It was a very sad day for me ( or maybe it still is ) . My fate is sealed . I am going to retain
Pre U 1 . I am going to take a whole new syllabus ( H1 and H2 ) . I was left out in the dark with this stab of guilt in my chest . All i ever wanted was the 2 marks to get to Pre U 2 . Well , lesson learnt is .. mid year exams are really important as they carry 20% , which will make a big difference in your promotional grades . I was standing at 1 A and 2 AO passes in my promotional papers only to be met by my mid year grades which pulled my grades to 1 A and 1 AO .
As the saying goes " No use crying over spilt milk " , I have to be strong . I need to find the drive to work hard next year . It's going to be a very challenging year for me as I have to compete with H1H2 syllabus . I have accepted my fate .

I want to say it out here that I will really miss 05A3 . You guys are precious to me ( each and everyone of you all ) . We begin to grow close to one another . I will never forget our KAP breakfast , mugging time slots , your encouragements when I was dancing and most importantly YOUR LOVE . Love you all . I will truly miss the BEST class !

To The following people :

Adib Osman aka Dibbo ( Posterboy )
Hey drummer , I'll miss you . I'll miss ... your corny jokes , our trip together to Bartley campus and lots more . We grew close together .. from study groups to our showtime @ Clementi . Miss you lots . Congrats for getting A for Geography and A2 for GP :) . All the best for your future dude . Oh yeah , I wanted to say this a long time ago .... CONGRATS for getting the " freedom " to ride a bike .. Don't forget your promise to give Vitz a ride OK !!! I'll miss you man ..

Ignatious Cha aka Iggy
My AMT bud , my OG pal .. I will miss you . I can never find someone as motivated , as driven , as funny , as loud , as cute and as 'piggy' as you ARE anywhere . Your outgoing nature brought the class together and your willingness to work hard made each and everyone of us to go on a mugging spree . You were always there for me when I was down . Thanx a million dude . May god bless you . Oh yeah , I am happy with the decision that you've made ( not leaving 05A3 for CJC ) . All the best in year 2 . Make sure you get EE for presentation ok ... and make sure you get Best Speaker in all the debates . ( Congrats for getting A for geo and You must get A for A CL too ok !!! )

Amirul Asri
Wah A MT sia !!! All the best kawan . My dikir barat hommie .. I will never forget you . The cheery , bubbly and self-proclaimed Aaron Aziz . Haha . Miss you dude . From our badminton , basketball and that problem thingy ( cityhall ) .. we grew closer ... I'll miss u too dude !! :)

Alton aka Windy
Wah .. silent observer ... Thanx for that wonderful talk on 27 Oct . Man . You possess lotsa hidden stuff ... Trust me , If i were still with you , I can unlock everything :p . Thanx Alton .. I will miss you too :) . All the best for year 2 . You can do it man !

Suliana
Phoenix Cheerleader and my dancer instructor for ACES day . Gal ... keep on rawking . Congrats for getting A for management . Don't stress out easily ok . All the best for year 2

Sharida
The quiet yet hardworking gal , all the best for year 2 . I'll miss your laughter !!

Farhana
Your accent was soo weird that I was laughing at it for about 2 months . Farhanarising ... ! I'll never forget this term . The naive gal , I'll miss your cute laments and your accent . Isabella .. I enjoyed the mini-Lucio-Isabella skit we put up for our literature project . I'll miss you gal :) . All the best for your future .

Hui Jun
I will miss you too . Our floorball days and etc ... Keep rawking No 31 !!

Vic and Gang ( Andrea , Jia Lin , Sam , Grace & Bobbie )
Yo guys , I'll miss you all too . With those lovely notes that you guys too and those honeystars ,... Man I'll miss you'll alot !!
Bobbie ... all the best when you join 05A4 ... :)

Shiva aka SIVASHANKERI / SHIVALLEY ... hehehe
Yo Shiva , I'll miss you too ... Hey Baleh !! . All the best for year 2 dear . Don't give up on your studies and LOVE :P too ok !! Go for it ... you can win both ! Hmmm about time you accept your New classmates ;) . I'll miss you alot too ..

