The unearthed beings ? An instinct ? Maybe not ...  

I am not feeling good today . There's countless of thoughts swirling in my mind now . I am bombarded by many questions . There really do have such a great impact on my feelings . Hey people don't assume that I am talking about some relationship problem . Its just that I am at a great fix , cannot really do things that I used to do . Man .. Feeling utterly disappointed with the situation . Many people told me to just grin and bear with it . But my brain is telling me to tap out at the state of my situation . Haiz // let's see what life have for me

I do get really irritated very easily . The worse thing is , I just blow my top off ! I am very vulnerable to stress that I find it hard to control my emotions . Memories of the past is making me very sad . The vivid images of me clutching my knee , screwed in undescribable adrenaline of pain , letting out my stream at BARTLEY campus on the fateful day ( 1st july ) is flooding my mind . I can't help it but feel very very depressed .

I can't wait to recover . I know it's going to take ages for that damned tissues to strengthen . However , there's a limit to my patience . I just cannot sit back and watch my peers play . I cannot sit back and remind myself that " hey u gotta relax " . Man .. Life is too harsh on me . I can feel cracking sounds when I move my knee or rub it . WHAT THE HECK IS GOING ON ??

I have realised that the month is drawing to an end , and the start to promos is reaching sooner . I am really paralysed with fear . I feel as though it's about time that I have to set off to work . Maybe I should stop breathing . A levels is all about challenging your intelligence . Literature is not good at the moment . I am confused with the book now . Haven't been doing my tutorials . I have to do well for my paper 8 . God !! It's going to take a miracle to help me with that . I am really starting to hate AO tamil . I don't see any essence in that . I don't see it as a means of articulating my feelings anymore . Infact the class is sooo ultra boring . There is NO SILAS , NO VETHIYA , NO JAYA , NO SHARMILA , NO ARAVIND & NO KAVICKUMAR to challenge to ... I am not doubting my mates capability but this class is fraught with people who have no intentions to pursue tamil .

People who see tamil as the most disasterous subject . People who loathe the subject and its existence . I really hate this . I only look foward to A tamil class . I think tamil literature is much more interesting to study . It have powerful acknowledge to it . Yes . You have to adopt unconventional means of thinking to adapt to it . I find it easier to articulate my thoughts . In fact the problems and certain ideas brought up by the subject is utterly fascinating . It enrich my knowledge of tamil . Yes . A tamil rock . Tamil literature is the best .

Ok . These are my hailstorm of thoughts . Although peeps out there might think it's absurb , I don't I would show the slighest tinge of remorse for blurting it out . Yes . Whatever you have to say , just tag me . But don't expect me to change my perspective . Alright . If you want , try to change . PLEASE . Make it a very conducive place to study and not a place where you adopt negative thought .

Look, if you had one shot, one opportunity
To seize everything you ever wanted-One moment
Would you capture it or just let it slip?

Just a phrase from my sweetheart EMINEM . He is the best . I love you man . Rappers rock . Particularly YOU ! . I salute you man . BREAK THE NORMS , HECK THE PEOPLE , DESTORY THE UNWANTED , FUCK THE WORLD ( if they hurl extensive amount of unadmired verbals ) & RESPECT YOUR KIND !

Man .. I'm feeling lethargic now . Argghh ...

Just thought of blogging . I don't know if i can make it to Shachin's birthday party .

Dear God ,

You are very cruel to me ! I don't understand your ways . Maybe you have done me more harm than to anyone else .

Time is the only solution ? Hack to it .

From Vitz

Oh god !! Promos are around the corner !!!!!

Looking beyond the conventional perspectives ! 

Feeling agitated now . One freaking idiot sent me a virus that starts sending instant message to people in your windows messenger and infect them with the virus . Feeling totally F*cked up .
Nevertheless , I managed to dounload Ahnlab security pack ( with repercussions ) .
PS : Sorry Fareez . It sent you that virus as well right !! Man !! I feel bad !

Let me put that at the back of my head . OK . Today I was supposed to be at King Albert's Park ( KAP ) at 8.30 am . But ( as being Vitz ) , I reached KAP at 9.15 am . I ate very well . Hehe . After that Bobbie passed me her hashbrown . YUMMY !! Ok .. After , we proceeded back to school . We were waiting for the bus to arrive . Suddenly , my train of thoughts came to a screeching halt when my gaze fall on the newspaper headline " possible Al-qaeda attack in singapore ? " . Man .. I suddenly felt as though my heart had stopped . I just wish nothing of that sort happens .

After that , we checked out pictures taken during pizza party . Haha .. Hilarious ! The one picture that I really adored most is the one in which Bridget poured a cupful of water onto Amirul's hair . It looked natural . Haha .

