shit . So I got screwed by her la . Man ! What a sickening way to start school ?

To all those who are going to collect your O levels results on 10th of Feb at 2.30pm : I got 2 words for you . Good Luck .

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