Gowri aka Wombat !!!
Dei . Thanx alot . For comforting me & for being there . I'll miss you alot dei . Seriously !! Sweet and wonderful girl , go and learn malayalam laa ... Hehehe !! Dei thanx for EVERYTHING .. I mean it !!! I will miss your company !!

Mal ( penguin )
Hey gal ... the unique character in 05A3 , Study hard for next year . I will miss you alot !!!

Hanafy
The class rep .. . I will miss you dude . The guy who is soo responsible !! Dude ... I will Really miss you . All the best for year 2 . Score A for economics ok !! I must try to multi-task like you !!

Now ... Bridget Tan Zy ..
My dearest sweetheart . I still remember the day when we first begin talking . Eventually , we grew closer and closer . Your chirpy voice and the ALL-READY smile never failed to brighten my dull days . Although I've pretended that I get annoyed at your whinings , I do enjoy it . The gal who is soft-hearted , you changed my view of CHIJ gals . You were so different . You were soo strong , so adventurous and loving ... never with the stuck up face nor nature . I liked the way you innocently said " Omg , during my secondary school days , I've never eaten in a kopitiam " . Your innocent and cute face is flashing right before me as I am typing this entry . I enjoyed our night-study totally . I liked it when we go together to buy food . I will really miss this !! BENDAN !! ... hehe .. I will really miss you sweetheart . You never knew how much I respected our friendship .. with your wonderful nature , you never sulked when I told you my problems . You were always there for me . From those comforting hugs and kisses .. I will miss it ! All the best Bridget . The future SC . I hope you will not forget me . You will be in my heart .. always ! I will miss you . I didn't know that we would click so well . I can never find someone as cute , annoying , smiley , pretty , naughty , hardworking and ETC ( a lot to say dear ) as you are . I didn't realise that my friendship with you will be short-lived . I didn't realise that ... but I do treasure you .. a lot . Although our friendship never met any serious problem , I do still savour every wonderful moment we had . I really hope that you will never forget Vitz . I am soo sad that I cannot be with you till the last year . But hey !! Congrats and a HUG for being top 10% in the school :) . Proud of you buddy .

Fareez and Rach , all the best for your future . Make a wise decision . I will really miss you all a lot . The pain is really unbearable . I cannot digest the fact that I have to leave the wonderful class . Farewell 05A3 .

To my Parents .. I am so sorry my mom and dad . I have disappointed my mom and dad for the second time in my life . I don't know how to describe the way I'm feeling . Although you don't show that you are sad and disappointment Mom and Dad , I feel sooo guilty . I vowed to God that I will bring you happiness when I was born . But I didn't think that I will end up to be a failure . My mom and dad , forgive me . I am soo embarassed to even look at you . I just wish I had the guts to commit suicide . But I cannot stand leaving the 2 most wonderful people in my life . I am sorry MOM and DAD ... forgive me please .

I walk a lonely road
The only one that I have ever known
Don't know where it goes
But it's home to me and I walk alone

I walk this empty street
On the Boulevard of Broken Dreams
Where the city sleeps
and I'm the only one and I walk alone

I walk alone
I walk alone

I walk alone
I walk a...

My shadow's the only one that walks beside me
My shallow heart's the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
'Til then I walk alone

Ah-ah, Ah-ah, Ah-ah, Aaah-ah,
Ah-ah, Ah-ah, Ah-ah

I'm walking down the line
That divides me somewhere in my mind
On the border line
Of the edge and where I walk alone

Read between the lines
What's fucked up and everything's alright
Check my vital signs
To know I'm still alive and I walk alone

I walk alone
I walk alone

I walk alone
I walk a...

My shadow's the only one that walks beside me
My shallow heart's the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
'Til then I walk alone

Ah-ah, Ah-ah, Ah-ah, Aaah-ah
Ah-ah, Ah-ah

I walk alone
I walk a...