OK .. we had fun while studying . After that , something hilarious happened . Shiva and I started to discuss something about the true depth of poems and phrases . After that , she told me that it takes time and higher level of intelligence to understand the depth of certain poems / phrases . After that I told her , that I know one deep word and that word is SOOO deep that it is very much acknowledged ! . So i wrote in her hand the deepest of the deepest known word - Oceanic Trench . Even Gowri was amazed of my intelligence . Haha . Btw ... to the non-geo students , Oceanic trench is the deepest point in the ocean . It's ultra deep . It's soo deep that it was actually ' drown ' the Mount Everest . !! .

Ok . Kumari told me that an Intra-campus drama competition is coming up . Bartley VS Toh tuck .. MAN ! I don't want to fight with my bartley sweethearts !! :( . I am already inside the drama . Too much of commitments .. , Man .. having a tough life . No time for my social activities . I am supposed to be present for Shachin's birthday party and now I have to choose wheather to go to his party or to dikir barat . :(

Ok Adib just told me that there is something called METAL BALLADS . Fuuyoh !! I didn't know that such a combination actually existed ! Ok . Today I was a good friend . I helped Bridget clear her doubts , I helped Nadia and Darshini in their geo hw , I helped rachelena yesterday .. hmm yes ... . I was also a bad student man ! Ok . Well Ms cheah was surprised that I even turn up late for breakfast !! Haha .. Aiyoh .. Why this stupid curse on me ah !! I don't understand this you know . Adib and Ama stay in the East and manage to come to school on time . Whereas Me , staying so near the school , been late for school ( 14 times to be more precise !! ) . Grr !! Embarassed sia !!

Ok .. I am all prepared to watch Exorcist ( the beginning ) . Hehe . I am influenced to watch this because of the recent activity that me and my mates have persued ! Haha .. Ok dumbheads , We have been exploring our ( haunted and old ) school . Man .. in fact I think that it looks COOL at night . Hmm . Really peaceful . Especially when you can shutter when the cold wind brush against your skin .. , when you hear nothing but nature's sounds . We knocked on the LT4 door and sat outside .. Waiting for ' their ' presence but to no avail . However , We've decided to embark on another journey ... perferably on THURSDAY :) . Almighty !

it's been such a long time since I last blogged . I am feeling quite good to blog ( although my nick suggest otherwise ;) ) .

I am eating coconut ( pie ) tart . Man .. It's wonderful . It adds such pleasure to my senses .
Ok alright . Let me update you of the current events .

Today , We had our Let's work it ( ace's day ) finals . I was stressed and pressurised at the very beginning . I had the awkward feeling that I would just forget the routine steps ( which eventually happened ) . I made a few mistakes but covered it up easily . Others made mistakes too , but they weren't as obvious as Rizal's one . Ok .. We got 2nd . I really thought that we would clinch the 1st place , but ....

However , I'm not feeling great about losing because , EVERYONE said that we were the best team . In fact , we had the crowd moving . I don't know how exactly we lost out to North Vista . I've got no say at this very moment .

Been feeling utterly tired . We did lots of exercises and in addition of my badminton , I've developed muscle cramp . Man , My back is aching . During that dance , both my legs were numbed ! .. I'm really shagged . Gotta hit the sack early oneday ..

PS : A big big thanx to Ignatious , Shiva , Farhana , Sharida ( 05A3 we rawk ) , Natz , Shaz and Huda . Thanx for coming down to support us . I love you guys :)

Yesterday , Amirul , Fareez , Bridget , Tutz , Julie , Kendri , Huda ( pre-u 3 ) and I stayed in school for the night study . It was quite productive . We managed to do some things .

All of a sudden , Fareez noticed that the 05A4's light being on .! . I know it's quite common .. but the fact is , I went in the last time ( ard 6.30++ ) to return the guitars , but I swear that I did not see any damn light being on !! Worse , Amirul & Fareez walked past the classroom , noticed that 05A5's lights being on and switch it off . They did not notice the lights as well ... Very weird . Fareez got distracted by the " presence " . Soon i heard someone tapping on the shutter . I chose to ignore it .

Luckily we aborted the plan of exploring the school . I guess the school was not ' clean ' yesterday . Hmm .. after that , we decided to walk to the interchange ( BB ) .. It was an hour walk man ... So tiring .

Ok people // My eyes are closing mid way .. I'm finding it hard to type any longer .

Man , I am really running out of steam now . Drained all my energy !
It's been a tough week . Learning so much of PERSONAL stuff and putting them into practise .

Who could have thought of it ? I met the principal , Had a mini conversation with her . Man ! It's really tough .

