Thursday, September 08, 2005
UntitledI open my eyesI try to see but I’m blinded by the white lightcan’t remember how can’t remember whyI’m lying here tonightAnd I can’t stand the painAnd I can’t make it go awayNo I can’t stand the painHow could this happen to meI made my mistakesI’ve got no where to runThe night goes onAs I’m fading awayI’m sick of this lifeI just wanna screamHow could this happen to meEverybody’s screamingI try to make a sound but no one hears meI’m slipping off the edgeI’m hanging by a threadI wanna start this over againSo I try to hold onto a time when nothing matteredAnd I can’t explain what happenedAnd I can’t erase the things that I’ve doneNo I can’tHow could this happen to meI made my mistakesI’ve got no where to runThe night goes onAs I’m fading awayI’m sick of this lifeI just wanna screamHow could this happen to meI made my mistakesI’ve got no where to runThe night goes onAs I’m fading awayI’m sick of this lifeI just wanna screamHow could this happen to meThis song has somewhat captured my attention . For what reason ? I don't exactly know . However , I do feel that this song really describes the way I'm feeling now . Cool right ?
I am having high fever now . Feeling so uncomfortable . I can barely concentrate on anything . Arrgghh I hate it when I fall ill ; wonder which donkey passed me that virus ! I swear that I'm ready to skin you alive ! Haha .. * just joking dude/dudette *
Ignatious have me a minor heart attack earlier in the day . He told me that we were not going to sit for AO MT but A MT ! I was really shocked , because , A MT is not an easy subject to bank your hopes on to . I need the desperate support of my AO MT . Ignatious also told me another fascinating thing . It seems that in Millennia's history , no single soul had ever taken double literature . For the 1st time in Millennia's history , in 2005 , 2 people by the name of Ignatious and Vithiya from 05A3 are taking DOUBLE LIT ! Wooo what a remarkable record ?
So much of stuff happened and got settled . The bottom line is , always trust your bud ! For things tend to get heavy under people's influences and before even realising it , you'll succumb to their intentions . How manipulative can people get ? Thank goodness that I'm blessed with good buds to the extent that they didn't cheat me when they could've . So now , at this very moment , I'll like to thank them .
Thanx to Adib Osman for sticking up for me , Thanx to Bridget Tan for being there and Thanx to Amirul Asri for showing me the light when I was really down . Although it's known that people with authority can change things at hand , you guys showed me that all it ever takes for friendship to flourish is TRUST . Thanx peeps .
And for that particular incident that somewhat shook the living daylight out of me , I choose to ignore it . People can get tempted when they are blessed with authority and power -- even Angelo got tempted . Although I won't deny that I wasn't disappointed , I have decided to put on a mask to hide my true feelings and to pretend . Life is a drama . We all are actors . Now I know why they came up with this . Life is all about acting , being an hypocrite . Ain't it ?
Haha , to those innocent-beings who don't exactly know what I am talking about , you can ignore it and resume enjoying the purest taste of innocence . Talking about innocence , I saw a cute little baby on the bus today . That baby ( a girl -- i think so ) , kept touching me . * don't freak out people * . She kept smiling so innocently . Man ! How i wish to go back to my childhood days ? When i had no worries . When you are young , you don't have any worries . All you see is happiness . Even in time of greatest misery , you can see the light . And your only worries are ? ---> getting to play the swing , if your mom would buy you the toy you asked for , time and food ! . Unlike teenagers now . This is life .
Enough said I suppose . Feeling hungry . I want to go and munch onto anything that is nice . Oh yeah , before I forget ; I drank hot chocolate today !! Haha . It's been a long time since I last drank it . Fuuyooh .. it was .. SHIOK . Eternal blessing !!
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