I walk this empty street
On the Boulevard of Broken Dreams
Where the city sleeps
And I'm the only one and I walk a...

My shadow's the only one that walks beside me
My shallow heart's the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
'Til then I walk alone...


Fate is sealed

( from top ) Steven Gerrard , Frank Lampard and Park Ji-Sung have graciously accepted my invitation to be featured in my blog . * Chuckles *

Oh man . I am depressed . Manchester United Drew with Tottenham Hotspurs . What a relevation . I hoped that the Red Devils will gain a upperhand at scoring at least 3 goals by Ruud Van Nistelrooy , Wayne Rooney and Park Ji-Sung .

Ok . Here's a mini report of the match . Silvestre slides in to put United in front, but Jermaine Jenas' fine free-kick levelled matters . Haha . Short and simple . Hey , if I can do such a short summary of the 90 mins action , I believe I can do well for my GP summary question in future .

I read someone's blog . His entry was focussed at his injuries sustained from a soccer match . Well I felt the way he felt when I was injured and had to sit back and watch my team perform . Not a very good feelings though . It's like a rollercoaster ride , with ups and downs . But I've manipulated my mind to think that injuries shapes one's character thus making him/her much more stronger than he/she originally was . Ok . Enough of the injury segment

The reason why those soccer stars made their way to my blog is due to the fact that I admire their hardwork and good leadership qualities .

Stevie G - The wonder boy of Liverpool who captured my attention because of his loyalty to his club rather than selling his talent to Chelsea . He inspired his club to become the Champions League Winners . He is the most hardworking player of Liverpool . Well done Stevie G !!

Frank Lampard - He is really good looking =) . Killer eyes and cute face . He along with Stevie G are the most hardworking players in the England Team . Lampard is called as the " best finisher in Europe " . Despite being a midfielder , he has scored many goals . Wonderful finisher . A Hardworking player as well !! * Applause *

Here comes the Man from My Fave EPL team : The Almighty MANCHESTER UNITED

Park Ji-Sung -- He is now on the verge of being named as " The Asian Player of the Year " . Even Sir Alex Ferguson is convinced of his potential !! He looked soo cute when he came on as the captain for 10 mins in the Champions League game with Lille . Wow . It is truly an achievement for an Asian player to join EPL or even the world's biggest team the RED DEVILS .
Park's talent was clearly evident when he confused Fulham's midfielders and defenders with his trickery , accurate passes and ability to create openings . * 2 thumbs * . Man , you've got a great promising future . It gives my eyes great pleasure to see you play .

This picture was taken after the competition ( A Div ) . Man ... Memories ...

I've changed my blog skin and tried out various codes to produce a beautiful skin . I hope you guys like this skin . I've been having a major crush on this skin for a couple of months . But I am so proud to say that I did modification to the owner's own code . HAHA .

I had floorball yesterday . It was good . My fellow bartley sweethearts were happy to see me . How can I forget Rury's tight hug ;) and Atikah's and Diyana's excitement when they saw me coming into the toilet . By the way , I made friend with this guy called FATA . He happened to crash into our floorball training . Well he coped well enough . He was friendly too . Hmm bartleyians are really warm and friendly .

Annas took charge of the team . We did a few drills and proceeded to start off with an early game as many people wanted to leave by 4.30 pm . Annas , Rury , Raj , Zul and Myself were one group . I paired with Rury to become strikers with Rury taking left forward and me right forward . Annas played centre forward while Raj and Zul were the defenders .

Suddenly tempers started to rise . Alex and Annas had a small misunderstanding but it sparked off to more disharmony during the play . The result was Annas went out of the court with fury in his eyes and Alex went to the washroom with Bao Heng . That's when I realised that they were fighting . Instantly we arranged for a team talk to settle all misunderstandings and disagreements .