Promos .. Argghhh . I'm feeling the intensity and the pressure now !! It's just like sitting for the A level exam in 1 week time !! Man .. that's how i describe the atmosphere around me ; and if this is totally normal , I DON'T know what I'll expect for the ( atmosphere ) A levels exam . Man ... I don't know what to say . But i have to admit something .

JC life is not easy . A levels .. Oh god !! I don't want to think about it .

I just hope I get promoted to year 2 . The thought of not being able to get promoted is bugging me ( even in my dreams ) ... A very IMPORTANT signal !! :(

I shall stop blogging now /// BYE ///

Hello peeps ..

I don't understand this . I always get BAD stuff ! I don't understand why ! Is god being very cruel to me ?

Because contact lens seems to work well on others .. , but to me , NO ! Why ? Man !! I hate this la ! Haha .. I am so agitated because my eyes get tired ( maybe because my eyes get too dry ) very easily . I cannot study in school well enough and now .. , I cannot see the board from where I'm sitting ! Haha .. stupid me right ? Yeah I agree man !

Btw .. life seemed to have taken an unexpected twist now man ! Suddenly I am involved in some stupid love triangle ( without any idea that I was actually involved !! - sounds stupid right ? but the truth ) . Today someone told me that He wants to break off with his gf of 6 months because he is starting to have feelings for me .. and I've got my long time crush confessing his feelings to me .. but the thing is , I don't know why ; but I don't want to have any relationship now . It's like I just prefer to be single .. I don't want to nurse a broken heart . I don't understand this ... Although I think that there is nothing as divine as love , I don't want to be in a relationship .. Haiz .. life is very complicated !!

Hmm feeling a bit sick now .. having fever ( 38.1 degrees ) stupid eh !! hehe ! I don't know why , but I can't seem to push myself to do that STH which I have to do .. ( haiz ) . I hope I can do that soon la .. Man .. I don't want to be left behind .. Hehe :p

OKOK .... I'll stop confusing people now ok ? Ok see you guys . Bye

PS : Thanx Amirul and ' Katek ' Suhana .

Crazy people .  

Nice heading right ? I won't be that bad enough not to explain the meaning of it .

" Hai Al Al Falah " means " comes to success " . It's adapted from the Quran . Well read this very interesting article in the newspaper . It really made me to ponder on certain issues . This article was actually an excerpt from a Firday sermon the writer ( Dr Maher Hathout ) gave . It deals with the issue of the defination of ISLAM . As far as we are concerned now , many innocent people ( including the muslims ) are becoming the prey to the predators of counterfeit islam . The writer said that their religion (islam) is based on thinking . The message is " Liqawmin yaaqiloon " , which means " to people who think " . He also stated that the signs of God are revealed to those who reflect , ponder , analyse and contemplate . These are the characteristics mentioned in the Quran as the prerequisites of a believer .

This actually proves to us that our fellow muslims are people with great virtue . However there are other people out there who simply tarnish the pure values of a true muslim ; which to my regret is a very serious matter . The writer also stated one point which I would really like to highlight .

" It is sad to see gurus of hate programming
young people to blow themselves up
while the gurus remain at home , safe
and sound "

How true ? I really salute the writer . It must have took him so much of courage to voice out his view in such a very eloquent way . However , it's not surprising if one hails his knowledge as he is the senior adviser for the muslim public affair ( a non-profitable organisation ) . Hats off to you Dr Hathout . Thus , we should respect our muslim friends and forge good friendship with them as islam really teach them to be humane and instil in them the virtues needed for a true muslim .

Well I am feeling quite ok now . However a little stressed though . I heard from Nigel that the promos are like approximately 8 weeks away .
I got a little disappointed with the SOORKALAM ( tamil debate ) today . I was really rooting for Raffles Institution . I think they deserve to win . CHIJ Saint Theresa's Convent didn't perform well enough . In fact the RI guys were vert straight forward and precise with their speech and view . Man .. disappointment . RI guys did well for the impromptu questions ( asked by the judges ) as well . But I am happy that Subramaniam Aravind got the best speaker award . He deserve it . I like the way he rebutted the last speaker of the opposition team's ( STC ) view . Thumbs up !

Went to school at 8.15 AM for my dikir practise . They did well for their auditions . I wish we get selected to perform for teacher's day . It's an honour to be performing in Dikir Barat . Man , it's not easy to master the hand gestures ( or it that what i should call it ? ) . Quite alot of interesting stuffs happened in school today . Shiva had a bad day . I pity that girl . She experienced a very terrible thing the night before and still managed to turn up for school to do her lit project . Boy !! I thought that girls were not as strong but Shiva proved me otherwise . Hats off to you buddy !