As being year one's , it is certainly not desirable to fight as it will result in disharmony in the team . During the talk , I really admired Bao Heng . Wow . That fella has good leadership qualities . He was very calm and settled the whole thing . Atikah , Terence , Iiyasa and I gave out comments . Alex and Annas were very frank with their opinions . Thus in the end the whole matter was sealed . We came close after that with Annas and Alex saying sorry to each other .
I am so proud of my Floorball Year One team . We were so frank with out comments and when one person was giving out comments , the other person took it positively .

However this monkey-ish Iiyasa was commenting something about me .. Notti fella . After that , we went to Alex's class to chill out . Man ... their classroom is sooooo cozy .. so cool !! And one of Alex's classmate even have an electric fan attached to his table . Haha .. So clever !! And then .. Alex donkey was changing at the back of the classroom and I was talking to him and I didn't realise that he was taking out his shorts !!!!!! I just looked at him and Raj was like " HEY he's changing !!! " HAHAHAHA ... I was soooooo peiseh . Then that monkey-ish Iliyasa was laughing his ass off . Haha !!

Later those monkey went to paya lebar to makan . Me and Raj left home first . I didn't go and eat because my mom cooked something very special at home ... Haha ... So I left with Raj . We talked about our promos throughout our journey .

Cristiano Ronaldo that is . Poor lad . Was arrested under rape charge .
I am feeling utterly disappointment . Maybe he didn't do it . But the fact is , he is the rising star in Man Utd . Poor lad . His future's gone . Handsome dude blessed with lightning-paced legs that enable him to do million stepovers with ease .

We had geography for 2 periods . Ms Cheah gave out the answer scheme and told us where we went wrong . Man . This is really scary . I fear Tues followed by Wednesday ( for those who know why ) . This is seriously scary . Man I can't take the pressure . However , Mr Sengu managed to brighten us a little though . He said that we CANNOT fail A MT . Man .. the news brought such a relief to me . But then again , I don't wish to be advanced to the next level but rather , get promoted !! It's ok ... like what Mr Tan said " Acceptance is important "

Had PE . Man PE today was cool . We played Floorball again ! This time the opposition team beat us 5-4 . I scored 1 goal and decided to help out at defending . We were playing in the rain . The tennis court was so slippery . Damn . I thought that I'll slip and fall . But I've got to say this out now , I respect the muslims . Fareez , Fauzi , Julie and Suriani were fasting yet they put their hearts and soul into the game . Oh man . I felt totally stamina-less . I was drained of my precious energy . Nonetheless , it was a good game . Enjoyed myself . The only unfortunate thing was , playing in the rain gave me terrible headache . Man ... no joke ... it was TERRIBLE .

Mr Tan screened DE-LOVELY . The story is about Cole Porter . A famous song writer's life . Man I truly adore the true love he had for his wife Linda Porter . She inspired him to be the best in those times . I salute them :) . True Love is really precious .. that is can change someone ( totally ) . Well in this case , I confess that I've never experienced it to elaborate about it any further . Haha . Well I did a test on true love -- something about the keys to my heart which I think is 100% true !! Haha . Oh man .. Is it really hard to please me ? NO .. maybe I'm just waiting for Mr Right ;) .

Btw couldn't really enjoy the movie that well due to my headache . Man ... I'm still having it . Man .. it is sooo cold nowadays . It will be desirable to drink HOT CHOCOLATE !! YUMMY ! Well as a big substitute , I am drinking HOT chicken and leek soup . HAHA ...

Haha . The display of the movie ticket again . * Sorry Adib *
Well on saturday 15 Oct , Shah , James and I went to Yishun to watch Ghajini . Woo .. But b4 that , I went to AJC open house to support one dude by the name of Adib Osman , who .. happen to be an accomplished drummer .. ( to the extent that even some1 got invited to perform in AJC -- VIP sia ) . Well done Dibbo . Haha but the Boulevard of broken dreams ... haha * no comments * Dibbo was good .. but ____________ !
After that I went to watch the movie .