Yesterday we had a friendly match with the Victoria School ( VS ) guys . Haha . They were yound buds ( sec 1 and sec 2 & sec 3 ) . I liked especially this puny guy . He was about 1.40++cm and ran around . He looked super adorable . In fact his stick was ' taller ' than him . He was half my size . He could run fast but I could still outrun him . Although I'm still not 100% fit ( in fact I cannot do PE * grin * ) I could outrun most of the guys yesterday , not that they were slow but I was fast for them . But soon , I accidentally stretched my muscles in the knee and felt a sharp pain . I had to stop playing floorball . I'm soo frustrated la . I JUST don't have the patience to sit back and watch people play ok ! I feel the deep urge to play . I'm praying that my knee will heal soon . I need to do alot of things . I need to go for my night training , do my NAPHA ( is that how you spell it ?? :S ) and etc .

On a lighter note , something to ponder upon .

" Now there is the kind of man
whose speech about this world's
life may dazzle thee ,
and he calls God to witness
about what is in his heart ;
yet he is the most
contentious of enemies . " ( Quran 2:204 )

This verse is dedicated to the youth // The lesson to be learnt is

Never let the dazzling rhetoric of a good orator cloud your good judgement or swerve you from reason and rationality .

Sorry about that lame heading yeah ? I love to eat MILO powder . It gives me the ' high ' .. Its my esctasy . All right people .. the long break isn't much of a use to me . I spent 3/4 of the days practising . Yes .. Practising .. practising for Dikir barat and Ace's day competition . I hope we will win the Ace's day dance competition . The people involved are training very hard .. since I just joined the dance about 2 days ago , I am not AS good as the others .. As in .. I tend to get confused with the dance steps .. ( damn la .. I hate this shit .. I love to be perfect .. but look ... should've joined the dance when they started to train .. ) .

Man .. I have freaking tired and I have to go to school tomorrow . Man .. Damn tiring .. Got geo test coming up .. many tutorials to be done ( yet undone ) and CCAs & teacher's day concert * dikir barat * .. Man I love that malay song .. soo nice !! " citra sasiah nirmala mu ... " Woo .. Nice la .. MIA can sing very well too .. Man when she sings the " Ahhhhhhh " in her own tune , it really make me feel very .. erm .. emotional .. as in .. that tune make me feel as though the singer is longing for some1 and is very lonely in the world of sins ! Yeah

All i need in this life of sin is me and gf
Down the ride till the very end just me and my bf - that sorta thingy

Ok i read my friend's blog just now . He wrote that there was this occasion whereby a riot nearly broke out . Some people were selling this book ( anti-government I think ) and saying something .. the police were there and they were armed ! Haha .. This sounds like the book Mr Hamzah used to talk about .. This book that I have is called " The hatchet man " It's by JB JEYARATNAM . It shows how he got ' screwed ' by Mr Lee Kuan Yew . Yeah . Justice was by his side yet ' political secrets ' has its say .. nah ?

I like to keep my blog long . Blogging is the only way in which I can voice out my emotions , feelings and opinions . So people who get bored reading my blog can .. F*ck Off .

Btw .. Got very shocked to learn that MANY people i know smoke . Haiz ... Maybe because now since we're of the official age to smoke , many people are not hiding their secret passion . It's just that I don't think it's wise to smoke as it's freaking expensive in singapore .. with all those pictures on the front of the cigarette box ( eww ) . I prefer to indulge myself into alcoholic drinks rather than to smoke . I'm not trying to say that I'm soo perfect that my lips are virgin .. but hey .. I don't want to be labelled as a smoker and die of diseases at a young age . Indulging in social smoking is not a very good idea either .. Although I used to think that it's ok .. , I don't think it should be practised . Hehe ... So avoid going to pubs .. etc .. So that you won't get tempted to smoke . Just give up that shit man .. there're much better ways to de-stress .. my ways are .. Blasting up the music .. dance floors , sports !! , CHOCOLATES ( preferably kinder bueno ) and movies ( funny ones ) .. and to others if they want to .. but something that I dun like to indulge in .. masterbating .. I dunno where this shit came from ... But many JC students i know , love to masterbate to de-stress themselves .. Haiz .. I dunno la ! Haha .. But i'm never ok with it .

I feel like buying a bottle of vodka with very high percentage of alcohol , drink up the whole content and SLEEP . Yes .. Rethi told me that this way helps when you feel like your body is succumbing to fatigue . I'm yet to try this . Should try .. but yet again .. I don't want to :) ..

OK enough said la .. See you guys soon !

Aishu and Vitz 

NDP " motivators " 

Crazy peepss 

Today was really a very wonderful day . I enjoyed like hell laa !!

Part 1
I went to Dikir Barat practise . The whole thing started at 9.30 @ Toa Payoh . I reached there at 11.20 am . Hehe .. Very late eh ? Well as you peeps know , I CANNOT be early for my appointments .. I just couldn't open my freaking eyes la .. I was really freaking tired !!
Had our Dikir Barat practise .. Man it is really very difficult to do all the hand movements and to memorise the malay words .. But .. I memorised the whole song ! Yeah Man !!

Part 2
After that we went to esplanade @ 6pm .. We ( Amirul , Farhana , Hidz , Shaz , Asila and her bf and me ..) were sitting there to watch the fireworks .. I really got excited when I saw the fighter planes .. The sound was marvelous !! Man .. When 2 jets did that feint and did a sway .. I was left with my jaw wide open !! OH MY GOD !!! It was superb !!! This stunt really make me wanna join SAF !! OH GOD .. IF only my husband is a pilot who rides the Fighter PLane !!! OMG !! I'll love him like crazy laa !!
The fireworks !! OMG !! I was nearly left to tear !! Farhana and I got very crazy when we saw the fireworks .. I believe this is the beauty that man EVER gave to nature !! OMG !!! If only I had a bf and had him beside me ... WOOO it would've been a very very very romantic night !! * i swear man * ... That fireworks really made me feel very very special ! I was memerised by the beauty !! I felt like hugging the sky !

Part 3
The whole freaking place was crowed like hell la !! SOmehow I could walk all the way to stamford court to meet my crappers Haini , Aishah and Wiyah !! Hehe .. Had fun with them .. Talked about school , STUFF , exams and etc ... Man .. I miss them like crazy la .. If only I had that entire gang of mine in MI .. I could regain my olden day confidence ...the air of JHONGTAIL I had .. the craze of SCREAMING HEADS and the stuff we DID ! I miss them BIG TIME !! I really prefer SEC SCH LA .. for I grew up there .. with my friends ..

Reflection : I really miss my friends .. Although I've got new friends in MI , I still feel " not myself " . When I am MYSELF in school , People being super conventional , disregard it ; not forgetting condemn your character and label you . I only get respected when I keep my mouth shut and pretend to be matured ! As in .. I CANNOT be like that .. I had to treat life seriously .. because I don't want to look back in life and regret .. why my YOUTH wasn't spent in a very unconventional manner .. As in , I hope you peeps understand what I'm trying to say . Well it's from my heart yea ? I really miss my sec sch frens !! I always looked forward to school because I wanted to hang out with my PALS .. we even shared our DARKEST SECRETS .. From very very embarassing to something you might only want to share with yourself .. YEah .. Miss my time when I used to console my frens , preach and match make my pals .. hmm miss those time .. It used to be like " SCREAMING HEADS TERROR " but now .. nothing of that sort ..
I used to go around vandalising the school ( signing it was JHONGTAIL ---> for it used to be my nickname ) and all the stuff .. haha I had my OWN CONCEPT in school , only to realise that my peers were copying my style .. But all this , I can NEVER find in MI . ( not trying to say that my frens suck or sth .. but ppl are more different ... different from how u are ... in their view and manner ) Yeaps .. Miss them la .. Esp Maslinda's laughter , He shun's expressions , Silas's biblical speech , Naresh's knowledge , alot alot la !! CAnnot even say . I feel like crying now .. I want to go back to 5N2 . I want to be with my pals again . Aiyah .. NVm .. I will be MYSELF from thursday onwards .. and not try to pretend to be someone else . I will try to vandalise ok hehe ... =) . hehe ..

Btw .. I need to write something about my cousin now . I went to this classical indian dance show on sunday .. Called " shakuntala - the circle of love " . My cousin is really a very very good dancer man .. She danced pretty well . I cannot even imagine she can dance that well . *THUMBS UP * I love my cousin .. SHOBANA .. aka SHOBI ,, u dance very well da .. soo proud to have u as my cousin ... when I cannot even dance barathanathiyam , you can do it and .. you can REALLY dance !! Man .. I admire you laa !! Respects !!! Btw .. Barathanathiyam is a very very difficult dance peeps ! I admire her for tt

Me and My crapper ! 

Ah beng VITZ =) 

GANGSTA'S PARADISE 

Holla peeps ,

Yesterday I spent my day playing badminton ( like for hours ) . Played with Nimalen and Gina . Man .. I really missed playing badminton ( or rather sports ) like crazy . I remembered the times when I'll be having our own mini-badminton match outside our classroom with Sofian , Silas , Aqil , Shachin , Sheila , Beetsma , Maslindah and Haini .. I really Miss those times man . I also remember how that idiotic Lollipop would irritate our ass by acting as the " delicate lady " .. Haha ... Those memories .. I treasure . It's embedded deep into my heart .