Now I want to take the opportunity to thank my friends ( esp 05A3 ) .

Thanx alot guys for your undying support . Love ya !!

Performed for the Deepa-Raya show . I was totally disgusted at the AVA crew ! Omg ... the music was totally screwed up !! * What the hell were they thinking ?? * The music was ok yesterday and today just before the actual performance , they said that they were experiencing some technical fault . That was excusable . However , at least they could've tried their best to help by providing some good music and NOT just limit themselves to their low expertise at AVA skills . Arghh .. !!

Silas came to my house to do his PW ... man .. Now I know that I've got loads of work to do next year - if i get promoted . Omg ... this is sooo freaky ... Promos ... next tuesday is going to be the promotional exercise ... :( ... Arghhhhh I am soooooo scared !!! As i type this , I can feel a tinge of fear trinkling down my spine .

Oh ... Congratulations to Amirul Asri -- he came running into the ( performers-supposed-to-be-held ) room screaming at the TOP of his lungs " HEY I PASSED BY ECONS " hehe ... congrats dude !! You rock man !!!

"I wish I could be the one,
the one who wont care at all
But being the one on the stand,
I know the way to go, no one's guiding me.
When time soaked with blood turns it's back,
I know it's hard to fall.
Confided in me was your heart
I know it's hurting you, but it's killing me."

Hello peepz . I had to blog earlier on because of the current situation . I just need an excuse to convince myself that by blogging , I am venting my frustrations , anger and everything else .

Nah . Don't think I am lamenting about the examinations . Well the truth of the matter is , it doesn't even make up the whole junk that's happening to me now !

Just some personal stuff , which I find very hard to accept . I am just so sick and tired of my life . As simple as that . No matter what people out there say , no matter how much of faith I have in you , nothing ..... let me accentuate the word NOTHING can put a stop to all my problems .. just death can solve my problems easily .

Death is actually a journey ain't it ... or is it something to convince oneself to accept reality ??
I am at loss ... but I am not here to ask for solutions but as I said earlier ... convince myself that I can attain peace by blogging .

Sometimes , the theme/s that I use for literature also applies to me in my life . Appearance Vs Reality . I appear to be so carefree , jovial ... pranks ... etc . I am really cheating myself and others . Because all I ever want to do is to take a sharp knife and slash all over my body , to see the blood spurting out , feel the adrenaline rush to my brains ... and reflect .. that life depends on the oxygen contained in the red blood cells . Hahaha ... cool ain't it ...

Maybe I am just soo drained .. so sick .. that I can ' think out of the box ' . Haha .. I don't know . All I can ever wish is that , I want a permanent solution to IT . Be it death or me - myself going bonkers . Anything . ..... Anything

sila manithanin valzgai romba aarputhamaanathu
aanal en valzgai romba kaasthamaanathu
athu en andru enaku theiriya villai
thaayavusaaithu ennai kaapaathrugaal
Oh my kadavulae ....

valzgai oru naadagam
naam antha naadagathil vaalum manitharkal

I am just so sick and tired of this life . I seriously give up . I don't know what's your plan . Are you sure that it took you 6 days to create the earth and it's people ?
Did you really thought carefully ? . If you did , then why did you do this to me .

Why hurt that some1 so badly ? I am just so drained . Drained of praying .. knowing that when I do , the only thing i ever get back is unanswered prayers ? . Then why in the hell do I have to pray to you ? Can you please stop giving us problems ? If you do not come up with such a good solution then why problems ?? I am fucking sick and tired . I just feel like giving up on you , giving up on my trust in you , totally giving up my religion !! What can I do with it ? Nothing so far that I can think of .

I really feel that you are very cruel . You want to punish the fellow human beings now ? What did I do to make you upset ? Any sins ? Man !! I give up . You're such a complicated man . Your path is just so complicating and it is fraught with endless problems . I am beginning to hate you .

Why did you do that to her ? Why did you do that to her ? Why did you even make me see her in this situation ? The only thing that I can ever ask for is death . The only permanent solution for all those supposedly temporary problems that you give me ?

Will you ever answer my prayers or am I not supposed to pray to you ? You give me soo much of problem with my promos on ? Cool !!

Wonderful job .

Wooooooooo !!!

It was raining cats and dogs when we ( my mom , bro and I) were going to Yishun to watch the movie . Honestly , It was a wonderful movie . * Thumbs up *

I liked the plot . Double ratings !! Surya's acting skills really did improved . I like his guts . Yeah . Just the simple reason that he loves to try out new stories with much matured or unique characters .

In this movie , he plays an established businessman who falls in love with Asin . Due to some circumstances ( I won't tell you what happened !!! ) , he falls victim to short term memory loss . He cannot remember things that happened 15 mins ago !! His memory span was only limited to 15 mins ! . His main objective throughout the second half of the movie was to find the person who killed ________ ( find out yourself ) .

The story is really very unique . It'll definitely appeal to the audience . A very interesting attempt . Wonderful job Mr Director . The whole crew rock !! In fact I can see the western influence in the movie . Asin was dressed like some RnB / hiphop star .. sth like beyonce and good make up to go along with it , Surya's characterisation was more like some western tycoon and the background dancers were HOT !! All of them dressed like Juggy D !!!!! WOOOO wonderful !!!

This movie really attracted me !! HAHA . Finally we're out of that box !!

**** BTW to all die-hard Surya fans .. catch the movie ASAP cos .. there's a scene in which surya was wearing JUZ his boxers ( gals .. can see his wonderfully-developed abs !!! ) Wooooooo !!

MAN !! I juz love the movie .. I was crying as well .. a mixture of emotions ... From medical research on brains and human instincts to murder , transition period and fight !! ... Woah !! SHIOK LA ! .

SURYA .. I LOVE U !! MAN U'RE REALLY HOT !! . AFter straightening ur hair , u really look good .. your eyes are more enhanced with your new hairstyle ... WOAH !! MY god !!

1st picture , My best fren Rag and Me ..
2nd picture : My BF . He's the man !! Arjen Robben all the way !! Woooo

Rocking my head to : Institute - Bullet-proof Skin ( Rating 8/10 )

Burn, baby burn
Strung out on a wire
Heart in a cage
You're so full of desire
You need, fast hands
To deal with all the liars
So don't burn baby burn baby burn

My friends are having econs paper today . All the best to them !! .
I am having high fever thus couldn't meet up Iggy at school for our HMT revision .

Oh man . There's alot of stuff to do !! I'm freaking out .

AO MT - I hate those literature grammers . It's soo hard !! Compo's going to be tough !! HAIZ !

Geography - ALOT to be done !!!

EL Literature - TOO much Undone !! Panic-attack

HMT Tamil Literature - OH GOD !!

So ?? What's going to happen ?? Time will give the answers .

I know it ... I am so sorry peeps . I just cannot control my fingers :) .

OK people . I am blogging now because I am very very .. [ the very present here is to emphasise the present situation ] shagged . I've been doing relatively much more work than I used to when i was younger . I realise now that it is not very easy to ace your examination . Hardwork alone is not enough to give you an 'A' grade . Hardwork goes hand in hand with self-discipline , determination and stability . Phew !

Honestly , I can't wait for promos to end . It is beacause , the day that promos end , I am going to start my sports regime . I've already planned in my head of what trainings I am going to undertake . I am seriously going to be very strict with myself . From A-Z .. , every part .. even the most trivial stuff is going to go discovered ! ( I do mean it ) .

Before I start with the trainings , I am going to ensure that my injured left knee is

1) No longer 'loose'
2) Strong like before
3) Flexible like before

I am ultra-motivated to go through countless amounts of trainings to ensure that I am fit for the NAPHA test which is going to take place at March ( 2006 ) . I need to recover quickly and redeem my former aggressive - never-say-die attitude together with my sheer confidence . This time NOTHING can stop me . Not even another injury .