I didn't go for floorball either as my mates were not going . So spent my time playing badminton and training for this dance competition . After that , I joined the peeps for their live-radio session . It was cool .

1 thing that I would like to tell here is , NIMALEN is freaking talented la !! My god . I simply admire his talent . He can play piano and guitar !! Man he played very very very romantic tamil and english songs !! I nearly cried when he play " kan persum vaarthaikal " ( direct translation would be - the language your eyes speak ) . Later on , he played that song in guitar for the session . Man .. It was simply superb !! . After that all of us went to westmall to take bus .. and that's when Nimalen said that he likes horny people . He said that I am horny too !! Haha .. Don't freak out people . Let me define HIS term .

Horny ( from Nimalen's dictionary ) stands for = People who discuss & approach sex issues with an open mind and also innocent people who talk about sex ! . Haha ... Cos you see .. I do talk about sex very often infact .. haha .. My bartley buddies should know that by now .. for I'm their sex therapist ... haha ... ( long story )

Act 1 ( Bartley campus - hall )

Surinder : where you wanna go after your A levels
Me : NUS la !!
Surinder : What you want to be ? What's your ambition ? Take degree in what ??
Me : I want to be a sex therapist ah ... So I'm going to take degree on SEX . Free lessons
and demonstration given by me .. but demo will be done on Surinder ( my disciple )
instead . So any1 who need my help , can gimme a ring .. I'll be the
most accomplished sex therapist in the world ! * smirk *

Rury , Diyana , Khai , Atikah and others were laughing their ass off .

That's how .. the bartley peeps call me SEX THERAPIST ! Btw .. don't think i'm freaking experienced ok ... I firmly stick to sex after marriage ... ( BTW .. I DEFINITELY don't wanna be a sex therapist .. haha .. It was just a joke cos .. many ppl ask the same question laa /// Eg . What uw anan be after ur A levels ... got sick of it ... yeah !! So i joked abt tt )

Haha .. let me tell you guys a lame joke on sex .. ok ?

Q : Why is it that sex is more pleasurable to woman then to man ?

A : Aiyah simple . Imagine the finger is the penis and the nose as the vagina . If you dig your
nose with your finger , which one got pleasure ?? Nose rite !! Ta-da .. **** Hahahah ****

Freakos .. don't freak out ok .. The reason that I typed that joke is because , I miss my days at SWISS COTTAGE . Yes .. My closest buddies know that I love to give funny comments on sex-related stuff haha ... I cannot believe that .. the first subject that I brought to my OG mates was actually SEX ! .. Haha .. I was talking to the girl's about spiking , dying and rebonding their pubic hair and I was also discussing about vibrators ... and NAT got excited .. she wanted me to buy her one .. MAn .. I myself never tried that b4 .. haha .. Infact .. I don't like anything that's not NATURAL * smirk * haha !!

Man .. I vowed to buy my own guitar ... I want NIMALEN to teach me how to play piano and guitar ... Man .. I wanna play very very romantic songs .. hehe Okok
I'm feeling freaking tired now ... And I realise that I uploaded 21 pixs to my friendster !! HAHAHA

The Picture of Dorian Gray - Oscar Wilde


The Preface
The artist is the creator of beautiful things.
To reveal art and conceal the artist is art's aim.
The critic is he who can translate into another manner or a new material his impression of beautiful things.
The highest as the lowest form of criticism is a mode of autobiography.
Those who find ugly meanings in beautiful things are corrupt without being charming.
This is a fault.
Those who find beautiful meanings in beautiful things are the cultivated.
For these there is hope.
They are the elect to whom beautiful things mean only beauty.
There is no such thing as a moral or an immoral book.
Books are well written, or badly written.
That is all.
The nineteenth century dislike of realism is the rage of Caliban seeing his own face in a glass.
The nineteenth century dislike of romanticism is the rage of Caliban not seeing his own face in a glass.
The moral life of man forms part of the subject-matter of the artist, but the morality of art consists in the perfect use of an imperfect medium.
No artist desires to prove anything.
Even things that are true can be proved.
No artist has ethical sympathies.
An ethical sympathy in an artist is an unpardonable mannerism of style.
No artist is ever morbid.
The artist can express everything.
Thought and language are to the artist instruments of an art.
Vice and virtue are to the artist materials for an art.
From the point of view of form, the type of all the arts is the art of the musician.
From the point of view of feeling, the actor's craft is the type.
All art is at once surface and symbol.
Those who go beneath the surface do so at their peril.
Those who read the symbol do so at their peril.
It is the spectator, and not life, that art really mirrors.
Diversity of opinion about a work of art shows that the work is new, complex, and vital.
When critics disagree, the artist is in accord with himself.
We can forgive a man for making a useful thing as long as he does not admire it.
The only excuse for making a useless thing is that one admires it intensely.
All art is quite useless.

Yo peeps . Don't ask me why I had such a stupid title for my blog . Well I just felt like having one . It's 12+ now and I am very tired . I just thought of blogging now because I am very stressed and needed a good break ( possibly trying to vent out my frustration on my blog ) .

Hehe .. Firstly .. Poor me .. the stupid education system of this so-called toughest phase of education in our life * A levels * has taken a great toll on my body . Haven't been able to sleep well for the past couple of days . Very tried actually . Druga suggested that I take more red bull as it'll gimme the wings to fly // but the fact is , where am i to fly too ? The bottom line is , I still have to go to school and do my A levels as that is the path that I had chosen after my O levels ( actually when I was in secondary 3 i chose to go to a JC yeah .. ) I shall not complain about it .

Hmm can't wait to hit that sack ... Hmm had a above average day today . Did PE .. Did 23 pull ups in 60 seconds .. man that's very very horrible .. I used to do above 30 ( last year ) .. I really dunno why i dropped drastically ... The only thing that I improved is my sit ups .. Normally i stop at 40 but this time I did 47 . Hmm .. really hope that my knee will heal soon .. Yeah .

Hmm watched pleasantville today . It was a great movie but I cannot take my mind off that masterbating thingy ... Haha ... Bridget thought that her pleasure was due to the bath she took ... but the fact is , she was masterbating underwater !! HAHAHAHA ... Never thought that masterbating would make u scream like that ... and .. haha steam turning into FIRE !! ( oops cat i meant ) Yeah .. And then we listened to some old songs ... 1 was Hotel California ( my fave song ) ... yeah .. the other one , I can't remember ... but I like this line from the song .

The language of love
has left me broken on the rocks

Hmm .. ok busy .. see you'll sooner !! Very busy now ...

Hmm today was an OK day .. haha

I was freaking disappointed with not going to BMTC . All the males had to go and a few selective girls would be chosen to go . I really wanted to go . So at 11.30 , I rushed to the hall to see if i can go . Then Ms cheah said only 9 girls could go . And 2 people from each class . I was devastated !! Eventually Bridget and Hui Jun were selected to go . I was ok with it .. but i was disappointed also ... But at least my buddy Bridget was going !!

Suddenly this malay guy from A4 ( i dunno his name ) , he was soo nice to say that he wants to give up his space for me to go . I was happy but I also felt bad because it's very much necessary for guys to go then gals .. rite .. ? Yeah . Honestly i really admire the guys man . Kendri , Adib , Sanjay , Shah and a few other guys actually said " it's ok vitz ... Nvm .. " and they also said " so sorry vitz " .. I was actually touched !! They actually understood a gal's heart ? It's very very rare to see guys really understanding a girl's emotion . I respect all those guys who understood my feelings :) thanx !

I returned back to Tamil class and Mr Kalai didn't allow me to have extended time for my test .. which carries 10% for my promos !! I need to score well for AO tamil so that when 50% of marks is taken from there , I can get an A grade for my final Higher Tamil !! So freaking complicated procedure ! I was really irritated and fed up when he refused to allow me to do the paper . So I ( listening to Nimalen's advice ) approached him after class and asked him to allow me to do the paper . I asked Ms cheah to help me ( cos she was the teacher in charged of the BMTC thingy ) . My tamil teacher ACTUALLY said that my attitude in class suck ! He said I talk alot and I didn't do well for my AO tamil !! Hello I got A1 for my AO tamil !! That is not good ?? Then what you want me to get ?? A-zero ?? the highest ?? or A1 +++ ?? ( if there's such a grade ?? ) Freaking shit !! I think he forgot that I take Higher Tamil ( for goodness sake .. I got 2nd in class with just losing the 1st spot by 1 mark !!! ) . How in the hell can he then say that I under-performed for my tamil ? I am not trying to act as though I'm superb good in tamil ( which i am seriously not ) ... It's just that .. I have a flair for languages !! I think I would've prospered if i'd taken some other language instead of tamil !! When your own tamil teacher ridicule you !!