Today we had PE . Since the PE teachers did not allow us to use the tennis court to play soccer , Bobbie and I decided to play floorball . YES!! It's after a long time that I took that stick again ( earlier I was suffering from some kinda touch-me-not floorball stick phobia ) . Man .. It was like normal . I was enjoying every millisecond of the game . In fact I scored a goal . This is a very good sign that clearly highlights my road to recovery !! It's like last time( before 1 july 2005 ) ... I don't understand and don't really know why , but I have that strange ability to score goals --- it's like as though the floorball goalpost is glidding towards me every minute . Hmm .. now you guys know why I love floorball .. And the other thing that I like in me is that .. I can do the one-touch-passes at ease !! and together with that , I have the speed and agility .. Floorball is a fast game and I can do this stuff /// MAN !! NOW I CAN'T WAIT TO RECOVER !!!

I am going on a strict diet after promos end . I've also intended to take biathlon ... going to try taking triathlon too . But the horrible fact is I cannot swim fast ( haha okok I admit .. I got phobia to swim in deep water .. I panic when I realise that I cannot touch the ground beneath me ) . Thus .. I want to do cycling and running .. I tried that before .. 12 km run and 10 km of cycling .. I admit that it is not easy .. but I bet swimming is tougher !! Especially when you cannot hydrate yourself well enough !! Goody !!

Vitz is going for some strict regime .. so people outta there , wish me good luck .. :) . Btw .. I am freaking tensed about GP !! I am feeling freaking vulnerable !! MAN i did not have such a worry in life before .. GP/EL was the most easiest subject to pass .. However now , it is sooo unpredictable .. I am worrying if I wrote well .. elaborating well on POWER .. and GP P2 .. AQ and etc !! GOODY !!!!!!!!!!!!!! I am soooooooooo freaked out !!!!!!!

I tried the test and got this OC character .. :)

Let me go home
I've had my run
Baby I'm done
I gotta go home
Let me go home.....
But it'll all be alright,
I'll be home tonight
I'm coming back... home..."

Home by Michael Buble [ Rating * according to vitz * 8/10 ]
A soothing song . Rock on to it when you are stressed or feeling dejected .

A beautiful weather it is . I feeling like drinking some hot chocolate and to go along with it a slice of Oreo cheesecake . Yummy !!

Man .. My promos is starting in about 8 days . My Paper will be on Oct 10 - 13 Oct . There's always alot to do . You can study as much as you want . But the difference is , how much time you've got and have you acquired the right skill to apply it effectively ? I don't have the answers with me yet .

Trying not to feel stressed . Recently , I exploded due to the fact that my stress level hit the top ; and the aftermath was , I was crying my ass off infront of my classmates and teacher .. . Man that is really embarassing .

You might ask me , then what the freak am I doing .. blogging my precious time away . The only way that I can escape from all those torturous moment is by blogging . Yes , blogging is my escapism .

Before I leave , there was something that happened yesterday that made me mad today . Haha . Well went for this birthday , danced at the dancefloor *duh* and eat all kind of variety of food . Soon , I spent my time playing with little kiddos . That's when i realised that 2 kiddos were adopted . Yes -- I respect that aunt for doing this as you gave them a new life -- full of colorful rainbows and endless sunshine . Ok . But I saw them treating 1 of the kiddo quite differently . As in , they were quite strict to her .

So , I asked my mom today . What was wrong with it . So , my mom told me that that girl's biological father " made use " of her . I was asking my mom to define her statement . She told me that the biological father FORCED her to perform sexual act on herself : he taught her to masterbate !!! . What an indespicable act !! He should be shot to death no no ... that is not as effective .. he should be punished by the IMPALING STICK !!

Impaling stick ( old way of punishing )

In this torture , victims had their hands tied and seated directly on a spike .
The spike enters the anus and travel through the body ripping and tearing it's way through vital organs . Check this out ----> This is what he deserve -----> As the victim squirms in agony , the spike often changes path tearing a new way until it exits the throat , chest , mouth , shoulder , ear or crown of the skull !!

Very sadistic way of punishing !! Damn that father . This is how he should be punished for polluting an innocent's mind . The result of it , she is doing some unappropriate stuff to herself . In short , she is masterbating using stuffs . She's only 7 ! . However , I've got hope . The new parents are being strict and monitering her . I hope she will forgo those stuff and carry on living like every other 7 year olds .

Aite . I am going to control myself from blogging . I hope that this would be my last entry . I want to resume blogging after 13 Oct .. ...

Adioz .

Made my mistakes, let you down
And I can't, I can't hold on for too long
Ran my whole life in the ground
And I can't, I can't get up when you're gone

And something's breaking up (breaking up)
I feel like giving up (like giving up)
I won't walk out until you know

Today ( 30th september 2005 ) marks the start of the promotional examination ( promos ) . I had my GP today . Well I naturally love english language and I truly confess that I am aiming to score .. However , I admit that it is not as easy as it seems ; perhaps due to my procrastination .
The presentation of the english language or rather the GP ( General Paper ) totally differs from our O levels . It is still in my clear memory that I got A1 for it . I was working very hard , putting in tremendous effort to acquire the right skill to get the distinction that I wanted .

However , GP is totally different . We are required to know the language very well to get the distinction . We must apply right skills - like giving the correct point . It's more like striking the nail when it's hot . Application question is the component that highlights a normal pass and an extraordinary grade . Enough said I suppose . I'm not trying to crap here like some GP-pro or anything .. it's just that I'm trying to voice out my view .

The question that I chose for my GP was " The internet is the most powerful tool . To what extent you agree ? " . I don't know how I will fare .
The comprehension was on social responsibilities and corporate businesses ( well I really hate anything to do with businesses ) . It was a tough passage and most of my classmates found it hard to comprehend it .

I am very disappointed with my AQ question . I definitely under-performed . I know it . I didn't do well . It's not use crying over spilt milk , but then again , I feel like I've let down Mr Tan Chweeb Bock -- The best GP teacher ever !! . He told our Home tutor -- Ms Rachel Cheah that he believes that we will DO WELL . He knew that the passage was hard , but his encouraging words actually shows the solid TRUST that he has on US - 05A3 ; not only us but the other classes that he teaches as well . It's a blessing when you get GOOD teachers like him ; someone who really cares for you and ensures that you score well . Mr Tan , you simply ROCK . To all the teachers , YOU GUYS ROCK . Thanx to Ms Cheah for reminding me of the time limit and telling me to manage my time well .

Ok . Coming back again , I realise that chocolates especially those coated with thick chocolatey-layer is very effectual in de-stressing the poor and tortured soul ( like me ) . With the onslaught of the GP paper and the amounting intense pressure , it's chocolates that can do the magic .

Oh dear , actually what Ms Cheah once said is very true . The real test of the A levels is to see how we manage our time well . This is a very big big problem to me . Well I cannot even manage my bathing time well , ( bathing at least 1 hr & 15 mins ) let alone managing time for A level subjects .

Ok . I am kinda nervous about my A MT paper . We are expected to write 3 pages for 6 questions in 3 hours . So mathematically , 3 x 6 = 18 . Mr Sengu advised us to spend 25 mins on 1 question . It's all about regurgitating the points ... . The worse thing is , Iggy and I'll be having double Lit paper on that day -- each lasting 3 hours .. totalling to 6 hours !!!! . Man , I think we'll suffered from numb hand after the end of both papers !! ARggHh . Then again , It's the path that I chose and I have to be responsible for my own actions ! .

I don't want to reveal the grades that I desire for I don't want to create any hopes yet . I'll talk after tackling the papers . Alright peeps . To those having their promos , Gd Luck .. and above all my dearest 05A3 --- may the force be with us !! :)

Vithiya 'Vitz'

11 Jan 1987

Undergrad (Psychology)

Manchester United

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