Phew !! And I got another blow of disappointment .. I was all ready to go for the hockey training when Ms Watee was like " i don't wanna see u here until your knee is 100% fit !! " Man .. I was really dejected ... I didn't ask her to make me run or etc .. it's just that I wanted to play around ... even that is prohibited in my life !! Man .. where am I heading too .. ? Haiz .. sad sia ! Hehe .. I really wish that some miracle should happen and make my knee fit again .. like before ... so that I can start to ' fly ' around like a bird ----> Like how I always had used too

By the way .. today during lunch break , I was talking to some1 ( i really can't remember who ) , I was leaning against the front door of my class . I saw HIM coming . Infact he walked past me look right into my eyes and smiling ! Man I really feel like giving him a slap on his stupid face ! Haha ! And today another guy came up to me ( an indian guy from school .. I don't want to mention his name ) and asked me if I am attached !! Man .. do you know what I told him ?? haha " Yes ... I am attached to sports . I cannot stand the idea of me , going for something or someone else leaving behind something that is more worthwhile " Haha .. he looked stunned ! I was like .. " sorry to hurt your feelings but .. I am not in ( serious ) love with anyone yet ... and i don't want to go with someone else whom i don't love at all " hehe

I hope you understand .. I'm sorry to have hurt your feelings .. I don't mean too ... but circumstances .. I'm sorry !

Hmm ... Then i escaped from Al azhar shop .. cos I didn't have money to pay for the food haha !! Then i realised that I had 50 bucks in my wallet !! Then I went back to the shop and paid him and took back my food .. the guy in the shop probably thought that I was NUTZ !!

Haha ... so going to shop now .. See you guys !!

PS : I'm hungry again ... !! Haha !

I am seriously wondering why I'm blogging right now ! I have down with high fever @ 39.4 . Man feeling very lethargic . Having terrible headache too ! * man ... I hate this shit ! *

All this happened when I slept without eating ( btw I was bloody hungry .. but was too lazy to eat ) . So when I woke up again , I felt horribly hungry and I did instant noodles . I totally forgot that I cannot eat instant noodle when i am weak .. I don't know why this shit happens to me la ! Damn .. Cos I'm suffering now ..

Argghh ! Anyway today was not good at all . He didn't give any strange stares but when I went back to class after buying Amirul his apple tea , I saw him and he looked at the apple tea ! Haha .. I know that sounds very strange .. but i dunno la .. he's some mixed 'breed' I suppose . Who cares rite ? Well I don't !

Today the guys did well for the 2.4Km run . I couldn't run ( thanx to my f*cking knee ) .. , I couldn't do standing broad jump as well .. All i did was .. the sit ups .. did 47 .. it's not bad though .. thought of hitting 52 but .. hehe ..

I'm upset that i cannot do PE .. I really miss my PE time .. I miss sports , I miss my runs , I miss the exercises , I miss the muscle pulls .. I miss everything .. It's like breaking up with your boyfriend ! Man .. I miss my 1st love ( sports ) . 1/7/05 .. a horrible day that I'll never forget . A day that took away my happiness !

PS : God .. please help me .. I want my stupid knee to heal ASAP !!

Today was great . I don't understand this . I was supposed to feel very agitated and upset at the stuff that happened at the meet-the-parents session but I happened to be very very happy today . Infact Adib was like " Hey wat's up with u ? Why are u soo happy ? Who u met today " The answer is , I really don't know !! Haha .. Very weird eh ?

Today we had some sexual talk .. It was good ... But since I'm carrying along erm erm with me , It shouldn't be of a problem .. This is just incase .. you know , times are really bad and you tend to do things at the heat of the moment .. * haha * Just joking la .. I'm not interested in it la . Sports will take up the lion's share in my life .. that's it !

Ok .. coming to the part on why i'm feeling very very wierd . I am feeling very wierd with 1 guy from school . He's been giving me very very scary and .. erm .. strange and disgusting stares recently . All happened because I accidentally bumped into him .. He walks up & and down my class and pretends not to look inside but I know that he's looking inside and that's a very horrible feeling ! Normally i always have to walk past his classroom as his's is near the staircase and once I remember walking ( alone .. and he was alone in his class with a few of his friends studying ) . I was just casually giving a glance over my shoulder to see if he was looking at me and there he WAS looking at me to see if I looked at him ! My god !! I'm feeling scared !

In fact today .. we walked past each other ( very casually ) .. He was walking to go for PE and Our arms nearly brushed against each other .. instantly i realised it and took off my arm and he too walked away as though nothing happened . Feeling superb wierd now . I hope that I don't really get to know him in my MT class - cos I dun wanna know him .. for once I know that he is superb not active in class ! .. Argghh man ! Gimme a life !

Anyway going to do my LIT project .. Can u guys believe it !! I'm acting as LUCIO hahah !!

Vithiya 'Vitz'

11 Jan 1987

Undergrad (Psychology)

Manchester United

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